Chapter 59 (1/2)

Only when it was getting dark did I return home because Carsein held me until then, saying he couldn’t let go of me since he hadn’t seen me in a long time.

However, when I lay down in bed, my pleasant memories during the day were fleeting.

In no time, I was lost in all kinds of thoughts. I was troubled by my uncomfortable meeting with the crown prince during the day and my father’s gloomy expression when I saw him before going to bed. Above all, I could not forget Carsein’s words that he became a knight only at the age of sixteen.

Although I was younger than him, I didn’t achieve anything, compared to him.

I vowed to live a full life now without being bound to my past, but I was so envious of his talent shining so brilliantly. I kept thinking how good it would have been if I had possessed a brilliant talent like Carsein’s.

I got out of bed thinking I might sleep better if I walked a bit in the garden.

Holding a candlestick in my hand, I opened the door quietly. Those who lived on the same floor as me were Lina, my father, and his assistant, but I had to be careful not to wake them.

While I was walking silently through the dark corridors, muffling my steps, I saw a faint light coming from somewhere in the middle of the corridors.

With a puzzled expression, I walked towards it.

‘Who is it? Is there any other person who is awake at this late hour? ”

I saw an unidentified human shadow between the slightly open doors. I instinctively leaned against the wall closely. My heart was pounding hard.

‘Come on, he is not an intruder?’

I wondered if anybody could be bold enough to break into my house, but the possibility was still there. I extinguished the candle I was holding, then snuck into the room and hid myself in the shadow of a small table. Then, I looked around the room. It was dark, so I couldn’t see clearly, but I could see a large portrait on the wall and a white bouquet under it, let alone a black shadow facing the portrait.

‘Who the hell is this person?’

I opened my eyes wide to check the shadow, but this man, obscured by the darkness, was not easily recognizable.. I could guess the shadow was a man.

“Jeremiah.”

I felt relieved at the familiar voice of the man. It was my father. While standing with a sigh of relief, I flinched because he mentioned Jeremiah.

‘Did he say Jeremiah?’

“It’s been already seven years since you left.”

Jeremiah La Monique was my mother.

“When we were together, the time was fleetingly short, but as I’m alone now, time is passing so slowly. Are you watching me? Our daughter has already grown up a lot. ”

His silver hair shone under the flickering candle. As his shadow fell, he looked more lonely.

“I’m sorry. Tomorrow is the day you left, but I don’t think I can show Tia this time. Please understand my selfish mind. I don’t want to distress her by recalling your memories because she is still young.”

So far, I have never thought deeply about why my father didn’t tell me about my mother. I just thought he didn’t feel healed enough to talk to me about her comfortably. But little did I think he didn’t talk about her because he was worried about me.

“Are you comfortable there? While you were here with me, you never led a peaceful life. So, I hope you are comfortable there. With my feelings of atonement towards you, I wanted to make our daughter live peacefully… But I’m so sorry I can’t. ”