123 Episode 19: What I Want You to Take Care of (2/2)

”It was a holiday. Night is the day we can be together, if nothing happens.”

”Yes...”

”... you're jealous of the crowd with me, right? Anis.”

Yufi, who slowly took his seat, comes to my sight. With his hands on his jaw, he peers into his eyes from close range.

I'm sorry, and I snort and Uffi smells. For a moment, I thought I had narrowed my eyes and my face was fixed and I mouthed it, or my lips were bitten sweetly.

”... don't you think what a terrible person you are to leave me alone and walk flirtatiously for alcohol? Anis.”

”No, you know, Ufi... how this can be a difficult and profound situation...!

”I'm away from the palace for a while... that's good, right?

I didn't just laugh in my eyes. The smile of Uffi, who said it with a smile, just seemed like the grin of a carnivore, no matter where it came from.

”... general laziness... my head gangs...”

The next day, it wasn't until around lunch that I could move. Uffi woke up at his usual time and climbed the castle, but I couldn't get up under the influence of magic depletion and hangover.

He manages to pull through his tired body and takes to the dining room to fill his stomach complaining of hunger. At this time, I want to put the leftovers in my stomach. I've been making hungry noises since just now in search of nutritional deficiencies in my body.

”... Dear Anisphere?

As I stepped into the dining room, Ilia, who was in the dining room by chance, found me and circled my eyes. It's what I was walking on the wall with no strength, so Ilaria rushes right up to me and gives me a hand.

”Morning, Ilia... Sorry, I'm hungry...”

If you tell me, I'll take you to your room.

”... because if I were in that room, I wouldn't be able to calm down the other way”

”What?”

If I stayed in my room, I'd remember last night, and I wouldn't be able to calm down the other way. I'm sorry I pissed you off, but yesterday Yuffi was unrelenting. Half way through, I was also unconscious due to lack of magic......

I shake my head to the left and right to erase the memory that was about to come back. Ilia pulled me up to my seat in a sigh as I trembled to try not to piss me off in the future, and let me sit in the chair.

”A snack will be served, please wait a moment”

”Sorry, that helps.”

Dropping Ilia off towards the kitchen, I plunge into the table and item.

I'm not sleepy, but I don't want to move. It smelled good sniffing my nose as I was round as I stuck it at my desk. It's the soup and bread that Ilia brought on the tray.

”Go ahead.”

”Thanks......”

I woke up and then prayed before my meal and I carried the bread into my mouth in chisels. Will it be the rest of what I prepared this morning? Still, if you chew the soft bread, the sweetness spreads through your mouth.

Drink the soup and I'll exhale. The sweetness of the vegetables in the ingredients is tiring body friendly. Cut the bread straight into bite sizes and soak it in soup.

”Looks like you were squeezed a lot last night, huh?

”... Shut up”

”You deserve it.”

I chew a thousand pieces of bread, frowning at Ilia, who calls out to tease me. Every time I felt my vitality come back to my body just lazy.

”... what happened with Priscilla?

”Ngu.”

I almost caught the bread in my throat by accident. I rush to pour bread in with soup.

”... I knew you'd notice?

”Yeah, somehow.”

To be honest with you, I didn't think you could delude me. That's why I was going to tell you everything tonight.

”Priscilla was looking a little strange too... because I remember her a little”

”... what about that Priscilla?

”I'm in Charne's care. Charne woke up, and I'm fine now, though. Just in case.”

”Oh well...”

When I think of Priscilla, I exhale naturally. How should I have been dealing with Priscilla and how should I face Priscilla in the future?

I don't know why I'm forgiving Priscilla for just my presence on the boulder. If this is irrelevant to me, I think so.

”... you're the same”

”? What?

”I'm twisting my head desperately for someone else.”

”... I wonder”

”That's right. However, Anisphere's care can only be directed at those who need it.”

”I don't mean to be such a fan.”

”I like people. I just know I don't need to point that kindness at anyone.”

Soon Ilia had started preparing tea. Take a breather after eating bread and soup while watching it sideways. By the time my meal was finished, Ilia's tea had also been prepared and offered to me.

”... if so. I guess I was too late to reach out this time.”

”Was it too late,”

”Yeah. It was too late to reach out. I can't help it, but... I think there's something more I could have done.”

”That's... there's no choice.”

”Can't help it?

Ilia came back to me to say that nothing was wrong. That's so unexpected, I look at Ilaria blinking my eyes.

”At all times, the only person Master Anisphere reaches out to is someone he can no longer help himself with. Like me, or Master Uphilia, or Raini. That's why you reach out directly until there's really, really nothing you can do about it. So don't worry, if you want to help, you just have to reach out and help.”

”... since I can't help it, can I? Is it arrogant that I wanted to help before that?

”That's greedy, I say. Besides, you indicate when you will be able to live on your own before someone saves you. So that everyone can live directly and without asking someone for help. So you're always doing what you can. Besides, there is one thing that is missing from the Anisphere.”

”What's missing?

”That's how you have us so you don't have to reach out for someone. So rely on me. There's no way you can save everything by yourself.”

To Ilia's words, I lean against my back with the cup on my desk unexpectedly. Cover your face against the ceiling with your hands, and then divulge what an unspeakable voice.

You don't have to save me by myself, if I want to, you just have to raise your voice to save me. When they say that, unspeakable emotions come in.

”............... right, thanks. Ilia, I've lost sight of you many times.”

”It must be because I'm not used to relying on someone. You can count on more people.”

”You had to let me rely on you. I'm feeling a little better.”

What Priscilla did is not acceptable. No matter how much I like Priscilla, no matter how much I decide for myself, I'm sorry to the people who care about me.

Still, I don't want to feel bad about what I want to save. There are conflicting opinions, and I can't deny it if they say it's a detour. Still, I still want to believe in people.

If nothing like this happens, we can work together even if it happens. What I can do to build such a relationship. There's a lot to be done, but let's get rid of it one by one. Because that must be the shortcut above all else.