68 Who Am I? (1/2)
Immediately turning back into the body of a cat, I looked at my big fluffy tail and my beautiful fur, and then using my paws I touched my ears. Suddenly jumping into Bi Qingshen Jun's arms, I rubbed a few times, and asked expectantly, ”Miao Miao is a cat, right? I am a cat.”
”Miao Miao,” Bi Qingshen Jun slowly opened his mouth to speak, ”You are a demon cat.”
”A demon cat is also a cat, right?” I heart unexpectedly felt some panicked, therefore I raised up my paws and asked, ”I am definitely one of the species of cats, look! I have a cat's pink paw pads! And my claws can also protrude from my paws!”
”A demon cat is not considered a cat anymore, because after developing a human form, it is more related to people and gods.” Bi Qingshen Jun touched my head as he tried to explained, ”I have
always been very confused with why your character and process of thought resembled so closely to that of an ordinary house cat. And no matter how one looks at you, they would not believe you are a demon that has lived for more than a thousand years.”
”No! No!” I hurriedly shouted an excuse, ”I'm obviously a cat! Of course I would act like a cat!”
”Since you've already obtained a human form, you should be closer to people. This way, you would be able to advance to the next step, and obtain an immortal form.” Bi Qingshen Jun frowned, ”You can't always live life by muddling the facts, you must learn what human emotions are.”
”Why must I learn human emotions?” Hearing these unappealing words, I countered, ”Miao Miao doesn't want to become human, and just wants to be a cat! Isn't learning of cat emotions just fine?”
”All things want to climb to the top and want to live forever, that's why there are so many demons that come into being, and yourself, you all the necessary prerequisites, but why do you not work hard? To become a demon, one must have luck and determination, and many animals, even if they want to become a demon, they simply don't have the opportunity to become one.” Bi Qingshen Jun's eyes were full of regret and confusion.
”But…..it's not like Miao Miao wanted to become a demon…..if they want to become demons, then let them be demons. I like Shifu, and want to become a sensible and obedient cat, and happily pass through time with Shifu.”
”You!” Bi Qingshen Jun suddenly became depressed, he stretched his hands out to touch my face, and then let out a long sigh, ”Stupid, what I want is not this.”
My heart felt some fear, as I stared at his face, I carefully asked, ”Do you not like cats?”
”I like them…..but not like that…..” Bi Qingshen Jun did not carry on.
I did not listen and kept asking:
”Do you not like my tail?”
”Do you not like my ears?”
”Do you not like the pink paw pads on my paws?”
”Do you not like my fur coat?”
”Do you not like my paws…..”
Every word and every sentence. He did not answer my questions, and just furrowed his brows thinking about something. Thus my heart gradually began to sink deeper and deeper, sinking so deep until the it has become covered in darkness without a single shred of light. My happiness began to drift away bit by bit, leaving only a kind of sadness trapped within my throat. I did not utter a single word again.
The stuff I was the most proud of, you did not like at all…..
The stuff I cherished the most, you did not like…..
Then what is it that you like?