181 Episode 74: Im I. (1/2)

”- Anisphere”

That's what she called it.

The moment I heard that name, something snapped in me.

Don't touch it./I have to touch it.

Don't remind me./I have to remind you.

Conflicting emotions were likely to tear the body apart. You just have to look away at that pain and forget about it. I wish I hadn't noticed. So, so.

”Shut up......!

If you noticed, she wasn't in front of you anymore. The more relief fills the chest, the more discordant the pain continues to swell in the back of the mind.

I ran out. We have to find that girl. Run around the castle town without worrying about people.

”Princess! It's dangerous!”

”Princess, where are you going?

”You don't have to be so desperate.”

”Look, shouldn't it be time to go home to the royal castle?

”The important people will be waiting, won't they?

The people who go out with me try to stop me. Good will, kindness, worry about me.

I even shook that voice off. No matter why, only the urge to just do it moves me.

Princess, princess. Yes, since just now, all the time, nobody - calls me by my name.

Why not? 'Cause I'm like... Oh, why, that name never comes out of my mouth.

”- You're here!

No matter how much I ran around, the scenery kept changing. It's a sight you should know, but I don't know a place like this.

Every time I find one contradiction and another, my headache gets worse. The shock runs as if it's being piled directly into the brain.

I can't go any further. I can't go anywhere any further. Still, I look for her. Somehow, she had an instinct to be beside me.

So I glanced at the sky. Only the sky did not change in an attempt to distort the world. So I ran up, up, towards the closest place to the sky.

The Royal Castle is on its way. That's where the people I saw call me off.

”Are you going to do something again? Keep it on track.”

”You run down the hall again! Are you unconscious as a princess?! Come here!

”Sister? I told you to rest again, didn't I? Just go back to your room.”

”What are you doing, stupid? Look, I'll come back to your room with you.”

”Princess. Let's go back to your room.”

”You can't go, see”

One, another, shake off a gentle voice. My heart hurts. I don't want to see a face distorted by grief. I'm the bad one. So I have to stop my leg. My heart keeps bleeding from scratching. This guilt will kill me one day. I have a feeling about that.

- Don't go, please.

And Yuffi grabbed my arm. My hand was about to run up the stairs.

Don't go, and weep. Reach out so you can squeeze. Tired of the warmth of his hand, his body and heart are caught in admiration.

Oh, why, with all this pain in my mind, where am I going?

If you can't even remember where you want to get there, even if you stop, wouldn't it be good...?

”Whoever you are, either way, okay?”

”Everything is acceptable here.”

”So -”

”- So, duh!!”

”Shake off someone with Yufi's face. Anger shook my emotions off. My heart was torn apart by grief. Only hate moves my feet forward. Fear just keeps flowing in tears and doesn't stop me from legging.

- I don't know, who says! No one's gonna say that! I don't remember wanting you to say that!

There's no good in either. I don't need any right or wrong answers because I won't lose one. There's no good reason for that to go through. I cannot accept, for example, that all the people of the world do not make mistakes, that mistakes are forgiven, that mistakes do not have to be corrected or that they want a world to go around.

I... I made a mistake. Wrong, but I'm here now. There are a lot of mistakes, roundabouts, and grabbing things. No matter how much they laughed at me for not being able to do that, someone forgave me. There was someone who admitted it. There was someone to laugh at.

”- So give it back...!

I don't know how my body feels anymore. Just go up, aim up and lift your legs.

And the light plugs in. It's - it's empty. Only the sky made no difference when or anywhere. Even with all the different faces, only the sky has always been there.

- Give me my name back. - Yeah!

Half, I shouted with certainty. If you scream at the sky, it will arrive. That was the closest place.

Yeah, I'm not even a good princess. Because I started me the day I saw this sky.

From that day on, I was like, ”I can't remember my name.

”- I'm the Anisphere Win Palettia!!”

I am the royal princess of Kiteretsu.

A reincarnator who made himself a magically unusable heretic child and caught a glimpse of the scenery of the different worlds.

Betrayed a lot, let it go, hurt a lot of things.

Still, tomorrow is in this hand for the important people to laugh at.

So I can't give that name to anyone.

I can't forgive the sweetness of anyone.

”- Even if it's a fake?

Soon, there was ”I” there.

I look down with cold eyes to criticize me, and I glance back at you.

”It must have been painful all along. I don't want to be sweet, because of your guilt consciousness, right? If I can't remember anything. I wanted to be an ordinary princess, a princess loved by everyone. I wanted to live without anyone suffering. If you can't admit it, if you can't forgive me, that's good. But they asked for it. If you've been asked, you need to be forgiven. If I don't save someone to be forgiven, I can't breathe unless I feel like I saved them. That's because you've always been unusual. Is that allowed?

”I can't deny what I said.

Because that was undoubtedly what I meant. I always thought I'd hold it like this, the pile itself punched into the very heart of my consciousness.

You are whoever you are. I wanted that forgiveness more than anyone else... - Me.

”- Still, because I was the one who got it now”

Really, I got something great.

Love me, there are people I can love. I could have sworn I wanted to be with you all the time. I have someone who would like to return the favor.

The day I became me, I looked at the sky, saw fragments of the sights of my previous life, and admired magic. With magic, you might be able to get what was once out of your reach. I couldn't help but be fascinated by those dreams.

That's how I went down the path I've been walking, and I'm not the only one.

”Maybe Kick-Ass was a memory of a previous life. But it wasn't chosen. I admired it myself and I chose it! I'm me! I'm not the one who was someone before I became an anisphere! This will, the choices I've made are all mine! So... you don't need to forgive me for who I am! I'm not a fake! That's all I can say, I got it!

Open your eyes. The scenery changes. Not on the roof of the royal castle, but there had turned into the roof of the city government of the Magic City.

The streets that spreads from it are the crystals of dreams I grew up in. The starting point of my wish. They named me, a testament that I lived in this world.

So you can't let them take it. 'Cause this is the goal until I'm me, and it's the starting line for me to start with.

I'm not dreaming alone anymore. It was done with the help of a lot of people. So I can't deny myself. Because I can't betray the dreams that everyone believed in.

”If that forgiveness takes away my dreams - I don't have to be forgiven for the rest of my life!!”

- At that moment I fell to the ground under such severe pain that I could not stand.

Sweet pain that melts me from the inside. But the sweetness past dissolves me from the inside out like a fierce poison. That's the kind of discomfort that gets poured into a scorching magma and twists itself to make it look sweet.

I get melted. I'm about to disappear. I'm dying. I'm not me anymore. And that's why I remembered.

(That's right...! Me, Lylana bit me......!

Shortly before he lost consciousness, Uffi was pointed out that red seeped into the color of his eyes. I mean, am I trying to vampire you? This world happened because we're about to be able to repaint our spirits in the process of vampirization?

Unlike Al Kun, who took the Demon Stone from Raini and half-vampired it, it's totally authentic, spiritual domination from vampires. If that's the case, I'd be convinced if I thought the happy phantom I'd just seen was also a hand in melting the walls of my mind.

”Gi, no... no...!

It feels good to hurt. Suffering is comforting. The feeling of being repainted is happiness. Turn yourself against violence against the spirit that is going to repaint such common sense.

Do you want me to let you go or disappear? Let anyone take my spirit at will......!