C95 (1/2)

I became the current empress of the Qing Dynasty. The first month of our wedding is the day the Emperor wishes. Actually, I was quite happy, because even though the Emperor was young, he had a maturity that did not match his real age. The Emperor rarely spoke to me, and at that time I thought that was how the Emperor would be, but many years later, perhaps I realized that the Emperor liked to speak, and only spoke to people he liked.

At first, I didn't know if it was because I didn't do well enough, but after a few days, I finally found out, because I was a queen that the emperor had no choice but to bestow upon me due to the need of the imperial court's power. I only remembered that on that day, when the emperor returned to the Kunning Palace, he drank some wine. ”Let's go.

After the palace maids left, I sat on the edge of the bed and looked at the emperor. The emperor's mouth kept muttering, ”I am the emperor. I want to kill you all. You guys bully my young …”

I was trembling with fear as I listened. Who was the Emperor trying to kill? I called out softly, ”Your Majesty, don't get so worked up.”

The emperor looked at me with hazy eyes. After a long time, he said, ”Empress? Even my queen wasn't chosen by me. What emperor is I? ”All of you are bullying my youth.”

The emperor repeated, this is the first time, and also the only time in my life, that I've heard the words in the emperor's heart. And after I got drunk, my existence, makes the emperor feel weak?

When the Emperor woke up from his drunken stupor, he didn't remember saying these words, and I never mentioned them again. However, these words had already pierced my heart.

A month after my wedding with the emperor, the emperor moved back to his own palace. The emperor didn't come often, and the empress dowager liked me very much. She would smile and tell me, ”Your majesty, he's in a hurry to get involved with his own affairs, so he's studying martial arts every day.” I knew I was going to be the queen of reason, so I never blamed the Emperor.

Until one day, my palace maid, Spring Apricot, told me that the Emperor had favored a palace maid and was about to grant her a promise. My heart was really sad, but I would never tell anyone about it. Chief, isn't it normal for the emperor to favor a palace maid? ”

Aren't I very magnanimous in everyone's eyes, but my heart is bleeding. After the wedding, other than the first month when the Emperor stayed at the Kunning Palace, the Emperor rarely visited. Aside from that month, the number of times he had visited during the five months since his wedding in September could be counted on one hand. Why? Why doesn't the Emperor want to come to me? My heart ached.

At the beginning of March in the fifth year of Kang Xi's career, on this day, ChunXing brought in two palace maids, Rong'er and Su'er. At the same time, Zhang Shou was officially given the title of ”Ning Palace” to move into this Kun Ning Palace. This promise is older than I am, beautiful, and I have no jealousy of her. I hope to be a good wife, as I have read in the book, without jealousy, only magnanimity.

I like her a lot, especially Rong'er. I always felt that she could see into my heart, that I like to read poetry, that the Chinese teacher who taught me the rules has also taught me some Chinese characters, and although they are not very smart, they always need some stuff to get rid of boring years, and Rong'er also seems to like them, so I have a lot of conversations with her.