Chapter 319 - Feel like Trash (2/2)
Setsura wonders why that is. She had asked him before after he caught her staring and yet he simply told her, that it was because he wasn't bothered anymore. Not bothered… That reason does sound like something he would say. However Setsura can't help but think that maybe there's something else. If there is… she wonders if ---- no, she shouldn't pry any further.
She already decided. No matter what happens she can't allow him to remember. Usually Yang would briskly walk ahead and she would just be staring at his back. But now he is walking right beside her. It's almost as if, as if they were still connected together.
Setsura glances at her wrist reflexively but of course the chain is no longer there.
And yet for some reason Yang is still right beside her at this moment. It's not as though she found this unpleasant it's just that he would normally hate to be in a situation like this.
There is nothing unpleasant about this right now. In fact she likes it a lot. Setsura blinks, realizing her words. She likes it? What is she thinking? ” You don't have to force yourself to match my pace, ” Setsura broke the silence.
She doesn't know why she suddenly said that. Usually she isn't the one who breaks the silences. Maybe it's because if she didn't talk, she feels as though those thoughts would almost spiral out of control.
”Huh? I'm not trying to match…” Yang trails of as though he just realised that they were walking side by side. Did he not realize before?
Yang suddenly increases his speed and was suddenly walking much further ahead.
It hit her suddenly that they were supposed to be fighting. After that incidence it was clear that was what they should be doing. Though they never discussed it properly. Yang left in the middle of the night. He didn't stay with her, she didn't know where he went. But when she woke up briefly in the morning, he wasn't there.
The alcohol is still sticking to his clothes, and those lip stick marks on his neck and clothes. Setsura knew what happened. So when she raised her hand to slap him, Yang let her.
”You cheated on me?”
”Yeah.”
”Bastard,” Setsura cursed. Sure she stopped him from saying the words, 'I love you.' But did he really have to cheat on her?
”I don't have an excuse.”
Why? Why doesn't he make an excuse for himself? Is he really going to act this way? She suddenly feels so terrible. She doesn't want things to end badly between them. Setsura knew it would be difficult when she eventually has to break up. But, she wanted to treasure the memories before then.
Her thoughts broke off when Yang pulled her into his arms. ”Don't cry Setsura.”
”Then should I yell at you?” Setsura exclaimed. ”You're such a bastard, let go of me.”
”Setsura, just...just don't do this. I, it was a mistake.”
She's heard this excuse many times before. But nobody said them directly to her. Now she understood what all those girls who got cheated on felt like. So this how they felt, she feels like a piece of trash. Even though she acted jealous and unreasonable in front of Akito regarding that servant girl. Akito didn't cheat on her. Actually being cheated on feels a lot worse.
”Bastard, don't touch me anymore.”
Yang didn't say anything but continued to hug her. It's too late, she can't ever look at him the same way. But for now, for now she will remain in his arms - since she does love him.