20 How different life would have been (1/2)

Shopping for a dress wasn't as hard as Ha Eun thought. She just had to agree to whatever Do Mi and Soo Ryun suggested and in a matter of a few excruciatingly long hours she was able to find a spaghetti strap dress with silver lace.

It was the first time Ha Eun ever saw herself in a wedding dress. She used to think about going into a wedding dress boutique and trying some on but she stopped herself from going because she thought that only desperate women did that, so she never thought of going into one again. Seeing herself in a white dress, she imagined what it would be like to get married to someone she loved and not her secretary.

As Ha Eun, Do Mi and Soo Ryun walked around the town, Ha Eun noticed Mi Jin through a restaurant window, drinking what appeared to be her third bottle of soju. She asked Do Mi and Soo Ryun if she could have some time to herself, the other two thought she was going through the whole cold feet thing and wanted to walk for a while, so they gave her some space.

She went over to Mi Jin. When Mi Jin saw her, she scoffed ”Out of all the people I'm going to see today, you had to be the first” Mi Jin said in a very drunken tone. Ha Eun felt Mi Jin had insulted her. She thought she didn't like Mi Jin but it appears the feeling was, mutual?

”Don't get me wrong. I'm glad its you. I wanted to congratulate you before the big day” Mi Jin told her and offered Ha Eun to sit down right across from her.

”Why are you even here? It's not even noon yet” Ha Eun didn't know why she was bothering herself with this woman but she couldn't stop thinking about what she mentioned about Chang Wook when they first met, about something happening. What was that something? She was also curious about that expression he had on his face the day of the Cherry Blossom Festival. When she finally found him, before she beat his ass with a bouquet, she saw he had a saddened expression on his face, it was an expression she had never seen him make before.

”Just thinking about how different life would have been if I had just said no and followed my heart”

”Isn't it a little too early to be having an existential crisis?” Ha Eun commented. Mi Jin laughed, stating Ha Eun was funny.

”Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd settle for being just friends, just to keep them in your life?” Mi Jin asked ”Did you ever love someone so much that even after he left your life, no matter what you did, somehow the memory of him would find its way back to you?”

”No” Ha Eun answered honestly.

She knew Mi Jin was talking about Chang Wook. It didn't take a genius to put two and two together. She just never expected Mi Jin would come right out and talk about her remaining feelings for her ex, right in front of his fiancée. Well, fake fiancée but still a fiancée.

”Hyuk Jae was a great guy” Mi Jin said. Ha Eun's brain had to do a refresh. Weren't they talking about Chang Wook? Who the hell is Hyuk Jae?