37 Episode 37: Masks Strip, Fall In Love (2/2)

For a moment, I was lost in my response to that question. Don't you like it, don't you?

Uffi faces her lips, who asked for air to gasp without words. Ufi blocks me and dims my vision. The look on Yufi's face, which he sees with backlight, is kind of vain and colorful and his heart bounces as loud as it sounds.

”... or are you scared?

There is a worrying color on Yufi's face that is so close to touching her now.

Scared? Scared of what? I don't know. But it gets quieter as if it were cold that my heart was bouncing loudly. I close my eyes and breathe.

”... My queen told me. He wants me to take a good look at you. I'm sure she's a master of lies. You don't have to be fake to be fake. Until you tell me, you may not be aware that you're hiding it.”

”... your mother?

”Dear Annis today, he said he seemed frightened by something. He said in his mouth that he clearly didn't have to be loved as a parent, that he seemed to want the affection of his parents. That didn't seem like what the kid thought it was, that it looked more real. It's like being in the shape of a parent or a child.”

……

Strength fell out of the body that was so tense in that allegation. Restricted to form, he said. He says he wants it for real. If they say that... just one thing, I know it.

But is it a good thing to talk about it? I don't know. I don't know, but it's the first time I've realized it since I was pointed out. Blur and what comes to mind distracts my mind. Oh, well. I couldn't stand it because I wouldn't be noticed the whole time, and I couldn't because I noticed it.

”.................. Ufi”

”Yes.”

”Will you devote your life to me?

”Yes.”

”Aren't you lying?

”I swear.”

”Then... will you take my secret to the grave?

”... Yes”

What I didn't tell anyone. That I wasn't aware of. I forgot it with a sense of happiness to follow my dreams, mine.

”I, really... what can I say? Yes, you are. It must be a fake.”

It was fake. So I had to be real. The words seemed to fit perfectly into my mind.

”…” Fake ”?

I frowned at the words that Lady Annis told me.

Anis, who visited the room when he was lying in bed without sleep, looked nervous and somewhere behaved suspiciously.

I thought it was unstable, and that's what I felt when I saw it. So during the day, at the end of the meeting, I thought of what the queen had told me.

”I want you to take a good look at her. That kid is faking something to us. While he doesn't think so either. I'm a master of lies, and I don't make you think lies are lies. No, as much as she thinks she's true herself.... I'm sorry, I can't say well either, but I felt that way. So look at her. You're probably the only one who can give her a vegetarian look. Uphilia '

To be honest, I leaned my neck against the queen's words. You think Master Anis is lying enough to falsify his feelings? Enough to fool yourself? I was wondering if such a lie seemed like an implication. What the hell is a lie so much that Master Anis would imply it to himself if it existed?

Speaking of which, and. That's where I came up with it. It's about ”Raini's implication”. Raini said he would be bounced because Master Anis would resist immediately. Though he himself said that the cause might be the effect of the curse caused by the engraving of the dragon's demonic stone.

But what if that's not the only reason? If you've already made your own “implication”? When such an imagination passed, an unpleasant chill was what ran my spine.

But, for example, I feel that Anis is calmly accepting to escape the harsh reality. I also want to think that I meant everything I thought about my family, and the words lie, falsehood really didn't tie me to Master Anis.

But when I saw the anise visiting the room, I thought, Should that be called a mask rather than a lie or a lie? Have you noticed or not noticed yourself, too? It was like the mask was cracked and something was visible and hidden.

So I tried. Master Anis seemed to care about being seen in love with me. But that doesn't match what you said or did when you protected me or when you declared you weren't getting engaged.

If you like girls and like me too. I was wondering if that would be a pleasure. Is that confusion from joy, or is it another reason?

And if I pushed Master Anis down, what I felt was... the color of fear. It's still odd discomfort, like he's just not aware of it either. The queen's words come back even if she doesn't like the discomfort that doesn't match her expression and reaction.

And when I asked him repeatedly, Mr. Anise showed a reaction that would make that mask peel off. And there was an anise like I'd never seen before.

She says. He said he was a ”fake.” He said he had something to keep secret. But I don't know what that is.

”Uphilia... do you remember not herself?

”... a memory that's not me, is it?

”Yeah. Not here. Somewhere, I don't remember myself living”

”... no”

”To me, it was in my head when I felt like it. I remember that.”

... it is.

What the hell is that all about?

”I have memories of previous life. I mean... I'm not here, I'm someone else who's going to live the life of a girl named Anisphere Wynn Palettia.”

”Is that possible?

”Haha, I have that.... my magic is proof of that.”

”Magic?

I didn't think, ”Let's fly magically.” I knew how to fly magically, so I was able to create magic. ”

... to the point of becoming. Then the order is certainly the opposite. It's a big difference that Anis was able to produce magic because he knew, not because he derived it.

I didn't get a flash, I knew the way from the start. At that time, the magic of flying in the sky that no one could think of.

”I was a civilian.”

”... civilians?

”You didn't have an identity, to be exact. It was a world full of magic props that I invented in magic as a matter of course. Anyone can buy as long as they have the money. I lived in that world.”

”... such a world”

”It's only in my head, though. And this isn't about the world. It's conclusive evidence.”

You put a foreground, and then Master Anis squeals like he spits out something seriously painful.

”There's no magic. There's no magic.”

”... no magic?

”To be precise, it was a world without spirits. It was the existence of a gaga story. It wasn't real. Magic was just a dream story to make kids listen. At least that was the reality for me.”

Lady Anis closed her eyes and continued her words with a slow exhalation.

”I still remember the moment I woke up. It was really a mundane moment. I woke up like what was falling apart in my head was fitted. From then on, I was” Anisphere Win Palettia. ”

”... it”

”I'm not me. But I was” Anisphere Win Palettia ”. I couldn't be any more, I couldn't go back, and I just had to live like that. I didn't hate that.”

Lady Anise's breath trembled. My hands, which were loose, hide to cover my face.

It's like putting your nails on a mask. It's going to crumble and break. Hold that, as if it's going to hide your face.

”But I ruined Al's future because of me. endangered the future of this country.”

――――

”If I was just“ Anisphere Win Palettia, ”if I wasn't even remembered in my previous life!... Oh yeah! Always, always, always, always! That scared me!!”

Master Anis screams like he went mad. The mask breaks, the face becomes dewy. I was there... just like a child.

”I admired magic, but I couldn't use magic even though I was royal! It's in front of me, but I couldn't reach it! That's why I wanted a replacement! I wanted a compliment! I, I, I'm not weird, I wish you hadn't thought of me weird! Just a kid who can do great things! Or you'll find out! I'm not the Anisphere Win Palettia. I know who I am! Isn't that cruel!? Can you imagine Yufi? If you were told to live as someone different from tomorrow, I'd have all my memories, but I think I am, but I have another me! What would your father think if your mother found out? Such a child, isn't it creepy?!?”

Master Anis is screaming. Scream with blood spitting thoughts.

”I was loved. I knew it. As royalty, but they still loved me. I didn't want to betray you! If it just seemed weird to me, I just had to push through! All I had was the knowledge in my head, a weapon!... That's why I created magic. My, my own magic.”

”... that was your secret.”

”I wasn't aware. I didn't want to. I didn't try.... because if I look there, I won't be able to be those people's child. I'll take those people's children. I could have taken it all the way to the future of the country, but I could do such a cruel thing...? So it was... easier to be a henchy princess. That was me. As weird as they say, I was stiffened by weird myself.... Mother, that's amazing. I even realized I didn't notice. Really, I was blessed with a good mother, I...”

As I mourn from the bottom of my heart, even though I am happy. She squeals.

Hard to imagine, her only pain was there. I looked at her bottom so painfully. I've seen one scale that no one understands.

Oh, this guy was so “heterogeneous” and so “normal”.

”... yeah. Refreshing. Of the mind, it feels like some of the people I've been to are back. This is my secret, Uffi. I really am, it wasn't Anisphere Wynn Palettia. It was someone. But at the same time, I'm the Anisphere Win Palettia.”

”... Yes”

”I didn't want to be king, yeah. I had this underlying consciousness. I'm a fake. Heterogeneous. So... I didn't want to make it any more messy. the world of the people who loved me. Besides,”

”... and?

”The magic, it was really nice. It was just what I admired. I liked this world. I thought I could love you.... this is all I am for real. Whether magic is imitation or I'm fake, the feeling of magic is real.”

... so she obsesses with magic. It produced a product called magic without giving up that magic could not be used.

But too much for me. It's too - I'm angry!

”I'm an idiot”

”Huh?”

”You are! It's stupid! It's all, it's all set for real, isn't it? You are the Anisphere Win Palettia! The princess of my country who inherited your blood! I sent into this world a great alternative to magic, even without magic! Even if he was a stranger as a royal family, he still held his heart to thinking of someone! What do you say none of that is real!?”

She thinks of herself as a fake somewhere in her heart and decides that there's only one thing that's real. She was too pathetic, stupid, miserable to look at.

”It could have been someone else.”

”... Ufi...?

”It wasn't Princess Anisphere who wasn't here, was it?”

I can't believe it's fake. You don't have to think that!

There's this guy who thinks it's fake and moans compared to the ”real” that doesn't even exist!

”You are! You helped me! You're here! You're listening to me! You are the one who swore my allegiance!! There is no fake or real thing there! You are the only one!!”

―― ――

”Isn't it all good for real? Besides you, I don't have you! So where do you say you are...? It would be here!? All of it! What you felt would be here what I felt!?”

Slap her in the chest and exhale roughly. Only when there are tears in my cheeks and I wipe it away rampantly.

”... it must have been painful all along. I don't know the pain. I can't say I get it, etc. So let me tell you something, Master Anis.”

I finally found it, the way to take her hand, the answer to line up next to it.

What this man wanted to be was not a king. “A wizard who can make someone smile,” but her dream.

So let me do the magic, too. Give her the magic of salvation, too, as you did to me.

”You're the best wizard in the world to me.”

Because this guy keeps admiring magic so much.

- My heart was breaking.

No. It wasn't the heart that broke, it was the chain-like admonition that bound the heart.

Yufi's words melted all over me. A commandment that was in my heart, that even I had turned away myself. Too tight, that shackle that was only with my heart. If you break the adhesion commandment, it hurts. It's decided to make me cry.

”Huh... Huh...!

My throat is cramped. My breath hurts. My vision is full of tears and I see nothing.

Now I felt all was forgiven. I couldn't forgive you one day. It all got better now.

Just free. I'm sure I can't beat anything anymore. What I wanted is in my hand right now. I can definitely grab it.

Hold Yuffi's body tight so he can hold on. I couldn't help it, I wanted to scream, but it was so painful that I couldn't breathe, I asked her to scratch the algae.

I was in the mood to grab the straw. I never wanted to let go. Good thing this guy is the only one for me. I just wanted to hold my breath, it was painful, and yet I was happy, and I couldn't think of anything.

”Yes, but...!

Thank you for saving me.

Thanks for making me a ”wizard”.

Thanks for finding me that I almost forgot.

I didn't want to be a “king”. I've always wanted to be a wizard.

Like giving an ash-covered princess a pumpkin carriage. I want to bring happiness to someone, a smile.

It was a dream. It was a dream that I thought I could get but couldn't reach it. Because I was a bad wizard.

Because it confuses the country and breaks someone's smile. But even for me, if you're in this hand. Because I can still say “real”.

Oh, no. I can't breathe even though I want to thank you. It's painful, just painful.

So I didn't know what blocked my breathing.

Soft, warm. My heart remembers a normal heartbeat for a feeling that reminds me to breathe.

Yufi's face spread all over his sight. I was crying at the end of my closed eyes, close enough that my forehead was going to stick...!

”- Huh!? Mmmm...!! Mmmm!

Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa!?

Whoa, whoa, whoa!

Near, no, it's not, it's blocked, away, powerful!? I can't peel it...!

Even though it's a breath I can't even remember, I leaked my remaining breath. Kurakuri, I thought my head had shaken, and my body lost its strength and sank into bed.

... make sure I'm grown up and Yuffi wakes up and leaves. I wiped those wet lips with my fingers and she made me laugh.

-... oh, this, no. Totally fucked......

I was embarrassed and couldn't see her face properly. All I could do was groan while hiding my face with both arms.

It's really been done. I've made it unconscious, and I'm going to be the real me. It's like I've been enchanted.

I have fallen in love with this man, with Ufilia Magenta, helplessly.