Chapter 344 - Chauncey and Yang Part 9 (1/2)
*UNEDITED*
”Truly, it was something I noticed a long time ago and yet when he told me he found clues to his wears bouts. I knew that I had to push those thoughts to the back of my mind. In order for me to truly be able to love someone, I wanted to sort everything out with you first. And when I did my thoughts did traced back to Akito. When I thought about it again after spending time apart from him I ended up with all sorts of thoughts.
But in the end I got this sort of feeling, ' I don't know why he is so familiar to me, or why it feels like I am getting to know him more as though I am remembering who he is. How his every action or every whisper brought me to closer to the impossible conclusion. The conclusion that I met him in a different time and place.' ” Setsura gaze softens, ”Even now I still think that way, that I already met him a long time ago and that these feelings did not just appear out of the blue.”
”I see, the mystery is solved,” Chauncey muttered. The reason why she felt so familiar to him, it's most likely because they shared a connection in a past life.
”And yet in one of those life times, I fell in love with someone else.”
At that comment his eyes widened.
”I won't talk about that now though. Let's see there's actually some mundane and simple reasons why I fell for Akito,” Setsura sighed.
”Simple?”
”Hmm, yeah. Like the way he calls my name. .? And the way he holds me in his arms. The way he casually used to touch me with eyes filled with affection that didn't give away his feelings for me. Oh, his smile too and the way he laughs. I suppose I found myself attracted to every single movement.”
Chauncey's eyes widened when he hears those words.
The things he was embarrassed to say, she says so easily. So it's more or less aligns with the reason he fell for her. He supposed every person who falls in love falls for the first time, ends up falling for the little details of the person.
”We were always together then. To be honest, I'm not exactly sure what is it about him I like. All that stuff I mentioned seems minor for a real relationship after all. But the summer when I was 14 when he suddenly disappeared and left me, I realised I lost a part of myself. Strange right?
No not at all. It was the same for him. He didn't want to leave her side at all. The time they spent apart left a huge whole in his heart. Is he walking normally? Is he talking right? Is he acting like himself?
Chauncey no longer knew what was happening anymore. Ever since he met her, everything has become a mess.
His gaze softens as he looked up at the ceiling, whenever he sees stars or even a spec of light he can't help but think of you. He can't help but associate everything bright with this girl.
”Maybe it's far sightedness. I can clearly see the stars in the far distance. And I lose sight of the stars that have become so close to me.”
Even though they are all together now; and they have all expressed their feelings. They can all no longer go back to how things were before. Perhaps that's why, he's feeling this way now.
”Maybe everyone's like that. Even though they want to remain close to those stars, in order to move forward with their lives they have no choice but to let go of the stars that are so close to them. It's the same with people. Even though they want to be with each other all the time, it's not simple. But even then they find ways to meet each other again,” she muttered.
Setsura isn't anything like that weak and fragile girl he fell in love with despite their similar appearance and certain traits. However Chauncey knows from now onwards, he wants to make things better. Whether it's everything at home or his relationsh.i.p.s with other people.