Chapter 851: Who say he could not love? (2/2)

After all, his other self they are only given part of the mission. They know the endgame, yes

But they don't have the knowledge of all the events. As such, their views on things might be incomplete

Some of the memories was taken from them so that they might chart a new path. And this is one of Loki toss of the dice.

The Seven Loki's are all him. They have his feelings and his desires, and in all intent and purposes they are him.

He believes that he need to introduce the unpredictability of himself into the equation of the probability of the future.

If he is the mature Loki meeting Azief in that forest in Malaysia a couple of years ago, the things that he had done might be different

But the more different he became, the odder he became, the more the probability of Time would backlash against him.

Magic had appeared the moment the All Source landed on Earth. It might recognize him as a threat if he shows too mecum oddity.

Loki had never dare to treat All Source as some kind of unfeeling tool. Those who have tried to treat it like a tool have all suffered terrible fate

Loki plans of separating himself into seven parts with each one having one part of the memory requires him to trust someone. He had to trust someone he had never trust before.

And who is that person? He, himself.

He sometimes thinks of that decision as either one of his most brilliant scheme or one of his most misguided one

He had no guarantee whatsoever that the Loki that separated from him would not develop other thoughts.

If they do develop another thought, this did not mean that Loki would be angry. After all, the experiences and the new ideas that they might find along the way might even surprise himself.

Yes, Loki was hoping for something with this plans of his. He is searching for hope. Because unlike the other six that separated from him, he knows the entirety of what is about to happen and all the details

He knows many secrets of the Omniverse that his current incarnation did not yet learn and he knows the ending. And because of that, he is a hopeless person. He had no hope.

And he wanted to bear it because it is not a baggage he could give his incarnation which would demotivate them.

He sometime even envied his other self that do not have the full knowledge of the future.

Because they could move forward without hesitation, just by relying on that hope.

Number Seven Loki had decided from the very beginning, that hope could be a source of strength but it is also a source of suffering

As such, Number Seven Loki decided to take all that suffering and gives that ray of sunshine of hope to his other incarnations.

He on the other hand had no hope left. And for those who have no hope, they die a slow death, like a tree in fall, shedding each hope like leaves that fall to the ground.

Yet, the other season never come. It is an eternal fall and there is nothing more tiring than living without hope.

Loki simply knows that the hope he has is simply a delusional hope and for that, he abandons it. Yet, at the same time, he could not completely abandon it.

This contradiction in his mind and in his heart is what created the plan of separating his memories into seven parts, dividing it into seven incarnations of himself

The other six is his hope.

Maybe when all of them united once again in one body, Loki might reach a new conclusion.

He might see hope

He sees the end and as such there is only despair in his heart that he could not console. There is no drink in this Omniverse that could make him drunk enough that could wash away his despair.

When he awakes, he despairs.

When he sleeps, ghost of old friend visits him.

On the days, when he sleeps and there is no ghost of the past, he would dream of the good old days.

He dreams of some slice of happiness, a few moments in his life where he was relaxed and not in a constant struggle with himself and others and then when he thought that the dream is going to be a good one, when he thought that he could forget for a while of the despair that waited for him in the future, he saw all the destruction all over again

Loki is not some kind of unfeeling bastard. He is cunning. He is sly. But who says that cunning people and sly people could not love?

His love was not the kind of love like Azief love triangle with Katarina and Sofia that dragged on for centuries as he goes back and forth between them