Chapter 109 (1/2)

Chapter 109: Chapter 109

Above all, I found her most beautiful when she was messed up like now. Tia’s blind obsession with one thing thrilled me. Her obsession with her father, obsession with me, and obsession with swordsmanship. Her craze about moving forward while ignoring everything around her always thrilled me.

I was satisfied with her as she was, and I wanted to develop my romantic relationship with her slowly, but as the coming-of-age ceremony of the crown prince approached, I became more impatient. When I thought of her spending time with the crown prince, I was upset.

I didn’t like the fact that as she made a debut in social circles, she would draw the attention of many people.

‘She is mine. My lady.’

It was very annoying for me to see an increase in the guys sticking around Tia. I was nervous because she might show interest in other guys.

‘Don’t look at others. Just look at me. Huh? Please! Stay as my lady, like now.’

Out of impatience I egged on this unprepared girl to confide in me. I tried to persuade her with all kinds of sweet talk. I thought she would rely on me even more if I succeeded in making her reveal a darkness within herself. Then, it would be more and more difficult for her to leave me. No matter how many guys tried to approach her romantically or even if the crown prince noticed her charm, I would make sure she would never escape from me.

I promised her that I would never abandon or leave her, begging her to tell me about it as I would share her burden. I took advantage of her strong obsession with me, but I had no intention of healing her mental trouble. I just wanted her to hang on to me in her messed-up condition.

“I wanted to get out of that dream somehow. I didn’t want to repeat that pain. But…”

“… ”

“Now I don’t know. I have no idea what to do or how to escape. ”

I wasn’t sure why she mentioned her dream. I felt betrayed, thinking that Tia, who trusted me, lied to me. As a result, I forgot to tame her gradually by going easy.

Alas, I should have listened to her more carefully.

I wish I had thought about why she, who had never talked nonsense, brought up her dream more carefully. How much better it would have been if I had asked her to tell me in detail instead of asking her what the heck she was talking about! Even if I didn’t believe her at that moment, I should have listened to her seriously and comforted her by sharing her pain and concern first because I could reflect on her story later. I should have noticed that she explained to the best she could.

I regretted numerous times what I had done to her.

I still couldn’t forget how her blind trust in me was shattered. Her erstwhile obsession with me and trust in me kept occurring to me. I couldn’t forget the day she looked at me like a stranger and rejected me.

“Can I ask you to dance with me as an adult?”

“It is my honor, Your Majesty.”

The young lady I saw at the crown prince’s coming-of-age ceremony was so beautiful. When I first met her, she looked like a girl who stayed aloof from reality, but she was now so lovely and beautiful. It broke my heart.

Wearing a dress matched with somebody else’s clothes, she was holding his hand and dancing with him. It was very painful for me to socialize with him. While I was watching her chatting with the crown prince and saw her turning her eyes as soon as her eyes met mine, I could not take my eyes off her because I was completely fascinated by her.

‘Don’t look at him. Don’t laugh at him. Don’t talk to him. Just look at me only, Tia. I’m only looking at you. Just look at me, like I look at you only.’

‘Tia, give me one more chance. Trust me once more.’

‘Please, don’t abandon me. Don’t leave me. You have made it impossible for me to live without you, and you have made me smitten with your ecstatic beauty. Please don’t leave me. I’m begging you like this. Huh? My lady.’

While I was hesitating for fear of being completely abandoned by her, she went down to her father’s estate. I felt like I was going crazy. Several times a day, I felt a swift rage of anger.

Should I go down there and take her right now? Once I take her, let me lock her up in a place nobody knows, so that you can look at me, not noticed by anyone.