Chapter 162 - My Song Yu. Finally, It was Worth Waiting For. (2/2)
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‘Today was the fourth year, seventh month and the twenty-fifth day I was not able to see Song Yu. I do not regret the things I had done to the Song family. Or else, she would have been the bride of another person.’
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‘Tomorrow I would be returning to my homeland. I will be able to see Song Yu.’
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‘My family had allowed me to work in Qilin. I chose to be the principal of Jiaxia School so that I could see Song Yu every day.’
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‘Today, I saw Song Yu from the window of my office. She was having P.E. lessons in her sportswear and it was a beautiful sight.’
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‘Today, I saw Song Yu walking to the restaurant from my window.’
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‘Today, I saw Song Yu going to school.’
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‘Chengji is in trouble. The engagement was called off. The bankruptcy of the Song family is exposed. I wanted to remedy this situation, but it was too late.’
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‘Song Yu is working part-time. I hate myself for letting her suffer.’
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‘Song Yu is furthering her studies in B University. I will wait for her graduation.’
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‘Song Yu had chosen architecture as her major. I have begun to pay attention to the trends in the property markets.’
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‘Song Yu went to Chengshi. I requested to be transferred to the Qilin Property. We will meet.’
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‘Today I met my Song Yu. Finally, I could meet her face to face again. At that moment, it felt like I was alive again. I could feel my heart beating and blood warming up. I felt human again.’
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‘I have finally kissed Song Yu. However, I could only pretend that I was dreaming of another lady. She was furious yet still beautiful. She did not know that it was my first kiss. I had not had any other lady in my life aside from her.’
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‘She confessed to me today, but it was meant for another man. At that moment, I felt like my heart had stopped beating. It was so uncomfortable, I felt the pain.’
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‘Song Yu adores another man, but the man is worthy of it.’
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‘I was just in front of her, but she could not see.’
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‘My Song Yu, she is finally my Song Yu.’
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‘I fear that she would know about the truth behind the Song family’s bankruptcy. I am afraid that she would leave me if she finds out.’
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‘As long as she does not hate me and would continue being by my side; as long as she agrees to be my wife, I would be willing to give up the entirety of the Qi family, just to repay her one Song family.’
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‘I care for neither the Qi family nor the Song family. I only want Song Yu. Her taking up my surname and becoming my wife, in this life, forever.’
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‘I want to propose to her, my Song Yu. Finally, it is worth waiting for.’
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Song Yu almost lost her breath. Looking at the strong handwriting on the pages, her chest felt like it had been blocked by a rock, her eyes felt sore and warm. Eventually, with one droplet following another, tears dripped onto the paper.
Every diary entry of his was short, with only a few sentences. Regardless, every day, every page was dedicated to her.
He said he had never been with any other lady. He had been waiting for her. He went so far as to keep his first kiss for her.
A man with such few words, even his diary had little to say. However, the strong handwriting of his showed his untempered emotions.
Song Yu held onto the diary dumbfounded, still feeling astounded by the words in his diary.
She could not help but think about how Qi Chengzhi was when he was writing the diary. What kind of emotions he had running through him, what kind of impressions he had on his mind.
Day by day, he had been counting the days that he could not see her. There was no more than the words which were noting down days that he could not see her.
It could have been such a simple sentence, but it was making her heart ache. It seemed like his daily life had been revolving around her. Constantly taking notes of how long it had been since he last met her, how long he would need to wait before going back to meet her.
His words made her feel like she was his whole world, his only world.
Without her, he would be nothing.
This kind of love was too overwhelming. She thought that she had already loved him a lot. She thought that hers was already enough to return his love. Now only did she know that her love for him was still far shallower from his.
She did not know that he had been watching her for such a long time.
She did not know that the existence of such an innocent man in the world was still possible. Clean on both inside and out while retaining himself in the purest state, just for her.
When she encountered him again, her first impression of him was the clean temperament on him. Now only did she realize that it was not just his appearance.
What if before all these happened, she was to have a boyfriend? What if she had been married? What if… she had given her first time to another man? What would he do? Had those thoughts never crossed his mind?
Would it be unfair to him?
Her fingertips kept caressing on his strong handwriting. She could not comprehend how he had done it. How he could wait for her for such a long time, with such patience.
He was so reckless. Plotting all these, just for her.
Song Yu closed her eyes. His clean face again appeared in her mind again.
At that moment, she missed him very dearly.
Her chest was in pain. She carefully closed the diary and pressed it onto her chest, a place where it closest to her heart.
“You are a foolish, idiotic man,” she whispered while unable to stop holding back her tears. “I am sorry that I haven’t been there for you. I am sorry to have been engaged to Qi Chengji before.”
If it was not for that, he would not be forced out of his hand to the extent that he had to destroy the Song family to marry her.
She was supposed to resent him, but now she possessed nothing but resounding love for him.
‘I would be willing to give up the entire of Qi family, just to repay her one Song family.’ Having read that sentence, she was not able to carry on resenting him anymore.
She knew that he was sincere. As long as she did not hate him, he was willing to sacrifice anything. Even if she had requested for the world, he would also not hesitate to get it for her.
She had never known that one person could love her to such an extent.
Song Yu placed the diary back into the drawer gently, before closing it. With hesitations, she opened the cupboard under the drawer again.
Lying inside was a safe box. Strangely, she knew that what she had been looking for was inside of the safe box.
Song Yu moved and squatted in front of the safe box with her fingers touching the lock softly.
With her fingers shaking after some time, they left the lock.
Forget it. He had written it clearly in the diary, why should she try to open the safe box again?
Song Yu stood up once more, grabbing the folder she had placed on the table.
Her eyes stared on the folder without blinking and seemed to be making an important decision.
Suddenly, her grab on the folder tightened and she left the study room. She had not come across Aunt Yang. If she was, she would be misunderstood if she were to be seen holding onto a folder while walking out of Qi Chengzhi’s study room.
She ran up to the second floor immediately and headed to the dressing room.
She went to the edge where it was specially purposed for accessories and pulled out the drawer, there were lighters belonging to Qi Chengzhi laying inside.
Though he was not smoking then, it was only temporary. The lighters were still being kept as they were either branded or limited edition.
Song Yu did not appreciate the novelty value of the lighters and simply took one of them and proceeded to head back to the bedroom.
Upon opening the door and entering the bathroom, she cautiously closed the door behind her and locked it. Only by then, she pulled out the folder that had been crumpled in her grasp. The creases on the paper were permanent and were incapable of being smoothened out anymore.
She lit up the lighter and set the folder on fire without hesitation. The flame started to spread from one of the corners while engulfing the documents contained within, it turned the edge to black ashes.
Once the flame was nearly reaching the corner where her fingers were holding, Song Yu threw the folder which by then was only a corner into the toilet bowl. While the small corner fell into the toilet bowl, the flame had completely devoured it.
She breathed a sigh of relief. After making this decision, her whole body felt lighter. It was like all the weight pressing down on her body was lifted.
She returned to the living room where Aunt Yang had started preparing for dinner.
Song Yu realized that she had not informed Qi Chengzhi about her early return. She had been in such a hurry before. If he had not been informed, he would still go and wait for her at the entrance of Chengshi.
Thus, she made a call to Qi Chengzhi and told him that she had already arrived home.
“Ok.” To her surprise, the response of Qi Chengzhi seemed to be one of indifference. He did not even ask her about the reason for being home early before hanging up the call.
Song Yu was taken aback. Looking at her phone, she knew that Qi Chengzhi’s attitude was unusual to say the least.