75 After Days: Hands dont have to fit. (1/2)

Today was the day and the day I was never chased.

My task is primarily to supervise and advise. Review the compiled report to see if there are any problems and advise if necessary.

But Yuffi told me not to do much except ask for advice. Let me think in the field first, and if there's still nothing I can do about it, I'll be counted on.

If it were to be resolved with my advice, how could I have made such an idea? From what point of view did you see that advice come out? You think it's training to develop that kind of imagination?

”But I'm inspired, too.”

Now that magic has spread and is settling in. It's this country that's why the idea is starting to pop up. It would be Halfis walking at the head of it.

Halphis' attempt to make fundamental improvements in magic and build a new generic technology system brings to mind images like programmers where they say they are in previous life.

Updating and pioneering a technological system called magic. True, Halfis is one of those people who has been taught by me and is running through the cutting edge of the era. I hear she's busy every day because of that and she's about to turn her eyes.

I think it's good to have such a full life. I envy you just a little.

Well, I had nothing to do, so I was walking around the royal castle.

The maids and knights in the royal palace laugh at me casually and give me a thank you. My odd eye for me has completely diminished already. I don't think it's because I haven't been making noisy noises lately either.

I think the influence of working hastily within the Royal Castle to spread magic in the Ministry of Defense remains. It can be a bit unsettling for everyone to favor it.

I was not comfortable with the favorable gaze and correspondence, and came to a lesser spot in the royal castle to avoid the eyes.

”Ah.”

”... Mm”

I turned my eyes round to the ancestors who were there. And it got awkward at the same time.

The customer also has my eyes on me and what a subtle look.

”... Am I interrupting, son of Count Voltaire”

”I don't mind Lang. Her Highness Sister Wang.”

Lang Voltaire, a former Ministry of Magic elite who hated each other so much. Although he has now moved to the Ministry of the Spirit, its size had also been forced to shrink due to the division of roles.

At the same time, his influence on politics was greatly reduced, which made him totally grown up. Even now, a short time ago, Lang was on the top of the Buddha, with a mixed grin of hostility.

... It's also kind of awkward to walk away. We can't say anything to each other, only silence spreads.

”... turned into a ministry of spirits, how about it?

Then I asked Lang that, unable to bear the silence.

I don't hear a lot of rumors about the Spirit Ministry. I can't even see the movement. Every day, people say they are busy praying to the Spirit and compiling material from the past, so the topic doesn't come up prominently.

Lang turns the gaze he was deviating from, just to the side. But it was also out of sight in an instant.

”I am surprised that Her Royal Highness Sister Wang is interested in the Ministry of the Spirit.”

”That's what I said.... I'm just wondering what the air is because I'm not directly involved.”

”He's a generous man. He said he could care about the fate of those of us who once despised you...”

I feel like I haven't seen a mocking, his-like grin in a long time. But it looks more like it's aimed at me than at me.

”I didn't know you were doing something to be despised... now, I think”

To my grunt, Lang came again at the gaze he had deviated from. Now it was my turn to get out of sight.

”Because I couldn't afford it either. This is how I can calmly talk to you now, but I don't think I was the one with the nose a while ago. Honestly, it's not like I don't have anywhere to think about it.”

…………

”Sorry, you're having trouble reacting.”

”... no”

I could see Lang shaking his neck left or right at the edge of his sight. Only silence passes without being able to leave the scene even though we remain out of sight of each other.

”... Did you propose the Ministry of the Spirit out of pity for us?

”No, I can't say. Because I also found the truth about the Spirit Contract to be a drama drug. And the effect of publishing it. … so I can't say I don't feel sorry for you”

”... Really?”

”But it's also true that I want to take care of culture. It's not my intention to lose what I've been piling up. Because it is definitely prayer and faith that has supported this country in its magic so far. But the only thing that makes me stick to it is... I think I'm scared”

What if I wasn't here and the truth about the Spirit covenant wasn't revealed? I wonder what the hell was going on in the Kingdom of Palettia. Maybe he was repeating the tragedy of the first king.

I think it's important to believe and think. But I'm afraid to keep moving forward without being sure of anything. There may be a pit ahead.

”... I think I was scared”

”... are you scared?

”I can't really use magic. It's something I can't handle for the rest of my life. Still couldn't give up. That's all I was in a hurry for.”

So much so that I think that's what I was born for. I can't erase this longing for magic.

So there was no way to admit the fact that I couldn't reach it. Fortunately, I had the knowledge to stay. That's why I kept running.

”If I had accepted the idea of the Ministry of Magic at the time, my heart would have died. I'm sure he was apathetic. It doesn't make sense to be alive, it doesn't have the role you were asked for. Then... I guess it's no different than being dead.”

I didn't want to die. I don't want to die pointless. I couldn't stay dead, even though there was an ideal that was going to be within reach.

I didn't want to kill my heart, I turned away from what I tried to break my heart, turned away, and just stuck it in my shell. Only until it becomes a mask that sticks to itself.

”... what did I tell you about it? Was it unpleasant?”

”... it's certainly a story that afflicts both understanding and empathy. But...”

……

”I think I should have understood sooner that you were suffering than I was suffering right now.”

I turned my eyes round to Lang's reply. I can't believe he said that.