V4C38 – I Never Said I Was Going To Sleep (2/2)
Although I also had the feeling of guilt towards Meng QingQing, my heart never felt the same as I actively interacted with her in a positive manner.
Ye XiaoXiao? Was it because this matter happened quite early after my rebirth, so the impression in my heart was quite profound? Or was it because she was the first woman I fantasized about after my rebirth?
Perhaps, men will have a lot of delusions about beautiful women before they had experienced life with them first-hand, but after experiencing life with a lot of beautiful women, each better than the other, they will rarely have any fantasy about another beautiful woman.
I had heard that she was studying in B City now, but I don’t know in which institute she was. I had inquired Uncle Ye thrice but he just said he didn’t know anything. Now, Uncle Ye no longer regarded me as his son-in-law candidate nor did he know what happened between me and Ye XiaoXiao, and Ye XiaoXiao had also repeatedly mentioned to him that there was someone very important to her in B City, so she couldn’t return, therefore Uncle Ye naturally believed that Ye XiaoXiao now had a boyfriend!
Why don’t I look for her? As time went by, my urge to find Ye XiaoXiao lessened! It turned out to be because when I was really crazy to be with her I couldn’t even find her.
Now, with my current strength and network, finding a single person in B City wouldn’t be an issue. Whether it is making my underground forces, the Three Rock Gang do it or making my friend from the police, Zhong Yang, find her, it wouldn’t take long. However, I don’t understand why I won’t do it! What was I hesitating about? Was I afraid to face her? No, I am convinced at heart that I want to make her the happiest woman!
In my heart, I was afraid that Ye XiaoXiao had already found someone she loved and started a new life! And my appearance would undoubtedly be a kind of disaster in her current life!
It is true that I had a very favorable impression of Ye XiaoXiao in the past, but it was only one-sided. Later, the only reason Ye XiaoXiao had any feelings for me was that I had taken her first time. Women would always have some good feelings towards the man who took their first time as it was special! {TL Note: Consentual first-time!}
But now that such a long time had passed, I believe that Ye XiaoXiao would have gotten over the matter already. On top of that, Uncle Ye’s words made me a bit afraid!
Perhaps, this would forever remain as my only regret after my rebirth! I had once vowed to never have any regrets in this life, but it seems I have failed to do that!
Although I could rely on my current ability to force Ye XiaoXiao to stay on my side, in that way, I will only get her body and never get her heart. It would be an even greater failure and regret!
A notification sound on MSN made me return to reality.
I glanced at the computer screen and saw that Yang Mei had closed the web pages and was now chatting with her friends.
A person called “Gangster Li” was the one chatting with Yang Mei right now. In this era, due to the influence of “Gangster Cai” and his <>, many people were willing to use the same usernames as his pen name mixed with some other strange symbols, and the result was, Gangsters were all over the internet. Later, these people would wish to add some other characters and symbols to distinguish themselves and erase this dark stain of their lives left from the time when their brains were going haywire! {TL Note: The author Gangster Cai and his book “The First Intimate Contact!” – }
“How are you? What have you been doing recently!”
“Dear, I miss you!”
“Why don’t you talk?”
“Are you there?”
Yang Mei disregarded these messages directly and was chatting with another friend of her.
“That man is talking to you, why are you ignoring him?” I asked.
“Oh, that’s Li Xiaogang. Every time I go online, he will send me messages, annoying me all the time.” Yang Mei said, “Oh, right! What is your MSN?”