C89 (1/2)

Kids sometimes ask such questions. Is language the first thing in the world? Or were there words first? Actually, this question is very easy to answer. When our ancestors invented the words, they first formed a virtual shape in their minds based on the pronunciation and rhythm of the words, then drew out the words that they were about to express.

”I like you” and ”I love you”. Since ancient times, it has always been easy to learn from the pen strokes of fonts or the pronunciation of fonts. We don't gabble because pronunciation is difficult, and we don't forget how to pronounce those words because of our emotional agitation.

At this moment, I was also in the same state. Even though it was possible that the words I said could have stuttered due to my emotional agitation, I definitely wouldn't stammer. Furthermore, there was another person in my mind who was leading me and encouraging me, making it even more impossible for me to make any mistakes.

Sometimes, the fate of two people is always inadvertently established. Sometimes, his confession to the girl he liked was also accidentally made. I concentrated all the courage I had buried in my heart for more than 20 years at this point in time. I stared at the dream angel I had for so long, like a woman in autumn. It was then that I finally said those words to her.

F * ck me!

Yes! I don't deny that in that split second just now, I did say something to Liao Mengfann: ”I'll go!”

Not because I was nervous, not because I was afraid, but because at that point in time, perhaps because my brain had broken down, the voice in my head suddenly disappeared. At the same time that I disappeared, a voice suddenly echoed in my head saying, ”Holy shit!”. I, who was highly focused, thought of that voice as my own. The two words were subconsciously said by me as well.

What I said went through my eardrums to the nerves of my brain. My heart was filled with regret, I angrily turned around, and saw Wei Shijie with his mouth wide open, staring at the two of us. He looked as if he couldn't believe it. The 'I'll go' from before was also from him.

I sighed in my heart, and Liao Mengfann also took the opportunity to walk out from my embrace. She lowered her head to tidy up her messy hair, I regained my senses, and I subconsciously wanted to grab her hands.

But Liao Mengfann's speed is very fast. Maybe it's because she deliberately avoided me, or maybe it's because Wei Shijie's electric light bulb was in the room, but she quickly dodged me.

Sometimes, a smile could explain everything. Sometimes, a smile could also hide everything. I don't know what kind of emotions and thoughts were mixed within that smile of Liao Mengfann's, but at that moment, I felt as if I had received some sort of answer.

I sighed in my heart. I asked myself, is it that hard for me to say those words? Why can't I say it? Was I really disturbed by Wei Shijie just now? Or is it that deep down in my heart, there is a resistance to my original idea?

I couldn't find the answer to the question, and I couldn't get the answer at the same time. Perhaps there really is some destiny in this world? Liao Mengfann and I became sworn brothers in the 12.1 big case, and because I fell in love with her at first sight, I saved her at the moment of crisis. At that moment, Liao Mengfann, who was wholeheartedly seeking death, changed her original fate due to my interference.

As a result of my reckless intervention, my body was similarly burdened with a terrible and strange disease. Perhaps from that day on, our fates will be changed. Similarly, our fates are intertwined. God is fair, or perhaps he is punishing us. In short, he sent Liao Mengfann back to my side, so the two of us had no choice but to pay a heavy price for changing our fates. On the rough, dark road ahead, we had to encourage each other, support each other, and maybe die, but it was also good to think about it, at least we were together every day, at least we shared many wonderful memories.

Actually, we are quite lucky. How many people who love each other in this world can't be together? How many lovesick men and women, on lonely nights, with a phone in a cold bed to get that little bit of warmth in their hearts?

Looking at Liao Mengfann's back figure, I felt a little helpless and sad in my heart. The only chance I have right now is destroyed by Wei Shijie, but if I think about it carefully, maybe I'm not ready either, right?

Wei Shijie was still standing motionlessly at the door. I walked towards him and half-jokingly said: ”You didn't even know to knock on the door when you came back, and you were so shocked. Do you want to scare me to death?”

”Big brother!” Wei Shijie innocently pointed to the door, ”You didn't close either! Remember, next time! ”

As he spoke, Wei Shijie revealed a vulgar smile towards me. He narrowed his eyes into slits, then led my gaze towards Liao Mengfann, ”Remember to close the door next time, ah, better lock it. Sigh, to disturb you two, I feel that my conscience is a little uneasy!”

Cough cough!

Maybe because of the awkwardness, Liao Mengfann coughed lightly at the side. I raised my leg and pretended to kick Wei Shijie, but in my heart, I was actually rather grateful to this guy. With this fellow joking between us, maybe Liao Mengfann and I can really let this go and walk together naturally. After all, there are some things that would naturally become true if you say too much!