Chapter 784 (1/2)
Xing Jiu'An is trapped here. He wants to break free, but he can't.
Her temper became more and more strange.
Occasionally, I can see Huo Chulan's smile when he looks at her.
It was an expression of a conspiracy about to be achieved, which made her extremely disgusted, but she couldn't do anything!
She seems to be really interested in the Huo family.
But she didn't want to!
She doesn't want to!
She should hate the Huos, right!
But she just can't control it!
Just like people who have never been loved, they desperately want to be loved by others and want others to love themselves!
But why?
What she needs most from childhood is love!
Until she washed the fruit, Huo Jinqi said she didn't need to wash it. Anyway, no one would eat it, as if she had loosened something.
She also has her own pride, which does not allow her to beg for anything!
Or what she needs most!
She can finally get out of here.
However, she found that she seemed to have really changed.
She came home again. I don't know why she quarreled with Mu Qing!
However, I don't want to!
She wanted to get rid of it, but no one could help her.
She was finally a little scared!
Xing Jiu'An occasionally goes to chat with Ji Shu. When she is with Ji Shu, her mood is calmer.
She wanted Ji Shu to help her, but she couldn't say it.
She can only tell Ji Shu that she seems to have a problem.
But what's wrong?
She can't say it.
She talked to Ji Shu many times. She felt a little strange!
But what's strange? She couldn't say it.
She has many family and friends, but suddenly she feels as if she is alone.
No one can help her.
She was in a terrible situation, but she couldn't struggle out herself.
She wants to go home, but after she goes back, she will quarrel with Mu Qing and finally break up unhappily!
She hates going back to Huo's house, but she will often go back, and finally make herself more upset!
She felt as if she were stunned.
After struggling for some time, her mood became worse and worse, and she seldom went back to see her senior brother.
She also always felt that she should be eager for her parents to like, but they didn't like herself.
But she still wants to get this love desperately, like a moth to the fire.
It's a pity that she's stupid!
She lives alone in the house given to her by the Huos.
Occasionally, I went to find Mu Qing with Ji Shu. It seemed that they were out of control. However, she was no longer the original Xing Jiu'An.
She became more and more irritable. She said annoying words and did annoying things. Even she hated herself very much. However, senior brother still treated her very well and looked forward to her. It seemed that she only felt that she was a child's temper.
Xing Jiu'An feels very tired.
At night, lying alone in bed, the boundless loneliness swept her, as if she had returned to the time when she had been abandoned. She wanted someone to save her, but she didn't know if she could wait.
Suddenly, he had a headache. Xing Jiu'An curled up with his head in his arms.
She doesn't know why her head hurts, but it hurts so much that she just wants to hold herself tight or pass out.
She danced and practiced martial arts since childhood. Her body was very soft and curled up into a small ball like a cat.
Finally, when the pain stopped, Xing Jiu'An looked as if he had been fished out of the water, and his face was white and frightening.
She took down her hand and lay on her side, some of whom wanted to cry.
But I can't shed tears.
She was suddenly disgusted with herself.
When she came to the living room, she took out a knife for cutting fruit and stabbed it into her thigh.