78 After Days: Stop your legs at the end of the year (2/2)

If I had such thoughts about the shape of the clouds, I would have an urge on my chest to scream. I couldn't tell exactly what the emotion was.

Reach out to the clear blue sky. Like stretching your back and trying to get you to the unreachable sky.

- Someone's hand overlapped my hand stretched out into that sky.

”... what are you doing, Anis”

”Ufi.”

I kind of opened my eyes and looked at Uffi. That, I didn't notice any signs...?

As I look at Uffi in wonder, he exhales like Uffi was frightened and makes me hold the hand that was stretching out into my sky and lower it.

”My mother-in-law told me something was wrong with Anise, so I came looking for her.”

”My mother?

”Yep.... I thought you found it, it was the sky up there. Unaware of me.”

Was I looking at the sky so much as eating in? That's a bit of a failure.

When it was kind of awkward, Yufi put her strength into my gripping hand. It's a lover connection that entangles your fingers. I feel the heat coming up on my cheeks in that grip.

”- Where were you looking?

But Yufi's voice seemed anxious somewhere. I noticed that Yuffi's eyes were shaking anxiously.

”Uh... did I make you worry?

”Anyone will worry if things go wrong.... it was as if they were going to suck into the sky, the anise earlier”

”Sucked into the sky, or”

From Yufi's point of view, I felt like I was in danger or something. And maybe even to my mother. That's the same thing, all of a sudden he hugged me and ran away without saying anything.

... I have a sense that I was a little floating myself. That's also because the day at the end of this year was special.

”... somehow, I wanted to look back”

”Looking back?”

”Tell me about the life you've lived to this day.... I wonder how it would feel to be here in the royal castle now. Because memories of the Imperial Castle are now painful to remember.”

”... anise”

He strengthened his power to hold my hand as Yufi called out worryingly.

The heat of the hand being gripped is transmitted to me. It was as if the heat would tell me I was here.

”I'm not out of pain. But it didn't get hard to remember. Even though I thought it was something I left behind, I thought it was my own. I could confirm that. I used to be so adorable to my mother.”

”... even now, if it's properly sweet, you'll be adored. Mother-in-law.”

”... in a workout sense?

”Normally it means being a parent and a child.”

I wonder. Somehow, because I feel loved, but my mother is not honest. You're going to end up in the dark and be brought into the workout, aren't you?

When I was thinking about something my mother would definitely do if she found out, Yufi was packing a distance so that she could peek into my eyes. The heart beat just a little faster at a distance that seemed to take each other's exhales.

”... in the sky”

”Hmm?”

”What memories do you have in the sky?

Uffi inquires as he stares me straight in the eye. I suspect it was my illusion that the inquiry sounded true.

But because Yuffi's hand is going to hold my hand stronger than just now... I don't think that's probably my fault. I feel like they're worried about me being gone from here.

”... not here. Somewhere, the wizard said he could fly.”

Yufi's eyebrows came to mind. I smile bitterly at Uffi for reacting to what I thought.

You didn't like the fact that I laughed bitterly, and Yufi gave me a light-headed thrust with a muffled face. A small pain spreads to my forehead.

As he groaned lightly at the pain, Uffi asked, lurking his voice.

”... in a previous life?

”Yeah. In the sky, because I admired and remembered”

Off his gaze from Uffi, he turns his attention to the sprawling blue sky. What color would the sky have been on that day when I remembered?

”After remembering my memories of my previous life, I became who I am now. Not here. Because I remember the view. So the sky really made me want to fly. From the day I thought I could fly the sky myself in this world with magic. But I also know that I wasn't gone until then.”

”... Really? Isn't Annis suffering now?

”Of course it is.”

Memories of previous life. What was given to me was some landscape, not this world. I remember living there. A bunch of useful tools not found in this world and the magic and longing for the sky to be intense.

My longing for the sky and magic is the same thing in the end. I want to realize a dream that's not supposed to come true, I want to fly magically free through the sky. It's on your own volition, too.

So I keep admiring magic. Previously, and always will. The next time I fulfill my dream of flying, I want to go for more magical possibilities.

”To be honest, there were some tough times. Especially when I had an affair with Al. I sometimes wondered why I remembered such a memory. But now... this is good.”

”This is good, is it?

”Curses and blessings are all about paper. This must be a gift from me in my previous life. You're free to live in this world! It seems that way now.”

I pursued magic so that it could be pushed and moved, first and foremost because I definitely remembered the memories of my previous life and was born into admiration.

Still, I was not given the miracle of magic. Did you lose it because I remembered it, or didn't you originally have talent? Though I don't know that.

The certainty is that I was given this memory of my previous life to find my way. I was able to run to my samurai. And I could make my dreams come true. So the memory that this curse and blessing is a piece of paper can be a blessing.

”With Uffi as queen and magic recognized, I thought I'd look back on this past year for the rest of my life. Make sure one at a time, because I thought I was happy.”

Until now, it's just been a few days since the end of the year. I have nothing to think about. It was a day the same as usual, just moving towards the ideals I wanted to reach.

Because I could only breathe by moving on. But now it's a little slow. But I can breathe looking back. I was able to accept myself.

So - I thought it was happiness.

”I'm so happy right now.”

”... Yes”

Yuffi's worried face finally turned into a smile. With my hand in his hand, Yufi pulls his arm and snuggles up with me.

I leave myself to Uffi without resisting either. We mouth each other just to touch each other and peek into each other's eyes.

”... thanks for this year. Nice to see you again next year, Uffi.”

”Yes, Anis. May you feel happy again next year.”

Again, the mouthfeel I touched was accompanied by sweet paralysis, which made me feel certain happiness.