Chapter 207 - An Accidental Change (1/2)

Chapter 207 An Accidental ChangeZhang Yunyan sighed silently and shed tears of pain. If Jiaxiang was still alive, how good it would be. She would not be alone in the world and had long been intoxicated with beautiful love.

She was daydreaming. Despite this, she still had to daydream, thus comforting her painful heart.

Zhang Yunyan knew the origin of that inexplicable feeling, and her heart could no longer be calm. Whenever she heard the voice of Shikong, she would remember her fiancé. She would like to hear this kind of voice, which could bring back the good memories of the past. But it also brought endless pain.

She was silently missing and sighing…

Zhang Yunyan unconsciously came up with a thought, and she immediately asked, “Shikong, you are still young. Do you really want to stay in Buddhism for a lifetime? Have you ever thought about coming back to the common life?”

The reason why she had this idea was also because of love. Shikong was not only her benefactor, but also a handsome man. Although she had not seen the appearance of her benefactor clearly, she was convinced about this. Otherwise, the vixen Misty Flower would not be so obsessed with him and be desperate to get him.

Besides, the voice of Shikong was similar to that of Jiaxiang. She was imagining that if she could get together with Shikong, it would be a comfort to her pain of losing the one she loved.

However, she could only think about it. It would be impossible to come true since Shikong had converted to Buddhism. She hoped that her benefactor would return to the vulgarity, then they could get closer and become brother and sister who would depend on each other, and even join hands in the bridal chamber for the rest of their lives.

Shikong listened to Zhang Yunyan’s questioning and was a bit surprised. He could not help but look at his benefactor. He smiled bitterly and said, “I have no such thoughts. I belong to Buddhism for this life.”

His words were like a basin of cold water which had ruined Zhang Yunyan’s good wishes that had just appeared. She felt a bit sad, because it would be impossible to be closer with people who had the similar voice to that of her fiancé, and it would be daydreaming to love and accompany each other with her benefactor.

Yunyan’s heart was bitter. She felt deeply pitiful as if she had lost something.

She sighed and couldn’t help but say, “Shikong, you converted to Buddhism when you were young, and lost the life of being a vulgar man with no love…” She suddenly felt that what she said was inappropriate and hurriedly changed her words. “You are young. It is not easy to stop pursuing the secular life and preferences, and it is a pity…”

Shikong smiled silently and sighed, “This is my choice, and also the only way of my life. I don’t think it’s a pity. The words you just said were also true. When I was young, sometimes I was very upset and annoyed. My teacher knew it too. He said that I had not left the feelings of a vulgar man, and that I couldn’t calm down and cultivate. He wanted to let me go. I am determined that I will be with my teacher and I will cultivate for this life.”

Yunyan felt that what he said was very real and practical. Her benefactor was so young. How could he be willing to be lonely? How could he not think about the secular life? How could he have no feelings about love? She didn’t know whether this determination would change.

She persuaded, “Little master, it is not easy for people to come to the world. You should experience every aspect of it and try different feelings. You shouldn’t easily give up the secular life that you should have. Why don’t you come back to be vulgar first? If you are tired in the future, it would be never too late to return to Buddhism. Why do you bother yourself?”

Shikong sighed, “A few years have passed. I have adapted a bit, and I don’t feel it difficult. Oh, I just have an unfinished wish, so it is difficult to settle down and cultivate. When I have fulfilled my wish, I will be able to settle down.”

Zhang Yunyan saw that she could not persuade Shikong to be vulgar, so her sense of loss was stronger and it could not be eliminated for a while. Although she wanted to get together with the man who had the similar voice to that of her fiancé, she can only be thinking about this beautiful dream.

She hesitated and asked, “Shikong, though we haven’t met for a long time, we have profound affection. It’s a friendship of life and death. I have no relatives in this world. I really want to… I want to call you brother. It’s some comfort to me. I wonder if you can agree.”

Shikong was somewhat surprised, and his heart was beating faster. The request of his benefactor should not be rejected, but he could not simply agree. It was difficult to answer.

He sighed secretly and stuttered, “This… I… I am far from the vulgar life. I can’t…can’t be called this way. Miss, I’m very sorry. But your kindness will be kept in my mind, and I will pray for you every day.”

Zhang Yunyan knew that this would be the result, and she had a cold feeling in her heart. She really wanted to be close to her benefactor, not to mention a person who had the similar voice to that of her fiancé. However, not only could they not step into the bridal chamber hand in hand, but it was also impossible for them to be brother and sister. It was a beautiful dream.

Yunyan felt bitter, and she was missing Jiaxiang again. She shed tears silently…

Shikong stopped talking, and was also caught in the memories of the past…

It was very quiet in the Cave of Fate, and even the slightest sound could be heard. In the silence, there was no peaceful feeling, only a horrible atmosphere, which made them feel uneasy.

Time was quietly passing. Zhang Yunyan felt some slight movement in her body, which was getting stronger and stronger, until it was strong enough to wake her up from the contemplation.

She felt full of Qi and blood, and her body was warm as if every part of it was flowing slowly. She felt that she had never been so full and she seemed to be more powerful.

Yunyan stretched out her arms and didn’t feel tired or sore, thus she got up to stretch her over-stressed body and mind.

Zhang Yunyan casually played a set of fists, and had a different feeling from the past. Was it calm, power, or agility? Is it… In short, compared to the past, the feeling was obviously different.