AST 1812 - Are You Confessing Your Love to Me? (1/2)

Qing Shui actually already knew that this woman would be this sort of person, but he hadn’t expected that she would be so perplexed to this extent, saying such things to him. Qing Shui didn’t know if he should feel honored or not.

Qing Shui gazed at Shen Huang who was looking at him. She had a serious expression, the beautiful face of hers contained a hint of anticipation which caused his heart to beat faster. He slightly shifted his gaze away and spoke, “Even if you found a safe harbor to rest your weary heart, you would still want something which you can protect and cherish.”

In the past, Qing Shui had said such words before. This wasn’t the first time he encountered a situation like this. When one’s sole glimmer of hope turned to dust, they would hate the world and might even commit suicide.

If one wanted to live on, they would need motivation. Desire could be seen as a type of motivation, whether it is wealth, women, pride or power.

Regardless of which type of desire, right now for Shen Huang, any types of desire would do.

“Safe harbor? Something that I want to cherish and protect?” Shen Huang sank into contemplation. She was trying very hard to find the answer but she eventually shook her head. “There’s no such safe harbor for me. I don’t even know what I want. I always feel like I’m not in this world, with nothing anchoring me here.” Shen Huang replied with a sign of melancholy.

Qing Shui felt as like he was at his wit’s end. Upon encountering Shen Huang’s situation, he didn’t figure out how he could help. If he couldn’t tear her mask away to see the depths of her heart, he wouldn’t have any idea.

Shen Huang turned silent as she pondered. It felt like she was waiting for Qing Shui’s answer.

“Do you have anyone you like? Have you made love to any man before?” Qing Shui seriously asked.

Shen Huang didn’t get angry when she heard this. She didn’t have too great of a reaction as she calmly replied, “No.”

After speaking, she continued, “I haven’t been with a man before.”

It was said that humans have seven emotions and six desires. Qing Shui believed that this woman was no exception. Could it be that she hadn’t encountered any suitable partners? Qing Shui helplessly smiled, “Have you ever thought about being married before? Have you not looked for love before?”

Qing Shui himself had already known the answer to his questions. Her personality was cool and indifferent. She might also be too focused that she didn’t have any time to think about matters like this at all before.

“No. I’ve yet to meet someone whom I like to prompt such thoughts. However, I wouldn’t mind doing so one day.” Shen Huang calmly replied.

Qing Shui was surprised by to this woman’s honesty but he also heaved a sigh of relief in his heart. As long as she had an interest in love, it would still be fine. Seeing that this woman was so honest, he also added, “Once you find someone you love, you would slowly recover. Especially once you have children of your own, you would find that even your personality might change.”

“I understand, but there’s no one suitable. I haven’t met any whom I like.” Shen Huang replied.

“There’s a way.” Qing Shui spoke after thinking about it for a while.

“Go and hate someone. You must hold a deep hatred for that person to the point where they occupy 80% of your heart.” Qing Shui straightforwardly suggested.

“How do I hate someone?” Shen Huang asked with a curious tone. There was some change to her expression, as though she agreed with Qing Shui’s words.

“Recall the thing you care about the most about. Take that away and you would learn hatred.” Qing Shui smiled.