22 Episode 22: What Leads to Madness (2/2)

”Raini, you mustn't run from your power. I can't change how I scratched what's there. Containing the overflowing is not a natural condition. One day there will be bankruptcy. Take control of yourself so you don't. That's where I use it and not use it. Don't run away from knowing yourself.”

”From myself, I don't run...”

”I didn't run away. There was nothing from me. Scratch your feet, and what you desperately find is really scary. Still didn't throw it out. Sometimes he didn't want to throw it out, but he didn't want to run away from his responsibility.”

”That's because Princess Anisphere was strong...”

”There was nothing strong about it. I regretted it, and there were so many things I wanted to throw out. I don't want to be told I was strong from the start. 'Cause if you don't, I really wanted to cry,' cause I'm gonna be gone.”

When they told me I couldn't use magic, my head turned white. But still, I paved the way for magic. I was just desperate to go that way.

Now that I thought about it, I didn't seem to be facing reality. So I did the unscrupulous, and I did whatever I wanted. Because if not, I'll stop my leg. Because I have to face it.

”Yeah? I mean, isn't this running away? No, you're not. Yeah, it's not a bad thing to run, but I can't keep running, but I guess it's right. That's why you shouldn't run, is it? It's good to run away for one day. But you can't keep running.”

”I don't keep running...”

”Me, I've thought about killing myself because I couldn't use magic, and that kind of thought was clear and unscrupulous and annoying to Ilia, and there were plenty of things that made both Father and Mother frighten me. But I made the roundabout, but I couldn't help myself, and I think I got something to replace it.”

It's only my subjectivity that I haven't escaped, and objectively it may seem like I've escaped. Yeah, this awareness is important. If that's what they thought, I might have seen a bit of a reason why both stone heads in the Ministry of Magic hated me.

Run away from your duties as a royalty and devour your time and materials for research you are not sure about. I don't like it because it's starting to improve. I may have been laughed at with my nose while I was scratching my feet, but I can't even keep laughing when I start to achieve results.

Well! That's why I wouldn't if I told you I was going to skip it! I didn't know that!!

”Yeah. I mean, why don't we just win the last one?

”That's a great throw!?”

”No, it's getting difficult and troublesome...”

”Princess, as soon as you get in trouble, you run away, right? What didn't escape? Aren't you running away?”

”Shut up, Ilia! Yes, that was just moving forward! On my way!

I admit I'm a fugitive habitual, I don't like archery or anything. But this is moving forward, not running away! I'm just straight down my path, and if that's what you see from someone else, you just look like you're running away! You're the guy with the difference of values!

When I was thinking about such an explanation, Raini started laughing like he was breathing out. A year-to-year, heartfelt laugh out of power that is not aristocratic. There were thin tears in his eyes.

”True, that's crazy... I've laughed so much, it's been awesome...”

”Fun?”

”Fun?... right. Princess Anisphere is such a funny person, disrespectful as it may be, but she's really crazy and so horrible to be here... so... oh, sorry, I don't know what I'm talking about anymore... I don't know what I'm trying to say...”

Sip your nose, try to say something, but you're speechless. Like saying that I'm trembling for laughter and just can't contain overflowing emotions.

Touch Raini's head like that. I found my shoulder jumped, but I keep stroking my head without worrying.

”You don't have to.”

”... Yes”

”One day, I'm sure, if you don't give up, you'll be able to convey the words you want to convey. But if you turn away, you won't be able to speak for life.”

”... ugh...!

”We may not make it. I might miss the opportunity. But, you know, I can't tell him, and if he doesn't, I think it hurts terribly. Raini should walk at Raini's stride width. If you want to run, you can run. You're free now. You don't have to be a baroness or a girl to be loved.”

You just have to laugh honestly, cry honestly, be honest angry, and enjoy it honestly.

Even if you shouldn't behave with emotions alone, noble or royal. I think it's a mistake to push everything to death. Otherwise people go crazy.

Still, it's hard for everyone to be free. So at least if it's a permissible place, I have to tell you fully.

”... Princess Anisphere sounds like your sister”

”Hmm?”

When I stroked my head, Raini groaned pompously as to whether it had calmed down a bit.

”... you wanted such a sister”

”Are you insane?

”Shut up, Ilia. It was a really good scene right now.”

Why deny it at no time, I'll cry on the boulder, too.

”If I were you, I'd freak out if I had a sister or a sister like this”

”You're so powerful!? Oh, I even started laughing at Yufi!?”

”No, because I feel the same as Miss Raini... but I also know how Ilia feels...”

Yufi says with a laugh of couscous. Ilia has a complicated look on her face, and Raini laughs at Nico at some point. It's perfectly peaceful. My rating is on you, though!

”Um... I may have forgotten, but I'm the real sister? There's Al.”

”Ah.... Speaking of which, they don't look alike at all...”

”Honestly, even when they say sister and brother...”

Raini breathed and Yufi nodded to agree. No, well, it's a man and a woman, and they don't look like each other. Who is Al Kun?

”Well, I didn't do anything like a sister. Either way, they think you're just an enemy with blood connected, don't they?

”... are you so unfriendly?

”I don't hate you. It's just that Al has a reason to hate me, so there's no choice.”

”You mean the right to inherit the throne? But Master Algard's up there from the beginning, isn't he?

”Of course there's a reason for that, too.... Well, can I say it. It's kind of an uninteresting old story.”

I don't mean to break this fun air, but it's not like these kids have anything to do with Al. Most importantly, I wanted to talk to you. It's hard to say I won't be involved in the future.

It is better for you to know more about me and Al than to come to my side. That's what I started talking about.