Chapter 1164 - The Price Of Power I (1/2)

At that time, he appears to be so invincible that nothing appears to be able to defeat him.

But, that person, the person he saw in his vision of the future, had such cold eyes. Indifferent to everything around him.

There is nothing. And it is nothing like him. He did not feel disgusted seeing his future self. He just feels…...nothing.

And that is the terrifying part of it all. When he saw himself in the future, he felt like he was seeing someone else entirely.

There was no humanity in him, in that eyes. It is the same eyes that he has right now, yet seeing it, he felt like there is a void in there

And when he saw there is no humanity in his own eyes, it is not like he is a beast or a devil…. just simply the feeling of looking at an abyss that have no end, that is eternal, endless, with no beginning and no end, yet at the same time, there is this contradiction of feelings when he saw his own eyes.

There is that feeling of eternality, of endlessness, yet at the same time he felt like that same abyss that gives him that feeling of eternality also gives him the feeling of end, of a true end…whatever that means

Feelings is the hardest things to describe and to make sense of. He doubts that Will who was with him at that time felt the same feeling he felt.

And even though that feeling remains in his heart even until now, he still could not make sense of it.

Emotions, feelings, these intangible things have no power…at least not something that is visible. In the world before the Fall, the effects of feelings and emotion rarely affected the world.

But Azief knows that in magical worlds, sometime great emotions could trigger great magic.

Oaths, promises, all of these things are sacred for there are Great Wills that is all over the stream of existence.

No magic, no effect. But a world touched by magical and mystical power, never underestimate the power of emotion to affect reality

Azief had feared that he is slowly getting crazy. He felt burdened. Not by responsivity but by information that threatened to fills his mind in random moments.

And it is getting worse.

If not for the fact that he had time to stop and rest a bit in the Seresian world, if he is at Pandemonium considering that Pandemonium always had threat in the dark trying to undermine its authority, Azief is quite sure he would be thinking for the whole day

Once he started thinking, his thinking branches to another problem, to another topic, and as it branches it gives birth to other possibility.

While this is good in the beginning as it made Azief think the bigger picture and enables him to see through the plots and schemes of people who try to bring him down as he grows more powerful he began to sense that something is wrong.

When he is in his thinking mode, he is very rational.

Scarily rational.

Sometime, in his thinking, sentimentality, emotion, rights or wrong were all thrown to the side and only rational thoughts remains.

Sometime however, his thought would think about his relationship and emotions overwhelms him that it almost paralyzed him.

Anything brought to the extreme is bad.

Too much sugar is bad for you. Too much salt is also bad for you. There must be balance. And Azief is realizing that the balance that is present in his heart and his mind in the past is slowly becoming unbalanced

And that is a terrible thing especially considering how powerful he is.

And as he felt unbalanced, he thought of himself in that future he saw and he could not help but feel scared.

Yes, he feels scarfed.

There are not many things in this world that Death Monarch is afraid of.

But he feels scared, knowing that the possibility of him being that ”thing” he saw in the future.

Just thinking about it gives him the shivers.

He did not want to be that thing.

And while most of the time, he had a good track record of hiding that part of the memory from himself the moment he felt like he is going crazy, the thought that ”this is it. This is how it begins” fills his mind and that is not a good thought to have

Sometimes, it is that vision of the future that kept him at night

And each time he thought of that vision of the future, his mind would inadvertently go to Sofia.

He decided that Sofia is a person he could trust. In the end, Sofia would point that arrow to him. But he refuses to believe that is the future that they have.

He wanted to break that future. So, he proposes. He just didn't expect that the timing wasn't right