Chapter 6.2 - An Ideal Brother and an Unnecessary Brother (2/2)

“I know”

I don’t even like to share a toilet, yet I’m always reminded to use only the toilet on the second floor.

It was troublesome to get down the stairs in the first place, so it was already rare for me to use it.

“React a little…. I’m sorry, but you can’t keep acting like this.”

The last sentence as my sister disappeared downstairs did not reached my ears.

We used to be a close brother and sister pair with a good reputation in the neighborhood, but now I am in this state.

The cause is obvious. After being disillusioned with everything, our relationship became like stranger’s. After not securing a job for myself, even having a normal conversation became hard.

Back then I was… Let’s stop. Nothing happens when I regret and remember my past, because you can’t go back to the time that have passed.

It seems that the reason why I feel so depressed today because I saw Gamz and Chem’s past.

Dependable brother and useless brother. After seeing that … I would definitely compare myself with him even if I do not like it.

Even my sister wants a brother like Gamz, not me.

I lost my appetite completely and went back to my room and watched the villagers until night.

Even today, they are living a hard life without any complaints at all. They work with mutual respect and help eachother.

Chem who smiles while giving drinking water to the villagers.

Gamz who is patrolling even with his wounds.

Me who is wallowing in my regret…..

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“I want to change”

I was surprised by the words which has leaked from my mouth.

Something hits the back of my hand after my voice leaked.

Something warm is falling on my hands.

――Something wet is sliding down my cheeks.

“Why are you crying???…. Haha … If you regret enough to cry, why … didn’t ever do something… Why are you sitting here…….”

I was overwhelmed. My tears did not stop.