Chapter 1188 - One Beautiful Night VI (2/2)

Azief shakes his head and trying to find the perfect word of how to start this kind of conversation. Azief was never an eloquent speaker.

And because of his reputation and image, there is not a lot of places where he needs to speak. So, finding the perfect word for this kind of situation is not easy

Because…and he perish the thoughts in his mind. Not wanting to be tempted by the feelings he had hold back.

'This past five months…. I got to know you again' he said. Katarina nodded and then Azief continued.

There is a smile on his face

'I always have this certain idea of you. But I never really knew you. I know your pain. And I know what makes you happy. But all of it was on the surface. There is a lot of things I don't know about you'

Katarina then ask

'And knowing me…...were you disappointed?' she asks. Azief shakes his head and said

'I've never been more proud and happy to know you. The you that I don't know. The you of the past. That Katarina. That little girl that grows up to be this beautiful and most breathtaking woman I have ever had the pleasure of knowing'

'And then I realized something as I know more about you, learns more about you.'

'What did you realize?' She asks. Azief look at her, looking at that green eyes and black hair and he said

'I realize that I truly had fallen in love with you from the very first moment I saw you' he said and there is a smile on his face.

A smile that seems to hold all kinds of meaning. It is like a mix of happiness, pride and all around wholesome feeling contained in one smile.

He said it with such serious tone and Katarina, even though she was trying to maintain her tortured expression could not help but blush

Azief chuckles as tap her nose with his finger

'Hey' she said and Azief laughs. Then he said

'I realized then, it didn't matter what I know or not know about you. I would love what you love and hated what you hate simply because from the first moment I saw you, you have enchanted me, both mind and soul'

Such words, such powerful words strike Katarina heart like a Cupid shooting its love arrows. But, she doesn't understand what point Azief is trying to make.

He shakes his head and he said

'When I first came to this world, I was in a bad place. I just had broken up with her. Sofia rejected me' Katarina nodded

She had heard the story.

Azief continues

'But I am not angry at her. I know why she did it. I could understand it in my mind why she would do that'

Sighing, he said

'Because I know her pain and I know her scars. She sees me and she reminded of a mistake in her past, a mistake she knows too well not to repeat. I could not assuage that fear because that is not something I could do. It is something that she must solve by herself. There are things I could help with and then there are things that one must fight for themselves'

He closes his eyes and lean back on the sofa and then opens it back again and then he said

'I have my own demons to fight. Some is easier to fight when someone is with you. And some are demons that only you could fight. And if you want that happy ending, you want your happiness, then that is a fight you must win. So.…. I accept it' he hesitated to say something but then he added

'Each moment since she broke it off with me, I restrained myself not to just fly toward her and bring her back with me to Pandemonium. I could do that. I could just warp space around me, opens up a portal around where she is, I could listen to her, see her wherever she was…but I did not do that. Because I understand her pain'

'And? What about you?' She asks. Azief was shocked for a moment and his eyes looking at Katarina become even gentler.

He shakes his head and said

'Yes….me'

He then said

'I understand her actions…. but that did not mean it doesn't hurt'

'When you love someone, when you ask them to marry you, hoping to spend the rest of your life with them, hoping that in that moment, the split second moment from the moment you ask her to marry you and then hoping the words that come out from her mouth is yes, it was the most nerve-racking moment in my life'

Katarina didn't like hearing about him, talking about another woman in front of her but she did not stop him.

It was like he is venting and she ask him

'You told me you pull out a ring'

Azief nodded

'It is not my culture to propose using a ring. But I did it because she once mentioned that she finds it romantic. I'm not telling you this to hurt you. I'm telling you this so that you could understand why when I first arrive here and saw you, I could not admit the truth'

'You have always been good in hiding your pains' Katarina said and Azief snickers, probably at himself.

'That is not a good ability at all'

Then he said

'I believe she would come back. I wanted to give her time. And I don't want to do something wrong'

'I know what you feel for me Katarina. I feel it too. But, I know she would never come back if something happened between us. Because her fears were always about us. She fears to be betrayed. To be lied to'

'And because of that she found it easier if I blame her. She wanted to end it because she didn't like who she had become and she didn't like that she knew that she would always, always will be paranoid about me and you. The jealousy, the envy, it turns her into something else and she did not like that. And to her, it is better to hurt me now, before I hurt her later. Because…...the pain is now too much'

Katarina look down for a second, trying to digest what Azief had been saying and then she understood something