178 Episode 71: A Long Night Comes (8) (1/2)

”... what?

What, this guy. That's what I thought. I feel so bad anyway that I accidentally pull a step back, the signs and attitude go together. How can you react like such a maiden in this situation?

”Oh, the world is truly wonderful! I can't believe you're not only seeing a spiritual contractor for the first time, you're putting me on a tour with someone like this!

”... no, that”

Hey, what? What the hell is that?

”My name is Lilana. Nice one, could I have your name, please?

”... do you think I would bother to teach? What do you think you did to my loved ones?

”Of course, I was going to save you”

”... save?

No, I have no idea what the hell you're talking about. What will the word come out about saving in this situation?

”Don't you understand? If you are mixed with such beautiful things!

... What the hell kind of world is this guy seeing? Mixed together, maybe about the engraving on the dragon? Did you spot it just by looking?

No, because Yuffi said this guy was the vampire of Chimera's best balls, so that's what I mean? As I dragonize over time with dragon engravings, it's because this guy takes in a wide variety of demons with the help of vampires.

In a way, it's close to the same species. Maybe that's why she sensed. As I also guessed.

”It will be brittle, old, and decaying in just people! Separation is what creates grief! So people have come face to face with grief and challenge! Everyone will want!? An eternity that will not decay! Happiness not to be mourned! That's what I want to do!

”... I'm not saying I don't understand the idea. So? Then why did you try to hurt my loved ones?

”To symbiosis! We just have to be eternal and be one and reborn! Live forever, mourn nothing, to achieve a happy world! If you were me, you would understand!?”

The girl desperately named Lilana complains to me. I want you to understand, like you want from the bottom of your heart. It's not like I don't understand. But my heart is getting cold.

No, you can't snort.

”Huh, why not!?”

Incredible, Lylana screaming like saying. No, I'm the one who can't believe it.

”If that's really great, then everyone would be happy to accept it. It doesn't mean something's wrong.”

The people here are trying to fight it. It means no one could snort at her words. That's the only answer.

I can understand you, too. But I really don't think that can happen. Not to mention, if you are resisted whilst claiming to be true happiness, then that is not happiness for the person.

”So you're not? Anis, yes, you were called Anis, lovely one! Are you saying you are not heartbroken!?”

”... right. It hurts me to think about it.”

”Then why!?”

”So I'm not the one who decides to be happy, and neither are you. If he goes down the path that he decides he is, he can't get in the way.”

... right. It must not be the choice of others to determine that path. The choice is honorable because I choose my own path.

So I don't think it's the same thing that pushes you to make a choice because you're happy. If you can choose to be happy with me, even if I push you, that's fine. But even if it's not true and they throw it away, I think it's right.

”If you really want to save them, you have to understand them. You can't see real salvation”

”So I am! We're talking about living together! If you could be the same, you would understand!

”... I'm not talking about it. No, aren't you even going to talk about it? I guess that's the salvation for you. But no one understands happiness. It's just one play. Then you just have to save someone who listens to you. Then you don't have to bother anyone.”

When I said that, Lilana shook her head left and right to say she couldn't believe it.

I somehow know what she found on me. But that's not happiness to me, and neither is my happiness to her again.

To parable, like ourselves reflected over the mirror. We're a lot alike, but I'm sure the mirror doesn't show each other. So I don't get it. That's what I mean.

”... I don't understand why you say that. I thought you'd understand.”

”Yes.”

”But I'm sure that's because I'm not good enough. I get it. So - I thought I wanted you.”

Lilana came looking straight at me with her face up. There's so much obsession there that there's nothing I can do about it. I frown upon the sticky, snaggy emotions.

”I'm not good enough yet. It's not enough, so we need to understand more. It's okay, I'm still unfinished, immature, but I wouldn't take anything back. I've always thought of you, and I remember you. I won't forget one thing. So don't worry.”

”... so please take it in? No, no, I don't feel safe about one thing, and it's annoying.”

Is it time to get angry? I think about it, and I'm unwittingly hacked. I have complicated feelings about her. Though I am angry, it is to her deeds, and I cannot be so negative about her way.

Instead, I'm more inclined to mourn how such a child was born. Because she was a vampire? Or did you grow up in a bad environment? I don't know. I don't understand her at all.