198 Reincarnation Effects (2/2)
”However, I didn't want to die; I wanted to meet you again. Thus, I left this world and returned to my father's place and asked him to help me reincarnate. He was angered by my soul dissipating state, and first wanted revenge, but after hearing my story, his face changed, and he sent me to reincarnate without any more words. I can say by that face that hearing my explanation even put him in danger.”
Anpaes had told the information Revgen and Lar had told it to her father, Revgen and Lar's father had also turned into targets due to that, but there was nothing they could do against it.
Both of them had cut relations with the outside world from that moment on, but the method worked because they didn't die after so much time had passed. They understood that being cautious they still have chances to avoid the calamity falling upon them.
In fact, Lar's father was who sealed any memories related to Lar's killer to avoid her being targeted after reincarnation and even made her reincarnate in Liye's world to make their relationship more difficult to deduce.
After all, although reincarnation would increase the potential of the reincarnated, the time before that potential turned into power was the most dangerous one. Lar's father also had enemies, even without counting Lar's killer, Lar's father enemies would be more than enough to threaten Lar's life with her father being unable to move freely in order to avoid the calamity.
”After reincarnation, I was unable to remember who I was, I just remembered fragments about swordsmanship, and I turned into someone who only cared about training with the sword. There was a huge damage to my soul, so it was unavoidable.”
Although her soul was stronger than the others just due to having surpassed the Law Master level, she was still weaker than someone like Liye who had done it with the Death Law, so her endurance after the soul dissipation started was much lower than Liye. Liye's soul was damaged, but most of the loss of memories was due to a seal in the memories and not to the damage.
”When I recovered some memories after advancing to the Novice Rank I almost turned crazy. I had lost everything due to my greed for knowledge. From being a powerful expert respected by everyone and with a beauty also admired by everyone, I turned into a little girl that needed to follow the rules of others, my strength was lacking, my body wouldn't grow due to my impatience to train, and I couldn't even control my emotions well. That powerless sensation was unbearable.”
Although she was the one who chose to reincarnate, the effects of it were something difficult to accept for her. In fact, that happened to everyone who reincarnated.
Even Wyba felt bad when her ApprenticeRank strength returned to a mortal strength due to the seal of Liye; it was easy to imagine how strong would be the effect on someone as powerful as Lar's past life. Moreover, Wyba could just change her form, but Lar didn't have any methods to reverse her situation.
For the first time, Yale was thankful for having his memories sealed, that avoided him having such a hard time after reincarnation. Moreover, with the Last Wish System, he didn't lack a good guidance even without memories.
Lar had suppressed that feeling for a long time, she almost forgot about that powerless sensation, but while explaining her story to Yale, that powerless feeling returned to her, and she started crying.
After reincarnation she never trusted anyone, so she always hid everything deep in her heart, that was the first time she opened up to someone after reincarnation. Sometimes just restraining the feelings isn't enough, it was important to let them out.
”After that, I wanted to search for you, but I had no idea if you have already reincarnated or not. Moreover, my family was insisting on marrying me to someone because they wanted to ensure that my bloodline persisted. I know that is something that applies to all talented kids in the clan, but I can't accept that! Before restoring my memories I didn't bother too much about it, but after recovering them, I only wanted to be with you, it was impossible to accept marrying to someone else just for the clan's sake. Even if didn't find you I was willing to wait until you appeared again in this world, no matter how much time I needed. However, as my family didn't hear me when I told them that I didn't want to marry, I ended up running away from my house, and I reached Sword City.”
Yale knew that arranging marriages for the younger generation was something quite normal in the Revgen Empire, but he couldn't say that he agreed with such practices.
In Yale's eyes, it was better if everyone chose freely and without haste. Of course, his opinion was biased due to the fact Durgan offered his sister to him in marriage without Yale knowing anything about her not her about him.