Chapter 360 - (2019: Case 02) Part 11 (1/2)

*UNEDITED*

Then again, it was the same with his wife. He changed because of her. Changing after meeting a single person, he feels like a simple person.

”What is it?” Akito asked despite his fl.u.s.tered state. He didn't realize that this girl could have this type of effect on him.

”Even though I gave you the necklace to stop me, you didn't. Since you realized if you were to do so now, I'd only end up hurt right?”

She figured it out? Of course, she did. Akito scratches his hair and looks away, as the girl continues, ”Really, you've always been so foolishly kind. Not as kind as that person. But, I'm always being spoiled by your kindness. ”

Even if that's the case, Akito still feels like he hasn't spoiled her enough.

”You always express your gratitude so strangely Setsura,” Akito didn't know how to react to her words. Is she trying to imply something else? Whenever she talked about anything, there is a hidden meaning behind everything.

Akito wanted to make sure he doesn't miss anything important.

”Is that so? I thought that was a straight forward confession if I say so myself..”

Why is she calling it a confession now? Although people do use the word confession for something other than romantic purposes.  Akito isn't comfortable hearing it from her now. If she says something like that, he wouldn't be able to control himself.

He shifts over until he backed against the wall, he will lose control of himself. It already feels like he will go crazy. She is right here in front of him but he still can't do anything.

”It looked like you were holding something back just now. That's why I said those words, did it get you agitated? If so I'm sorry. But, I like it better when you're being straightforward with me.”

Damm, Akito sighed, ”Setsura, you are making this difficult for me.” He didn't know what to say to her. Why is she suddenly acting so honest? He never saw this side of her before.

Akito knew even before they dated that Setsura had a complicated personality. Even with her lost memories, she had a very difficult personality to deal with. But, did that matter to him? Even if she has the worse personality in the world, nothing will stop him from loving her.

When I think about it my heart swells up with so much pain. Even though you guys have always been there for me and showing me your love, I could never return it and instead cause you all pain.”

He shook his head, as he shifted their position so there was some space between them. ”It's not your fault. Setsura you said it before, that love comes unexpectedly. What was it again? Something like crashing into your life like a metoire.”

”Ah, that's right. It really does have such a impact like that. I'm in love with my fiancée, I can't say it's my final choice yet since he won't let me. But the feelings I'll convey behind my recent action may be directed towards him only.”

”Ouch that hurts to hear,” he joked. ”But, I can bear with it.”

”Akito?” Setsura said sensing his different tone.

Akito gave her a bitter look, 'this girl does not understand does she?' ”I'm jealous you know? However, unlike before we had those talks in J, and even the night before you left. I feel a lot more at ease and calm. How to put it, there has been a change in my mental state recently.”

”Mental state?” she repeated.

”Yeah, I spoke to someone about it. By someone I mean it was only Natasha. It was difficult to tell her about it honestly. And when I finished telling her about it, I felt relieved in more ways than one. Moreover, I've dealt with youth a lot recently. So I remembered many things about you, and about myself. And I became capable seeing it objectively. I always thought that I only experienced bad things in the past but I started to think now that it wasn't like that. I was able to live as a normal kid despite my family background, and I had an ally, someone who acted as my hero also, and a person I fell in love with. Those three things all described you. It was because of you that I saw the light, when I thought about it that way. I feel like talks about the past will carry more light than darkness from now on.”

That's right, even though it may still be difficult for them to properly talk about everything in detail. They have already had many short talks regarding the matter. What happened that time too too; as well as the fleeting moments they spent together when he started to drop by openly to see her.

His thoughts broke off when he felt the  warmth of her hand pressed against his cheek. Their foreheads softly brushed against each others. His eyes widened, 'Ah..' What is she trying to do now?

”If someone is near death in the south

He goes and says, ”Don't be afraid”

If there are strife and lawsuits in the north

He demands that the people put an end to their pettiness

He weeps at the time of drought

He plods about at a loss during the cold summer

Everyone calls him Blockhead

No one sings his praises

Or takes him to heart . . .

That is the kind of person I want to be ” she whispered ever so quietly.