Chapter 181 (1/2)

Chapter 181: Chapter 181

I was so sad and empty. Rather than being sad about the fact that I lost his baby, I was desperate because I realized that I could never win his love.

I strained my eyes at this shocking diagnosis by the High Priest. My fists holding the blanket trembled violently.

What did the High Priest say a moment ago? If I took this poison for a long time, what would happen to me?

Dizziness, nausea, poor breathing, and soaring irritation. When I felt these symptoms, I thought I suffered from these symptoms because I overworked myself.

Although the High Priest continued to paraphrase, I was not listening to him anymore.

I retraced all my memories related to these symptoms like crazy.

Come to think of it, I often passed out or felt dizzy because I was weak, but always managed to control my feelings. It’s only a few months after I became the empress that I suffered from these symptoms of poisoning, or I often became angry and annoyed!

“Oh my…”

I thought the reason I felt those symptoms was just because I felt resentful for his failure to care for me, and because Jiun kept coming to me and annoying me. I thought the reason I had miscarriage was because I overworked myself and I was weak since I was inherently weak.

Now, it was possible that the real reason was that I was poisoned.

I was speechless and dumbfounded. I often broke into an empty smile. As all these things had happened in the past, I had no way to confirm the truth, but I shuddered at the mere thought such a possibility existed.

“Tia, Tia? Come to your senses!” said my father.

“Oh, I guess she was shocked by what I said now. Are you okay, Lady Monique?”

I barely pulled myself together at my father’s anxious calling and the High Priest’s words. .

As the shock gradually subsided, I came to think of what happened rationally.

‘Let me put this aside for now. I still shudder at the mere thought of it, but what’s more important is the present than things of the past that you can’t confirm.’

I looked at the High Priest earnestly and said with a trembling voice, “Then, can’t I have a baby?”

“I don’t know.”

“Pardon? What do you mean you don’t know?”

“Well…Marquis, do you know that your wife had also been poisoned before?”

“Really? My mother? ”

‘What the heck is he talking about?’

I felt a little woozy at that. When I helplessly blinked at his shocking remarks, my father said with a sigh, “Yes, that’s true. Your mother was also poisoned.”

“Oh my…”

“At that time your mother discovered way later that she was poisoned. At first, her symptoms were not so noticeable, and it was difficult to detect it because it was a rare poison. ”

“… ”

“When I realized she was poisoned, it was already late. If the High Priest hadn’t come, your mother would probably have lost her life. ”

I now know why it took seven years for my mother to give birth to me after she got married to my father. As I heard she was not in good health, I thought she got pregnant belatedly.

When I let out a sigh, the High Priest turned his head and said, “If you think about her survival, I think Lady Monique will be able to survive, but I am not so sure because her case is different from your wife. So, I can’t guarantee anything.”

I felt like my hope seemed to vanish. Suddenly, I was breathing roughly.

I closed my eyes to turn away from the dark reality. However, the High Priest’s voice rang more clearly.

“I mentioned two types of poison. I already told you about one of them. The other poison worked as an agent that increased poisoning when she had it steadily. Otherwise, your mother could not have such severe symptoms.”

“If that’s the case, what about me? ”