Chapter 104: Sword Deviation (1/2)
”But, what is true love? I don't know the answer. I was just a fat and ugly girl who didn't even deserve love. Do you know when you don't even have bread to eat, even the food in the garbage will feel like cuisine?”
”I was the same. I didn't even have a single man who truly loved me for who I am. I wasn't some beautiful actress or some cute little girl. I was fat, ugly, short, and dumb. I was the worst. Some treated me like garbage, some treated me like a pig, and some treated me like a punching bag.”
”Now, I am beautiful, slender, tall, and smart. I am the best. But, people still treat me like garbage to dump their cum, some treated me like a pig hungry for their dicks, and some treated my womb like a punching bag.”
”But, there was a difference. Before I only felt hate, frustration, sadness, and I cried, and cried again. But now, I only feel pleasure, happiness, and I moan and moan again. One life for me was hell while another was heaven.”
”But, even both of my life, I never loved a person. No, I loved someone when I was in hell. But, when I was in heaven, everyone felt like dust except for you. In this heaven, you are like an angel to me. You are like a lucky charm to me.”
At this moment, Qiao Fu touched his forehead with her and said ”Do you know what love truly is? Because I don't know. Whenever I think about you, I feel my heart excited. Whenever I see you treating Yue Bin with every bit of love, I feel jealous and sad. Whenever I hold you, I feel like the time has stopped for me.”
”I don't want this to happen to me. I don't know if this is truly deep love. But, I know one thing. For you, that goal is like dust to me. For you, even my dream seems like nothing to me.”
”Do you know before I feared getting used by someone because of lack of control on my body? Now, I still have the same fear but, this fear has grown to an unprecedented level that I feel my heartbroken every time I think about it.”
”But, one thing always keeps me reassured. If I ever betray you, I know you will kill me. No matter how much you say that you won't kill the betrayer until they make move, you can't lie to yourself. I know just by thinking of someone betraying you makes you angry, frustrated, and sad.”
”Tell me, Qin, can you truly control yourself when someone betrays you?”
When she asked, Qin turned silent. He was lost in her words. But, her last words made him startled. He couldn't help but chuckle.
”Yeah, you are right. I can't control myself. If someone betrays me, I will slice their throat.”
”That's a relief! It means I can continue loving you without any hindrance.” Qiao Fu smiled and replied.
”If you truly love me, then just think about controlling your body! I don't think you having sex with someone else is wrong. Because I have sex with you and Yue Bin. The only difference between us is our gender. You also have human feelings and I also have human feelings.”
”Of course, I can't accept this. I think I am starting to realize just how selfish I am. I want to get stronger, not caring about others. I want to have you, Yue Bin, Tan sisters by myself. But, this selfishness makes me who I am.”
”I can't share my woman with others but my woman must share me with others. Once I said to Yue Bin that I will love a woman that can stare into my eyes and tell me 'If you love someone else, I will kill her in front of you.”
”But, now I don't think I can accept. Cultivation has made me selfish. I want the resources for myself. I want girls for myself. And, I want to get stronger by myself. That's my sword cultivation. And, that's everything to me.”
”It feels weird to say this. But, I am waiting for a day when I will be able to give up my sword for my women. Because now, I don't think I can do that. I don't want to be selfish.”
”No, don't give up the sword.” Suddenly, Qiao Fu screamed at him and made him startle. He didn't understand why she said that. But, he gave her a curious gaze.
”Why give up your sword? Sword is everything to you. Dual Cultivation, Devil Cultivation, these are just the path towards your dream. And, what is your dream? It is to have a family. But, that's just a dream. Why do you have a dream?”
”Because you want to achieve something. And, if you become the strongest in this sword, wouldn't it be easy to fulfill your dream? Your swordsmanship doesn't describe your dream. It speaks of your purpose. My dream is to have true love. But, my purpose of life is not that.”
”I am still trying to figure out what my purpose truly is. But, you already have that answer in your mind. Your purpose in life is to become a swordsman. That's your original intention. Don't give up your purpose because of woman!”