Chapter 115 (2/2)

I was upset at her haggard look, and my heart ached when she said we met only three days ago.

‘The three days that seemed to be so long to me was ‘only three days ‘ to you.’

Three days. It was a very long time for the lovers, but not very long for friends.

I could not help but hide my bitter feelings as the three days seemed to show how close people felt toward each other.

At first, we were so close, and there were no other lovers than us. How did we end up being estranged from each other like this? Maybe it’s a good thing. Even if I leave, it won’t be too hard for you.

“It must be very difficult for you,” she said.

I was deeply touched when she said that. She once said that, talking about my memory that even my family members were scared about, my cursed memory that can accurately recall anything that I have seen or heard at any time and anywhere. I was speechless as I was so grateful when she said that.

‘Don’t you think I’m miserable, Tia? Don’t you feel it’s terrible that I remember everything about you without forgetting it at all? Aren’t you scared of me because I can collect all the information about you to infer all your emotions and thoughts? ‘

My lovely lady, I keep turning to you. It was you who comforted me, praising my cursed memory highly when others were so scared of it. You are so cruel because you fascinate me all the more when I have to leave you soon. As I know that you mean well, and as I know your pure heart better than anybody else, you are so lovely as you are the only one in the world who understands me. You are truly ruthless because you make me keep longing for you even while I’m looking at others.

‘What should I do about you, beautiful and cruel Tia?’

I looked at her for a long time, who was so happy to see my kitten, Tia. I wanted to remember her wavy hair, her neat silver eyebrows and long, thick eyelashes, sharp nose, sweet pink lips, slender face and slender body that hardly looked like a knight for a long time, even her white fingers stroking the kitten. I also remembered her smiling shyly as if she noticed my intense gaze on her.

“Allen, how about playing chess? We haven’t in a long time.”

‘You’re still avoiding queen, Tia.’

I knew that since I played chess with her when we were children.

As if she rejected her fate to become the empress, she rarely touched the queen, even when she could beat me by using it. Instead, she was obsessed with knights and rooks as if it reflected her desire to be a knight and succeed the family.

“Can you give me a piece of advice, Allen?”

I never thought I would tell her something that I vowed I would never let her know.

I still wanted to have her stay by my side without being interested in something like a queen.

As she was in danger if she was with me, I thought I couldn’t help it. I repeatedly told myself that it was okay, although nothing was fine.

Only one of the limitations of her unconsciousness was lifted, but she changed so much compared to me, a genius. After playing chess, I stood up, feeling frustrated more than ever. When she asked me when I would like to go to the village with her, I felt light-hearted again.

Suddenly, I felt empty. Can I live away from you when I am now glad, and now sad like this?

“Allen, what should they do if those with shadows want to escape from them?”

Shadow?

Although you are shining brightly, I sometimes notice darkness in your eyes, Tia.

Only now you seemed to have realized it. It looks like you think it’s a shadow to you.

Do you want to get out of the darkness and go out to the world of light now, my lady?

But Tia, you are asking the wrong person. As someone who is buried in the dark, always locked in his shadow, I can teach you one thing, namely, avoiding the light and hiding in the shadow. Since I have never been out to the world of light, I don’t know a fundamental solution.

I don’t know how to free you from your shadow. Could you let me know if you figure it out someday? Can you tell me how to get out of this darkness and how to get out of this damn shade.

I see. You’re shining brightly, and you want to shine more brightly. As I was going after you, I had to be your shade all the time. I was your shadow.