Chapter 1149 - A Side Only She Knows (1/2)

'A message for me?'

'Don't worry. The message is not long. They seem confident that you would come for me'

Azief smiles bitterly and said

'Was there ever any doubt?' Then he said

Katarina. I would always come for you'

Katarina only smiles and said

'I have faith' she simply answers that.

There is another silence between them.

For a moment, the words that they say seems to reflect the things in their hearts.

Yet, each time, there is always something that just is not complete. Never…. all the way. Because while love is not complicated, life is.

Azief did not start anything with Katarina. Because he did not want to cheat toward Sofia. Sofia had a bad past

Her boyfriend once cheated on her. And Azief don't want to be that person to her. He doesn't want her to see him and remember that past memory

He doesn't want her to see him and think of him as a man that betrays him. Because Azief had been betrayed before.

And it is not a good feeling. Trust is not easy to gained.

But it is easy to break.

When someone trusted a person heavily, and to see that trust being betrayed, the feeling of betrayal is like a poison running through your veins.

It forms a trauma. It makes you hard to trust anyone else. And at least, Azief don't want to be like that to her.

That is why Sofia was always obsessed about being the only one.

It is not that she simply wanted to monopolize his feelings. She simply didn't want to get betrayed…. again.

She fears that Azief would one day betray her.

And that fear drove her to feeling insecure.

It drove her to be something she is not, this jealousy incarnates, this highly volatile emotional person and she does not like that.

She sees herself changing and not in a good way and she knows sooner or later, she would either end up hating herself or hating him

And the conclusion of that scares her.

Because she is done hating herself and she never wanted someone that she loves become someone that she hated.

And Azief understand it.

So, he buried his feeling towards Katarina. He wanted Sofia to see that he is committed to this. That he believes in the two of them

He believes in them…...together.

But each time Sofia ask the question about Katarina, he would never give Sofia an answer. Because he didn't want to lie. But if he speaks, then that would break Sofia heart.

He had made a promise to Sofia. That he would never lie to her. That is a promise he had try to keep.

In the end, he still hurt Sofia. Only it is not lies that hurts her. It's the truth. And the hurt has become so much, that she could no longer bear it.

Because she would always be wondering when she was with him. Is she the one that he settled for?

Did he choose her because of some sense of responsibilities? Is it because of old memories that he chose her?

That is what she thought. And such thought could breed resentment. And because she did not want to hate him, she let him go.

And that is why she went away.

Just a few days ago, he had broken up with her. As such, he could not just suddenly be with Katarina, at least not in the way that Katarina wanted.

Because then when they got back home and if Sofia see him with Katarina, he would hurt Sofia again.

She might think that she was right all along. That she was the chain holding him back. That she was…. the woman that he had pitied.

He doesn't want her to think like that. He doesn't want to make her feel like she had never been wanted.

He had been in a crush. he had felt what it was like to love someone and knowing that someone would never love him back