Chapter 99 Love is a disguise for our bodily desires 7 (1/2)

Roline listened but later she claimed to be sleepy. when she reached the stairs, she saw herself in An kai's hands walking up the stairs. she even saw herself looking at An kai as he smiled, everything in the Han house had something to do with An kai.

she walked up quickly not to get into another daze but when her eyes looked at the closeddoor in the far corner from her room, Roline was able to hear herself laughing really loud. she saw herself complaining to An kai about the kiss bills but minutes later, Roline found herself in An kai's room. she walked there in a daze.

looking at the well layed bed. everything was in its position. even her skin care products were well layed on thetable.

but time still went on, Roline covered himself in the bed and fell asleep. she hugged the pillow just like she used to hug An kai to sleep and as for An kai, he kept tossing and turning inbed. he wasn't sleepy at all.

when Roline sent him the paint, he deleted all the messages he had kept from their texts when still in Tria.

An kai reached for his phone out of habit, he wanted to reread all those texts but they weren't there, he turned to his photos. he had photos of Roline with himself. the photos they took after Roline's check up in the hospital after their first night in Tria.

”you said that good memories help to soothepain but it doesn't work, I can't explain the pain am feeling but it hurts terribly.

I don't want to stay with you 24/7, I just want to know that you love me back. I want you to find me a place in your heart. An kai felt really bad. tear beads started to form slowly in his eyes but it was really too embarrassing to cry.

of all the years he had lived, today was the first time he felt so much pain that he wanted to cry it out. he wanted to shout so loud, loud that all the pain he was feeling could disappear withthe cries, but what about the woman who gave up everything just to care for him? the woman who smiles bright just because he's fine.

thinking of Xia, An kai put away his phone and layed himself down. he closed his eyes so that tears never get the chance to come out.

the night was spent in agony, even An kenzi didn't sleep. he kept looking at the sky asking why the heavens were so unfair.

”I just want that kid to experience a bit of what those so called family of mine did, but why did things change so fast?

my son can't experience the same fate like me, I won't look at you ever again. until that boy is in the same position I was in years ago or even worse!