Chapter 63 - CH 48: PAST (2) (2/2)
”What would be the use? To show him this fake happiness we thought we had? To tell him that we were given up by our own parents even before being kidnapped? That we were sold by them to a group at the age of four? That all our suffering was caused by the very being who should have taken care of us?
”...”
”Then what about our four years of torture? Physical pain is NOTHING! DO YOU WANT HIM TO REMEMBER HOW THOSE SICK BASTARD PLAYED WITH OUR MIND? HOW WE HAD TO WATCH AS OUR FRIENDS BECAME MONSTER BECAUSE OF OUR OWN BLOOD AND HOW WE HAD TO KILL THEM OURSELVES?”
Madness was stunned. It was the first time he saw Ruler so emotional. He always thought that this guy represented their haughty and arrogant and aloof side. The kind who would stay calm even if the sky were to fall on them.
But it seemed like he was wrong. He forgot that this guy had his own feelings and view.
He cast his eyes down. Even though he keeps telling Kuroha that they're one. The truth was that they're also separate entities.
That was how the world worked. One own personality was forged by an acc.u.mulation of our emotions, our experience and our views of the world.
The four of them may have been from the same origin, but as time passed and because of the different reasons for their birth. They had their own goals and values.
It was really hard to understand. But that was how things were.
Still, despite everything, despite how they slowly grew and diverged. Their core was still the same. They're Ruler, Slayer, Madness, and Hope.
At the same time, they're [KUROHA].
[KUROHA] wasn't afraid of being needed. [HE] is afraid of no one needed [HIM]. For [HIM] being doubted by those [HE] care about [HIM] extremely heart wrenching.
As such, for Ruler, being constantly doubted by Madness must have been really painful.
”...”
After his outburst, Ruler fell silent. The only sound in this room was his heaving chest.
Finally, after regained his poise, he sighed before leaning down wearily on his seat.
”Everything I am doing is for our own good. You may not understand this, you may not see it, but sooner or later. You'll see and you'll understand. Still, you're free to do as you wish. If you want to show him everything then do it. But, once we go berserk and lose our mind, don't forget that it was your own choice that caused it.”
Madness, hearing this, fell silent before gritting his teeth and made his decision.
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Kuroha was walking in a very bad mood. Nothing of importance could be found. Finally, he sighed before turning back and deciding to go away. Staying here was only a waste of time. But,
(”Wait.”)
He paused a little,
”What?”
(”Turn at your right and advance for twenty meters. Once there, wound yourself and let your blood flow.)
He frowned a little at those weird instructions.
(”Please...Just do it.)
Kuroha was stunned for a short while by the plea. Madness, begged him? He began to take those instructions way more seriously and began to walk toward the direction pointed by Madness.
A few seconds later,
(”Stop.”)
He stopped before looking around. Nothing seemed eye-catching. Just as dilapidated as the rest.
”Now what? I just wound myself and let out my blood flow out?”
(”Yes, just that. You must let out a large quantity of blood. Don't stop until you need to do so.”)
”...And how will I know that I gave enough?”
(*chuckle* ”Trust me, you will”)
Kuroha, hearing the confidence in Madness's voice, shrugged before using his knife and wounding his hand.
Generally, the wound would immediately close, so he had to control the flow of blood in order to let it happen.
One minute later, Kuroha understood what Madness meant when he said that he would understand,
”Holy shit!”