27 Episode 27: Theyre Sisters and Brothers (2/2)

”It looks spicy, Al. Hey, Al. If you can't laugh here, you can't laugh even if you beat me...”

”Funny! I laugh! I thought I had a better place than you! He said he could protect what I wanted to protect!!”

”Isn't that just reassuring? Can you say that you've fulfilled your wish? - It's not, Al. That's not what I'm talking about.”

- It's painful, Al. Watching you is so hard. [M]

”Enjoy your life.”

”... Enjoy,”

Al opened his eyes to my spitting words. I don't know if I'm surprised, angry, or just being taken aback. I don't know anything about Al anymore.

”If you can't enjoy it, it doesn't make sense, it doesn't make sense. In the end, Al, you just become king. I'll be a boring tyrant no different than a king of decorations, just wielding my powers. Or do you want to enjoy the killing? Is abuse the happiness for you?

”Why bother asking such a thing!? Have pity!?”

”- If you don't want to be pitied, behave yourself!

The fever of the heart that I finally regained, the color of that emotion is not anger. It's a void that can't be helped. It's so empty that you can't even color it. That's why I have to scream. I can't do anything to Al-Kun anymore without burning this void.

”If it's not fun, think about living happily ever after! If you don't want to be tied up, think about living free! Isn't that why you chose? Trying to cross me! Don't enjoy it, what's left over me? After all, it's just the cold crown, I don't know!?”

Al distorted his expression so that he could be poked in the void by my cry. My legs step back, as if pushed by my momentum.

I took a step forward to pack that remote distance. My legs are so heavy. If you don't want to put it forward, it's like your nerves are screaming.

analogy, still. I take a strong step forward. Even if it is a completely missing step to fill this distance of disconnection.

”Don't you feel anything right now? You just regret it? Are you just scared? Really? Well, I'm sure you were scared of me. That was scary. You're making me mean it, aren't you? You don't think anything of yourself? I got it for sinning or throwing it all away, but what I've got is so empty!?”

Grab your chest with one hand. It's too heavy and it's a painful emotion to spit out. When would I have tasted such carelessness?

- Yes, it's enough to compare it to despair when you know you can't use magic. That was the worst, worst fact of my life.

I had another taste of despair that I thought for a moment that I would turn down my life. Then there's no way your heart won't die.

It's the same world with magic, but it can't breathe how magic can't be used. That's all I was desperate for. Yet Al is! You've given me the same amount of despair!

”Look forward to it! You've grown stronger! Any history, any reason! I'm going out with you! I'm still... your sister!! Your only sister!!”

You can hate me. You can hate me. Because that's all I could give you anymore. That's what I've been fooling myself about.

But the truth is. - I've never forgotten the day Al took your hand.

He was an important brother. He was a cute little brother. I was the one who had to protect you. He's the one who realized I couldn't protect him and let go of his hand.

Please, at least be healthy. Even such prayers were betrayed. I ended up ruining Al's life because of me. You have to. I can't live!

”I've enjoyed my life and lived it! To shape the magic I've always dreamed of! I don't care how much magic you can't use, no matter how desperate they poke at you! It was fun, ever!!”

If you wish no more to come true, let's burn everything down. This nothingness, despair, everything that was prayer.

Now I leave nothing to think about. This may be the last time. I have no reason to hold my thoughts. The royal wall is an unnecessary title for us anymore.

”In such a boring battle! Beat me! So Al is satisfied!? Come and ask for more, slap him as much as your emotions think! You've always regretted it! You've been asking for it! Here and now! Don't enjoy this fight! Don't be happy! Don't be sad! When do you say you think anything but anger!?”

If you're saying I'm the one who emptied your life... I'll burn it all.

”If you say there's only anger, I'll remind you. I remember that you didn't want to remember. - Because I'm your sister. This is the only way I can be your sister!!”

I just screamed to my heart. I don't think about the feelings of the recipient, just the ego itself.

To my cry like that, Al was just like not knowing what to look like. Good, that's good, Al. You're on your own, I know.

- Still, you can only live on your own. Curse me. That's fine.

”... what, that. Are you trying to tell me you'll forgive me?

”You can't forgive me, idiot! Now that Al is gone, I'm the next one to have the right to inherit the throne!? I'm not playing witch mountain games, I'm not doing anything stupid to you that won't even beat me!! Baka! Idiot! Idiot at last!!”

”Huh...”

”You always wanted to do this!? Did you ever know about royalty, determination, destiny or anything like that! Just talk as you wish! Just be free to hope! Do what you want! Don't be patient! Isn't that what you wanted!?”

”... that was unforgivable”

Bite your teeth off by the time you're about to hear a toothpick, and Al squeals like a groan. You don't know that!

”You can't forgive me! But it's too late! That's how you know!? Then you'll have to laugh already! Then laugh! Laugh at all the nasty things you're about to push on me! Happy to! You should do that!

”No, that would be too rampant!?”

”Ugh, baka!!”

”What was that earlier!? Kids!?”

”That's right! It's a child! I'm just a kid! Kids are good!! That's why you fight!! You're doing it now!!”

”... fight...?

What are you talking about? and al-kun blinked his eyes. Oh, I really couldn't even do this to you. I wonder how we could only be like this.

”It's a fight, it's just a fight. This.”

”... fights,” he said. There's no reason to fight! This is, this is - revenge...! Me! I wanted revenge on you...!

Revenge, huh? Oh, yeah. This is revenge for Al. I kept taking everything away from myself, if I didn't have to be anything, it's just revenge against the royal family that gave me the curse of being king.

”- But know it or not!

”... hey, what the hell are you! Why don't you always think about the reaction from around you? That's why you're called Kiteretsu! Yet they say I'm good except for magic, they compare me and you know how I felt!?”

”I just found out! And I don't care!! It was Al who would be king!!”

”I didn't want to be king of decorations!!”

”Then you should have been the king you wanted to be!!”

”My sister was the one who should have been king! You're better than me, and you have to inherit just to say I'm a boy! Isn't that irrational!!”

”That's right, that's good! Al!”

”Yes, no!... No, you're the one who's different!? What are you talking about!?”

”It's weirder for Al to deny it even though he admitted he wanted to, you idiot!

”Oh what the hell are you...!! What do you want!?”

”That's why I'm telling you. It's a fight. It's just a fight!

”Isn't that a fight problem?”

Al-kun looked at me with an incredible look on his face. Besides, I think I accidentally got a crying look on my face.

Because the reaction... seems too ”normal.” I guess Al couldn't float all this time.

One day, memories come back to my brain when I was pulling my reluctant al-kun hand. We were still sisters and brothers today.

”Oh, it doesn't matter anymore! Details!

”Doesn't matter!?”

”- Where is the problem more than accepting the grievances of a suffering family member!?”

- Hey, Al. I wish I could still pull your hand.

”I won't tell you because I'm royal! There's no point in saying it anymore! If you throw it away, I'll throw it away! That's why I'm telling you to face me! If you want to fight, say so!! If you say you are unhappy, say my best to show it!!”

- I can hear that guy (sister) scolding me.

I got it so I could slap the words. I clog the words. Emotions twist up and spread to every corner of your body.

I don't know if I want to cry or if I'm mad anymore.... and lost power all at once. I couldn't help it, I wanted to laugh.

”... now you are.”

”Yeah, now it is.”

That guy (sister) has a crying look on his face. You must have been angry the whole time. My anger is still not gone. But that wasn't pure anger anymore.

”... if I could have heard that word sooner, I would have”

”If I had conveyed this word quickly, I would have”

Oh... it's like a mirrored word.

”You can't leave now.”

”You can't back off.”

”I wanted to be a bastard.”

”No one.” Apologize to Raini, fool. ”

”My sister is the one. If we keep this up, Raini's gonna die, okay? Can you apologize then?

”I promised I wouldn't let you die! If you break it, Raini will be the same! If you're guilty of the same crime, both succeed and lose! Later, I am royal!! My orders should take precedence!!”

”... terrible reason. Really, terrible reason... makes me cry”

I laughed as I shed my floating tears. I was laughing.

At the earliest, I was too sad, too angry, but the laughter came in and I couldn't help but... I thought it was fun.

You're an idiot, I thought. I do fools from what to what. Both myself and the person in front of me (my sister). That's not the case, but still... we're trying to have a “fight”.

”Hey, sister.”

”What?”

”Will you die?”

”I don't like it.”

”Right.”

”That's right.”

”Well, there's no choice.”

”I don't have a choice.”

”Have a fight!

”Shall we continue!

- Oh. I'm sure there's nothing left, and it'll be a fight that won't benefit.

Let go of everything you had and just slap your emotions as you wish. I wanted you dead, I thought. From the bottom of my heart, I wanted to beat this irrational incarnation to pieces.

Still good. I guess this irrational sister says. This guy is too prodigious, incomprehensible, and yet oddly sharp to pierce his mind.

”I hate you!! Sister!!”

I've always hated it.

I hated you more than anything and couldn't help but notice you.

You lived your days to the point where you didn't care about anything else, you were hateful, jealous, and envious from the bottom of your heart.

I remember one day smiling. When would it have been a smile? That's the face my sister is laughing at. Really, this guy hasn't changed anything or anything for a long time.

I couldn't wait to hate it, but it seemed to spit out without starving.

This guy says he hates you. He always wanted to beat this guy up. This awareness lightens my mind above all else, and I am reminded that there is nothing ahead of me.

I just couldn't stop laughing from slipping down my throat.