Chapter 1189 - One Beautiful Night VII (2/2)

'You're my summer, my spring, and my winter' she said and she smiles like she was recalling something

'It's crazy how much I love you. And it is crazy that we are in love with each other, and yet we could not be together'

She smiles bitterly and then continue

'I don't know when it starts. But the moment I fall in love with you, it seems that there is no way out. I just keep falling deeper in love with you'

Katarina then brought her hands to his cheek and come closer to his face, so that he would see her and she smiles at him

'I…...am like you Azief. I thought you were still with Sofia. So, I wanted to treat you like you are a friend. Because I don't want to make you sad' there is tears forming in her eyes and as the first drop was about to fall, Azief wipes it

'Don't cry. Not you' he said. Katarina smiles and said

'I can't fight for us…. if you don't want to fight for us'

There was silence between them for a moment.

On the sky, the clouds did not cover the moon, the moonlight shining brightly illuminating the night sky, so much so, that one might not feel that it is night

It gave the night a certain ambience. The wind blows gently and everything seems beautiful

Then she said

'Last night, when I heard that you have broken up with her, I felt…. both sad and yet I was also feeling happiness. I felt sad that you have to go through that. I felt sad that she broke your heart. And I felt sad because I don't understand why she would do that. I know you and her must have some reason. Maybe it is because of me. Or maybe it is because of something else. I don't know'

Azief just listen to Katarina. He does not know where Katarina is going with this

'What I do know is this. If I love you and you love me and we are together, I would never let you go. I was never a lovesick girl until I met you. I have never loved something and worried about something as much as I loved and worried about you. And I felt sad for her because I know she made the wrong decision'

Azief look at her and raised his eyebrows

'What wrong decision? Breaking up with me?'

Katarina shakes his head

'Saying no.' she smiles and said

'Saying no to spending the rest of her life with you' Azief was shocked to hear her say that.

'I felt happy because now I can express what I feel. But I can't do it alone' Then Katarina lean in and kiss him.

It is a light kiss, not like some kind of a passionate lover kissing. It is a gentle kiss and it is brief. In her kiss, there is a demand. A demand for an answer.

And Azief answers it as he kisses her back. Just five minutes before midnight.

That is the feeling that they both felt, right at the last moment, when everything is said and done, one action reveals all of their feelings.

Katarina release him from her kiss and they both are out of breath. She looks at him and she smiles like a little imp, like she got the answer she wanted

Azief look at her dumbfounded, because of what she did and what he did.

She smirks and chuckles and then she got up from the sofa

'I wanted to talk to you tonight because I wanted to know where your heart lies. And now…I see that you are still confused. You love me, you wanted to kiss me, you wanted to hold me but yet you don't allow yourself to do all this. But….' and she chuckles a bit, 'Some part of you is very honest'

Then she sighed and said

'I don't want to force you to love me. That is not the kind of love that I wanted. And I will not be giving you an ultimatum. But I hope that…. that you know what you want Azief. Because you cannot do this to me…all the time'

'You could not give me hope and then breaks it. You could not say that you would forget me but protect me from the dark. I want you to know what you wanted'

'And if that is me, then that is great. If its Sofa, then that's good. But…...know what you want. Because I will not always be here. And I will not always be waiting. If there is anything that I have learned since the Fall, it is that life….is never certain'

Katarina look at the stars in the distance and she smiles bitterly and then she said

'I will forget what happen last night. But I hope you would not forget about what tonight. I would just treat what happens last night as a day where you suddenly get sentimental and want a warmth of a person you know' Then Katarina walk away from the balcony.

Azief look at her back and there is a complicated expression on his face. He knows he should catch up on her.

But he also knows if he did that, then tonight would be a beginning of something new. He got up from the sofa, looking at the back of the woman he loves, walking away.

And he is struggling with all kinds of emotions and memories, his hope about Sofia, his desire not to hurt Katarina and the feeling of love he felt for both of these two beautiful and amazing woman and he knows he has to make a choice. He had made it before but it did not go the way he wanted

He doesn't want it to not work again. And it has only been a few months. He could not just forget about what happens with Sofia and just goes to Katarina like he is changing clothes.

That is not just who he is. It is easier, if he just did not want anything. But he wants many things. And he doesn't know how to solve these feelings and those two feelings.

The silhouette of Katarina is fading. Azief is still looking. And then he made his decision. He looks at the moon first and he thought to himself

'The moon is beautiful, isn't it?' He thought of the words that Natsume Soseki uses and he smiles

Then he takes his step

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