C163 (2/2)
”Ai!” The empress dowager heaved a heavy sigh. ”This one has been busy with the empress's funeral and this one has never discussed it with you in detail. This one feels it's time to have a good talk with this grandson.”
”Yes, grandmother? Your grandson is willing to listen to your teachings. ” Xuan Ye respectfully replied.
”My grandson, a long, long time ago, this family once told you that you mustn't spoil Rong'er alone. This will cause the palace to lose its balance, but it's clear that you forgot how much you've treated Rong'er this past year, and everyone can see that … If you had treated Dong Zhu better back then, perhaps none of this would have happened today … ” The empress dowager sighed softly.
He always remembered, but last year, after experiencing the fear of almost losing Rong'er, he forgot. He started to think about giving the best to Rong'er, but he never thought that his love for Rong'er would cause such a disaster. He never would have thought that the love he had for Rong'er would bring about such a great calamity, and that the Emperor's love could really not be given to just one person, really could not … Thinking of this, Xuan Ye murmured, ”Royal Grandmother, sometimes I really wish that I am not the emperor and can live an ordinary, happy life with my beloved.”
”Haha …” The empress dowager smiled with tears in her eyes as she spat, ”Your majesty, my son, your father once said the same words as you. It's a pity that both of you are destined to be clean emperors, that's why you have to face such responsibilities.”
”Royal Grandmother, your grandson understands.” Xuan Ye nodded. ”This time, regarding the empress's matter, this grandson thoroughly understands this logic. Since this grandson is the emperor, then this grandson has the responsibility of being the emperor, and this grandson is afraid. This grandson doesn't want my imperial concubines to be immersed in grief every day.
”Grandson, I know that you won't disappoint my royal grandmother, and you won't disappoint Daqing …” The empress dowager's heart ached as she looked at her grandson. Disregarding the emperor's identity, he was just a twenty-five year old man, but his heart was much stronger than a 25-year-old man's. ”Your majesty, I believe Rong will understand.”
He knew that he was wrong, he had forgotten her teachings, but she was still gently persuading him. She was kind to him, and he knew that in this aspect, Rong'er and her grandmother were very much alike. If this wasn't the emperor's family, then he would be a normal family.
At night, Xuan Ye stood on the platform of the Palace, gazing at the bright moon in the sky as he thought to himself, 'Emperor Ama, weren't you as sad as your son? The responsibility of an Emperor and the orders of an Emperor were actually to bind us with their shackles; our feelings should be as clear as the mountains and rivers!' Huang Ama, the mountains and rivers that you left behind are really heavy. It feels so heavy on your child's body. Huang Ama, were you really following a filial queen all those years ago? Your son can leave this place as you wish, but your son cannot, because our river is still unstable, your son cannot allow your ancestor's foundation to be destroyed in your hands, the war in the south is not yet over, your son must take care of your son's responsibilities, Huang'ma, your son will do better than you, withdraw your feelings, do not covet your son's feelings, and transform your son's heart of mortals into the heart of an emperor, your son will do it!
On the platform of the Qian Qing Palace, Rong'er was wearing a light yellow robe. She had not seen the Emperor for almost a month. She knew that the Emperor had been feeling very sad this past month, and she didn't know what the Emperor was thinking, but she was very happy that the Emperor had turned over her cards today. She got off the palanquin and saw the emperor standing on the platform, looking at the moon. She wasn't in a hurry to get on the platform. Instead, she silently stood below and looked at the emperor. Today's emperor … He looked like he had fallen into the desert … So sad... He even felt that his surroundings were filled with this kind of aura …
As if feeling something, Xuan Ye, who was still looking at the moon, suddenly looked at Rong'er. Borrowing the moonlight, their eyes met, and they stared at each other … A long time passed …