C283 (1/2)
I am only twenty-eight years old, I don't want to die, I really don't want to die, but when the pain gets worse, I know that my path is over, and I am very grateful to the Empress Dowager for her efforts in bringing me into the palace. If I were to say that I was a member of the family that continued in the harem after my imperial aunt, then I would have delayed Xiushan, unlike me, she is healthy and happy, in fact, there are people who will never understand that the ”happy smile” belongs to a healthy person, so Xiushan is a happy girl.
After the incident with Lee An-zhu, it was even harder for me to trust others in this palace. Since Xiushan had come to accompany me, I had to live a happy life every day, and since Xiushan's personality was cheerful, she didn't care whether the emperor favored her or not. She only cared about whether my health was better, so that Mother Ama would no longer worry about me.
The people standing before me are the people closest to me in this palace!
I gently pulled Xiang Xiang Xiang's small hand. ”Xiang'er, your eldest mother can't take care of you anymore. I promised that my royal mother will listen to Ama and my elder brother and happily grow up!”
He might not understand the meaning of death, but he could see the tears of the people around him, and could feel the sad atmosphere. He sobbed, ”No! I want the imperial concubine! I want the imperial concubine!”
She gently patted his head as she hugged him. ”Good girl, don't cry. Your mother is fine. You just need to remember her words!”
Yinzhen threw herself beside my leg and hugged me and cried out loud, ”Imperial Mother, don't scare this child. You'll be fine!”
Yinzhen has always been a reserved child, now that I'm crying so sadly, my heart is broken, I don't want to go, I really don't want to go, I haven't seen Yinzhen get married yet, my tears couldn't help but fall down, I tightly embraced the two children, my heart hurt, after a moment, I gently shook my head, revealed a smile, ”Yinzhen, Yinxiang, don't cry anymore, can you be happy? Weren't you mad to death today? ”Don't cry.”
I raised my head and looked at Xiushan. ”Xiushan, you've been taking care of me all these years, and making things difficult for you. If I'm not here anymore, I'll leave Yin Xin and Yin Xiang to you …”
”Enough!” Before I could finish, the emperor suddenly turned around and shouted angrily, ”Empress, you should rest. Don't say something like that!”
I saw that the emperor was trembling slightly, and I knew that the emperor was worried about me as well …
”All of you can leave now. Let the empress have a good rest. If you continue to cry here, it will only affect your health!” The emperor lightly reprimanded with a heavy sigh.
Everyone was shocked by the emperor's anger, so they stood up and retreated. I reluctantly watched them leave, as if that was the last time …