188 Engagemen (2/2)

”Then just accept the engagement first and then can slowly understand whatever you want to know about me, I guarantee not to hide anything from you and will tell you everything.”

”...” I did not have anything to say, but just lowered my head, ”Let me think about it.”

”Can you give me an answer within three days?” Ao Yun seemed to be very eager.

I nodded and agree.

So he didn't continue to insist and urged me to continue eating as if nothing happened and helped me to open up some crab shells treating me like a child. This meticulousness was very moving.

When he took me back, he confidently said to me when we arrived, ”I will wait for your good news.”

I didn't answer, just silently walked out of the car and thanked him. After returning to my room, I held the big Kitty cat and thought, he seemed so determined. So, I called Xiao Yu to discuss and get the advice of a friend. She taught me like I was a fool, ”If you miss a good man and such a good marriage, you will regret it into your next life. This Ao Yun is wealthy and has the appearance of a diamond turtle, even princesses and Hollywood stars will not wast time to grab such a good man, and you are unexpectedly still hesitating? Simply coming to show off to me! Remember to marry him and don't forget me!”

After receiving a scolding for half an hour, I hung up the phone. Hua Rong knocked on my door with a bunch of dried fish and said that she couldn't sleep and so wanted to chat with me.

I took the opportunity to mention my troubles, she was actually very surprised and said, ”Ao Yun? I know him. My father is very familiar with his secretary. His character is very good and kindhearted, if you can marry him, it will definitely be your good fortune.”

”Really? Should I really marry him?” From childhood till now, I have never been so confused and hesitant, what is stopping me?

”You should.” Hua Rong nodded, there's a flash of sadness on her face, but it was quickly replaced as if I had imagined it. ”I used to work in that company, and he had a picture of you on his desk. He loves you very much, you should believe it.”

But do I love him? From the time Ao Yun appeared in front of me, whenever I see his face, my heartbeat speeds up and I have a very favorable impression of him. According to general analysis, this feeling should undoubtedly be love.

Yes, I must love him. So I shouldn't hesitate to agree...agree...to marry him.

Under the brainwashing and persuasion of Hua Rong, I thought that this marriage may be the best choice for my life. So three days later, Ao Yun took me to see his father and my parents and put a heavy diamond ring on my finger with the consent of my parents. It seemed to weigh 30 catties, the pressure was immense and I couldn't lift the finger.

On the way back, he said to me very excitedly, ”I am going to make sure you to live a more extravagant life than Queen Mary, everyday carefree with no worries, I want you to forever be worry-free.”

I smiled, at this moment he was so excited, that I didn't dare ask the question that was in my mind.

Is the luxurious life of Queen Mary really happiness? There seems to be a hole in my heart that I couldn't fill, it was making me feel depressed and unable to enjoy myself.

In the face of such a perfect man, I am still wondering if my heart is being too greedy to be thinking all these?

In the evening, I dreamt of the beautiful girl called Hua Miao Miao. She was crying and was very heart-broken. When I got up in the morning, I actually found my own tears had flowed and wet my pillow.

Is this Master Zhuang dreaming of a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming of Master Zhuang?

***(Her idea here is that is she mirroring Hua Miao Miao's pain by crying in reality or is Hua Miao Miao in the dream mirroring the emptiness that she feels in her heart)***

***(Zhuang Zi is a Chinese philosopher, one of his most famous works is his butterfly dream...where he dreamt he was a butterfly happily enjoying his butterfly life, unaware of the man he was...then he woke up and realized he was the man, Zhuang Zi...so he was contemplating whether he was actually the butterfly dreaming of being the man, Zhuang Zi...the idea is the butterfly life felt just as real as his life as Zhuang Zi...so how can one tell what their true reality is? Quite interesting ????...

...Ever had such a vivid dream that it takes you a while to realize your reality? I've had one annoyingly funny one, where I woke early, did all my chores, took a shower, got dressed and then even went back to bed to take a quick nap before heading out to school...then I woke on my bed in my pajamas, it took a while to realize nothing was done, plus I was late! ????...

I'll share an interesting life story someone posted on reddit...the poster claimed that he had gotten into a fight while in college and got knocked unconscious, he met a woman fell in love, had a great job, had kids and was blissfully happy for 10 years...then one day he noticed something was off about a lamp and became fixated on it for days...then one day he noticed the lamp's light got brighter and brighter and he woke up on the ground with police and paramedics around, he had apparently only been knocked out for a few minutes...he, of course, had a hard time coming to the terms with the fact that he was still a college student, was never married and had no kids...it was all a dream, 10 years of his life was all a dream, people he had come to love never existed...and ended up falling into depression and had to spend years in therapy to get over it...)***

MiraiSaesang's Notes: Back to the story, I had a not-so-mini aside above ????...I finally figured out who Hua Rong is, I knew she had some relevance...she's the brothel worker who was nice to Miao Miao during her mortal realm assessment (CH54 is actually named after her)...Remember Ao Yun took her back on Miao Miao's request to be a mermaid or something since her face had gotten injured during his and Bi Qing Shen Jun's fight...

...Also an engagement? Isn't this rushing things? It's been just about a month!... Well, this will complicate things...Ao Yun quickly put a ring on it (LOL I couldn't resist ????)...