34 Episode 34: The Lonely Princess (1/2)
”... remember when you first met me?
”... come dress more sneaky”
”I want you to hear my heart scream when you jump in my current outfit”
”I'm sorry!
”You think apologizing won't make a bad rumor!?”
I escaped from the outhouse and jumped into the Gana Workshop as I dressed. I was out of the palace, so my outfit remained quite royal. Naturally, Tomas, jumped in, is angry and angry. I'm sorry.
Honestly, I care about Tomas. I can't afford it. The back of the nose is hot, and the back of the eye remains twitchy hot. If I got caught off guard, I was about to have a voice that didn't make sense, and I was like a child.
Tomas sighed as he sat round his knee in the corner of the workshop to indulge in the uncontrollable things he couldn't even control himself.
”... go home”
”That's a comforting place!?”
”Shut up, shut up. Don't get me into trouble. Eighty-nine, you're in trouble.”
”Not nice! Me, princess! Yes, work!
”You can go and report that the princess is knee-wrapped in such a filthy place, right?
”I'm sorry! I said all I could!
I really want you to give me a break about being brought back now. I mean, you're making a scene, aren't you? He noticed I was crying and usually looked at the knights who came to stop him with all their might.
Or it's going to annoy Yufi awesome. But when I think of Yufi's face, I can't help but want to die. My heart hurts, I'm going to cry, and I'm going to make my nose squeal. Then I heard Tomas tongue pounding.
”... yeah depressing”
”... terrible”
”You're the one who's terrible. Nothing but royalty and tragedy running into civilian workshops crying.”
”Sorry......”
That's certainly a tragedy... no, it's really depressing...
”... uh, already. Don't apologize. So, what happened?”
”Are you listening to me?
”Go home when you talk.”
”... yeah”
You can't stay in a boulder for long. Makes me mistake that I ran in crying. It's bad for Tomas if there's a rumor. No, it might be too late. I wonder what you're really doing, me.
I'm going to tell Tomas about the depression but also the bump and how this happened. I know I've had a lot of stupidity to say to Tomas, but this could have been the first time I've ever cried. Usually I haven't even figured myself out so far...
Besides, I was just careful now. But I don't want anyone to touch me. It was such a complicated feeling. So I was thankful that Tomas didn't even return the hammer and just stayed there and listened.
Recently, I thought Al was gone and I had to take over the throne. That's where Yuffi said he wanted to be king. When they told me I was free to chase my dreams, there was nothing I could do about it and I couldn't figure it out.
”... so I ran away. Why did you run away? I don't know... I don't know myself. For the first time, I'm sick of being grumpy...”
I don't want to go back. I don't want to face anyone who knows my face now. To Uffi, to Ilia, to Raini, to Father, to Mother. I just wanted to be alone. But I didn't want to be alone either.
The contradictory feelings don't take shape, they circle around. I don't know anything about this. I don't even know what to do without knowing. I can only squat with my knees, I don't want to.
”Right. Then go home.”
”... terrible”
”You, I told you I was leaving.
”I don't want to go home”
”Why?”
”... I don't know”
”Liar.”
”I'm not lying!
”I'm scared, you are. That's the only reason you're running away.”
”... Scared?
Scared, ran away? What's that? Just, that's all...?
”... is that so simple? This.”
Other than that, I don't know why.
”Why?”
”I'm scared if someone tells me to keep my life. Even if I cut off from my family. But I feel heavily prepared if they tell me I'm going down the road I know it's difficult. It's still heavy when people say it's for their dreams.”
... heavy preparedness, huh? That's, yeah. Yufi's readiness is heavy. Even now I know I was surprised.
”... Tomas.”
”What the fuck?”
”... are you making fun of me right now?
”Why?”
”'Cause I'm that Anisphere Win Palettia under the sky, right? He stormed the dragon, saying he was collecting material for the demon, and he went to fight alone... but he ran away.”
Yufi's proclamation is goodwill. It was for me everywhere. Yet I ran away. I got scared, freaked out, couldn't take it, couldn't say anything back...
”... no, it's not weird to run away”
Tomas's response back is so unexpected that I look up in momentum.
”Why?”
”The only thing that Master Ennis can stand to lose is his own. For example, if the dragon leaves now, do you want to leave alone?
”... I'm not going”
”Why?
”... I'm not in that much of a rush for material right now. Besides, I'm the only one with the right to inherit the throne now.”
Now, if I die from a single hit with a dragon, I won't be able to see it. So I can't reckless like that anymore. Until now, there was Al. Because Al was there, I wasn't worried that the king would be gone even if I died.
But not now. I am the next king. There is none but me. The country will be disturbed without me.... That's no good. If it becomes a civil conflict, many people will surely die.
”If it's just me, it's good. But you can't stand the fact that other people's lives are lost because of you. Anyway, until now, you thought you had Prince Algard even if you were dead, right?
……
”But Master Uphilia isn't. Only one, that's what I wanted from Lady Anise. I want my dreams to come true. If you snort, Master Uphilia will lose a lot of things.”
”... it's, it's scary. 'Cause I don't know if it's worth it to me.”
”Right. Nobody admitted it.“ Make your dreams come true before you are royal. ”Who else could say that?”
... right. That's why I'm scared. 'Cause I'm royal. Nothing took precedence over that. Speaking of which, I'm sorry that Ufi isn't free. Get out of the house in the first place, because what do they say?
I wanted you to admit it. That's not a lie. But I didn't want to trade it for someone's life. Because I knew it wouldn't come true.
”... I didn't ask you to do that.”
”... right, I can't say. Maybe I burned it because I burned it too.”
”... Huh? Did you say that to Uffi the other day?
Tomas is scratching his cheek at first sight.... but Yuffi decides as much as Tomas tells you? No, maybe it was just hanging up. I'm sure Uffi thought about it a lot, worried about it, and decided on it. Because someone told me, what an easy determination.
That eye proves it. That eye of Yufi didn't look like such a light decision. I think that's why I got barometric pressure. So much so that you want to run away.
”... what did I say?”
”Master Anis said it wasn't for the king.... unless you“ stop ”Master Ennis.”
”What's that?”
”You know that for yourself, don't you? Not Lady Anis,“ Her Royal Highness Princess Anisphere Wynn Palettia ”cries mesomethodically in a castle workshop like this?
Unexpectedly there was a zero voice of distress. It hurts my heart to be poked all over the pain just now.
Surely royalty doesn't cry in places like this. I don't cry in the first place. You just have to freeze your mind before you cry. No royalty needs tears. I'm the one crying right now. You don't have to cry if you stop being me.
”I won't come here anymore if Master Anis becomes really just a royalty, and I won't do anything stupid, and I won't laugh.... I didn't ask you to do that and be king.”
”... obnoxious, I stole people's dialogue”
”I'll steal it.... You had Master Algard. Why not? I've never heard of a queen.”
Tell Tomas to bump his grievances.... That was so sweet to regret. Happy. So in my mouth I slap haters.
”Neither do I. There's no way. But al-kun... al-kun was hard, too. That's why you don't have specifications.”
”I don't know.”
”You don't have to know.”
”Then don't cry, go home. Don't talk too much. If you're gonna cry, you're not here. What's so comforting about the words of the people?”
... will not.
I'm just glad you told Tomas you don't want me to be king. That's it. 'Cause Tomas can't do anything. There's no reason to either. Doesn't make sense if you do. That's why Tomas doesn't. I have such trust.
That's why I believed it. I don't like to hang out and get dried up, only my rotten arm is a good blacksmith Tomas. I asked him for it because I thought it looked like me somewhere. That's the beginning of our relationship. There's no such thing as warm feelings there. It has nothing to do with comfort.
”... sorry, thanks. I was losing myself a little bit. I'm coming out.”
”Ah.”
”Sorry to interrupt your work.”
”Oh.... my next job, I'm waiting for you. If you want to come out later, weave your feathers around the robe. You stand out.”