Chapter 2183 canst think of it (1/2)

It really had such an impact on Bernard that, after all these years, every time he thought about it, he still felt sad.

”it's all my fault.” Bernard went on, with a look of pain on his face. ”If I hadn't applied for war for the first time, we wouldn't have carried out that mission, and my brothers wouldn't have died there because of me.”

”monitor, it's not your fault.” ”I think even if you don't take the initiative to apply, your comrades in arms must want to join the war. Moreover, as a soldier, they can die on the battlefield, and they still sacrifice in this kind of mission. It's all worth it. It's because of their sacrifice that we have peace for more than ten years. They are all heroes.”

Yanfeng country has not waged war since that time. Although there have been frictions and even small-scale battles between the two countries for more than ten years, the real large-scale war has never happened.

so, Alvin said, the peace of the past ten years has been bought by those people with their lives, and there is no mistake.

besides, those people are all special fighters with strong strength and high natural morale. Bernard can feel uncomfortable because he can't join the war. Other people must have the same idea. All the troops have joined the war, but they are watching like no one else. Obviously, no one can accept it So even if Bernard doesn't take the initiative to ask for war, his people will let Bernard go. They won't be willing to be a spectator at such an important time.

”however, their death, after all, has a lot to do with me.” Bernard said that this was also his heart disease for so many years. Although they completed the task, they saw the comrades who lived and trained together die in front of their eyes. Bernard could not accept the task for a while and regretted to carry out it. ”After that task came back, I voluntarily applied for quitting the special team, and I was very sad for a while Leng, I want to retire and go home. However, it's not allowed. I've become a cook. It's easy to deal with these firewood, rice, oil and salt every day. ”

although Bernard said it was easy, Alvin was able to see that over the years, Bernard did not put it down. It seemed easy, but there was a lot of psychological burden.

in addition, Bernard was also a hero at that time, so he suddenly became a cook. Bernard was not reconciled to his guilt, but he was always reconciled to being a cook when he thought of his late comrades.

”squad leader, you are really a stooge to be the cook.” Alvin said, ”I think your comrades in arms certainly don't want to see you so decadent. Moreover, your skills are too wasteful to be used. Even if you come out to be an officer and teach the following people, it's not bad.”

Alvin is not flattering. He has been learning from Bernard in this period of time, so he knows Bernard's skills, so he feels it's a pity that his skills are wasted.

”I am satisfied with my life now.” Bernard said.

Bernard didn't deceive Alvin. At the beginning, when he asked the king of war to be a cook, his heart was really not willing. Even if he wanted to be a cook himself, there were many unwilling in his heart.

however, after so many years, he has also adapted to such a life, and gradually fell in love with such a life. He thinks that it's good to be a cook. If there's anything that he is not willing to do, it will disappear slowly after meeting Alvin.

naturally, Bernard didn't want his ability to learn to be buried. When he saw Alvin, he found a goal, that is, to teach all his knowledge to Alvin. In this way, there was nothing in his mind that he was unwilling to do. As for the fame and wealth, he might have thought about it or even loved it in the early years Yes, but now, there is no such thoughts.

Alvin still wants to persuade, but Bernard obviously has made up his mind. Moreover, after he has made up his mind, no one can change it at will. Alvin can also think that the supreme commander of this camp, in recent years, certainly has not been less persuaded by Bernard, but it still has no effect. What he is urging now It won't work.

”don't talk about it anymore. I've decided.” Bernard waved his hand and said, with a thoughtful look on his face, ”but you said before, have these two actions of Yanfeng country really something to do with me?”

that's why Bernard is willing to tell Alvin about his past, because he also doesn't know what the people from the inflamed country are here for. When Alvin says that this matter may have something to do with him, Bernard also has such speculation, so he will take the initiative to tell his past.