166 I Canst Be The Man You Wan (1/2)

Chiamanda took a quick look at Bones and looked away immediately. It's been a week since her surgery. She has been cooped up inside the hospital for days. She wanted fresh air so she asked that they drive down and she alsowanted to get something for the boss in one of the villages.

Chiamanda took in the evening air. She missed home, she missed her mom and work too. She was a workaholic and strangely, she missed her boss. She overheard Ms Sky talking about the corn from this part of the country. So she asked Bones to take this route.

They've become close, this past few days. He stayed with her in the hospital and refused to leave her side, saying it was the boss's order. He helped her out with the work she had to do. They even talked. She didn't know how she was going to convince him that she wasn't going to die on him.

”Teach me self defense. Teach me how to use a gun”She said all of a sudden, surprising herself. She didn't mean to say it out loud.

Bones thought he didn't hear her right. ”What?” He asked without taking his eyes off the road.

”I want to prove to you that I'm not weak. I've seen Ms Sky fight, she's good. If you don't teach me, I'll sign up with her after she delivers.” Chiamanda turned away from the window and looked at him.

”Self defense can't save you from a car accident. Yeah let's say you are able to tell when there's a bad person around. You can't tell when there will be an accident or a gunshot from a sniper.” Bones said, taking his eyes off the road to look at her for the first time since they started their journey.

”Yeah you are right Bones, you've said it all. I'm sure you yourself can't tell when there will be an accident or a gunshot from a sniper. So stop being a coward and let's give this a try.”

”Actually I can tell if there's a sniper somewhere, especially if I have my guys with me.” Bones said smiling.

”Yeah I get it Bones. You are afraid to let anyone in, for fear that you might loose them or you are just too scared cause of your selfish reason. What about the way I feel about you Bones? Do you think I want to die? no I don't want to so I'll be careful.” Chiamanda paused then sighed ” You no what Bones? it's ok, forget about it. It's not your fault it's my fault for feeling this way about you.”

She looked out the window to hide the tears that were forming in her eyes. She wasn't going to talk about this matter anymore. No more begging a man.

Bones was surprised at her outburst. He's never seen her talk like that before. He smiled bitterly as he replied her after a short while.”I never pictured you for a talkative. I'm sorry Chiamanda. I'm sorry I can't be the man you want.”

”Yeah it's obvious I'm only like this around you. But don't worry, it won't happen again. Don't forget to stop at the next village, I need to get something.” Chiamanda reached for the radio and turned it on.

Bones could hear her voice break, he didn't want to hurt her. He didn't want her crying because of him and he didn't want her to stop talking. She was a beautiful woman, a smart one at that. She deserves someone better, not him. He doesn't have much to offer. He liked her but he was too scared to open up after the hole his ex left behind.

He opened his mouth to talk but he closed them back. It's better this way. She needs one of those educated men, maybe an engineer or a pilot or a Barrister not a bodyguard. He took a peek at her and she was looking out the window. He increased the volume of the radio as he focused on his driving.

Why do I always fall for the ones that I can't get? They are lots of men out there, who would do anything to have you but no, you always fall for the ones who doesn't want anything to do with you. Chiamanda chastised herself as she listened to the music playing on the radio.