100 Another Story: Troubled Vampire Girl 03 (1/2)

My head turns white. I haven't been through that once or twice.

But the shock I've had is the biggest I've ever lived, and all I could do was blur while waking up my upper body on the bed from last night until I blurted.

I was confessed by Master Ilia. That was making me stop thinking. In the end, I was unable to reply to anything yesterday, and I could only drop off Ilaria, who was leaving, thinking about it.

I tried to sleep, but I don't feel like I could sleep at all. I don't know when I slept, and the time I slept is short. Just heavy head. Ever since yesterday, the expression of Illia has repeatedly disappeared.

”... Dear Ilia”

Why did Ilaria say that to me? Given that reason, I'm going to hold my head. Tightened enough to make my chest painful, driven by so much guilt that I want to stop breathing as it is.

Master Ilia still hangs on to my charm when I'm not aware to say I'm a vampire. To that abominable cursed power that favors me.

That's why he said he couldn't stand it anymore. Because I'm in pain. It's all my fault. It is my fault that I suffer without being able to say no properly.

”It's my fault...!

It hurts me to feel guilty about letting Master Ilia say such a thing. Because I am impudent, because I have fascinated Master Ilia. Because I'm here.

I can only squat while holding myself to the voice of my heart, which repeatedly blames me. I'm sorry, the words I repeat are powerless.

I don't know what to do. I just can't accept the heavy reality, and I can only close and cage in my shell.

”... Raini, can I come in?

I hear a knock. What I heard after that was the voice of Master Anis.

I don't want to see anyone now. But it's painful to be alone. Without speaking out of such contradictory thoughts, Master Anis opened the door.

Lady Anis looked at me for a moment, but immediately tightened her expression and closed the door. I walked straight over to the edge of my bed and lowered my hips there.

”... Ilia said today that Raini is not feeling well, so give him a break. That's why I'm here to see how it goes.”

”... excuse me”

”Fine. My job is not stuffed with cuts. I'm more worried about Raini than that.”

Master Anis has turned his back on me because he has lowered his back to the edge of the bed. I didn't want to be seen in my face right now, so I really appreciated Master Anis turning my back on me.

”... me”

”Yeah.”

”I'm, like, awesome, disgusted, I'm already, like, bitter, I want to disappear... annoyed, I just want to give it back, but I can't, I don't like it all anymore, I'm going to be scared”

”Yeah.”

It's a rupture. I'm speechless, and I spin an interrupted word to wheeze. Even that word doesn't make sense, and I don't know why.

Still, Master Anis gaveled at me and asked me quietly. Never look at me, but he's definitely there and he's listening to me.

”I, no longer, I don't know why, okay”

”... Did something happen with Ilia yesterday?

I cover my face with both hands in the inquiry of Lady Anis. Crushed by regret and guilt, my breath hurts. I just wanted to get easier, and I opened my mouth as if to confess.

”If Ilia doesn't like me being told by a man, she can do it to me.”

”... Ilia?

”I'm in pain, I see, I'm in pain, but that's because I fascinated Ilaria, and I, also, drove people, it's important people, crazy...!

Hold your head with your hands that were covering your face, and I squat. Hold your own head with the momentum to your hair and spin your words with your final thoughts. With the momentum of my thoughts, my tears drop zero. Oh, I really hate myself for being so shallow.

Lady Anis didn't say anything to me with groans and tears. I can't stop crying zero falling tears and zero whimpering. Dear Annis, who had been quiet about how much he had done so, stroked my head.

”Raini, look up”

……

”Raini”

Master Anis calls me with a calming voice. I chewed my teeth off and raised my face with unstoppable tears intact.

Lady Annis was laughing like she was in trouble for some reason. It's a delightful, but troublesome look.

”Raini, calm down first. Shall we take a slow, deep breath?”

Pompous, and Lady Anis gently strokes my back. The hand that held my head when I raised my face shook at my lack of location, and Master Anis held my hand with one empty hand.

Until I settled down, Master Anis held my hand all the way and stroked my back. I was able to calm down a little bit while taking a deep breath as Ennis told me.

”Calm down?

”... Yes. Sorry, dude.”

”Fine. Well, let's talk to me for a little while.”

……

”You know, Raini. I'm so surprised right now, I don't know if I should be happy or lonely.”

Lady Anise's expression still seems complicated. I know I'm just as surprised as I say myself. Because I could see the colour of confusion in Anis' floating expression.

”Oh well... I don't have that Ilia. I'm surprised, and I miss you a little... but I'm still glad.”

”Huh...?

”Raini says Ilia cursed you with her own power, but I don't think so. To be more precise, I think it would be nice to be cursed.”

”Why...?

”Ilaria's not obsessed.”

Master Anis groans lonely.