Chapter 414 - THE JOY OF LIFE (4) (1/2)

He come closer to her and his eyes stared deep at her hazel eyes and he smiles as he said

'Did you know?'

'Hmm. What?' she asks

'Every time I kissed you it gives me courage. And yet it also made me a coward. Because every time I kiss you it made me want to come back home before I even make the journey. You were right. I am, probably will always be an indecisive man. But there is a reason because of that indecisiveness. Because it is worth that much, that it is almost impossible to make a choice. And because of that I could not help but halt my step and think about who I am now and who I am without those things.'

'Only then I could make my choice. Because in a world without you, it is like a world without color. I could still live in it, but in a world without color, what a dull life that would be?'

What Azief didn't say was that he didn't know if he could smile if she is not beside him ever again. Just thinking about it make his heart ache.

Every day, every moment he spent together with her shines like the sunshine in spring.

All those moments were dazzling and it was something he never wanted to forget. Even when he is unsure of the future, when she is in his arms, he wishes that it will last forever.

Hearing this, she smiles and kiss him again.

It was like she is compensating for those month that he was not around her.

Isn't this what people in love should be? Together. Kissing and laughing, being happy. Maybe someday they would get tired of this.

Maybe they would get tired of always kissing each other, or tickling each other, blushing in redness every time they wanted to go to bed.

Maybe these fluttering feeling would also slowly turn into a calmer one. A steady sea instead of a rocky wave.

But not now.

Now, it is like a hurricane. Like a storm of passion that doesn't seem to end. They would kiss passionately, and have a love so great that it could consume them whole.

The relationship between them always have that vague feeling. But Azief made his decision four month ago and it change the dynamic of their relationship.

She no longer ask who she is to him. Because the fact that he came answer that question for her

Many people say they do not look good together. And honestly, even Sofia felt like that. But, her heart wanted him.

Sina was right before. When she came back to Pandemonium, she wanted to be with him again. Or as Sina called it, her getting-back Azief face.

They have many disagreement and they don't agree on almost anything. How could they even be together without it ending to be a failure?

She thought about this many times. She even thought that they will never work together.

But in the end, how could she accept that? When she misses him when he is not around, and she keep thinking of him.

And she knows that is love and she knows she had to fight for it. In her life, the fact has proven that she always loses in life.

Azief thought that in his life, he is a loser.

He never got the girl and he could never compare himself to other people because he is at the bottom.

Why?

because he believes himself to be in the bottom.

But Sofia?

She never believed herself to be in the bottom.

She tries to climb up, trying to find that slice of happiness just for her.

But life, and the world keep pushing her back down.

The guy she got is a piece of shit. Her father is an abusive man who made her life and her mother life torturous.