656 Princess Feelings (1/2)
As Murong Xiu Xiu said it, she did not believe it herself. Her daughter always held a high standard and didn't think highly of any man in the world—even the most outstanding men like Li You Ran were not exceptions. Although Jun Mo Xie's status now was exceptional and his strength was amazing and far from being comparable, all these amazing changes took place in a very short period of time. The Jun Mo Xie before was just a complete scoundrel. How could he be even considered by her?
Moreover, they had only met very few times. At most, it was the occasional meeting when she visited Ye Gu Han. Besides, there was no communication between them. It was really difficult for them to connect.
”I…” Princess Ling Meng opened her mouth and lowered her head. ”… don't.”
Although she denied, she said it with particular difficulty. Tears had already dripped onto her hand before she completed the sentence.
”That night… Uncle Ye was badly injured and only Jun Mo Xie could save him. I pleaded him with no avail. So I could only take a blood oath… I said if he could save uncle, I would… marry him, as wife or even as a mistress…”
”What? There was such a thing?” Although the empress knew that the Jun Family saved the badly hurt Ye Gu Han, she did not know how it happened. Especially this secret: it was the first time she heard about it, and she was flabbergasted.
The tearful Princess Ling Meng looked very pathetic. She looked at her mother with indescribable sorrow and said, ”Mother, I feel so bitter… Only that day did I know that Jun Mo Xie was the one that saved me and protected me all along. He was the mysterious dagger master…
”He had always been an expert; he was at the top rank of Sky Xuan by then!” Upon hearing this, the empress was so shocked that she became speechless…
Princess Ling Meng continued. ”Since that day, I've been paying attention to all of his moves, and I've never missed any news. I even come up with a piece-by-piece analysis of his previous misdeeds…
”Mother, now I realize I am no match for Xiao Yi. Xiao Yi can see the good side of him, but I can't. Not at all. Staying in the palace courtyards isolated me from too many things… Whatever I want to know, I can only rely on other people's words, but the truth is always lost in the fog! Loyalty or treason, virtue or foolishness, I cannot decipher. The so-called quality of personality is even more elusive and difficult to evaluate…
”Mother, I remember you warning me when I was young. You said that the Palace is a place of honor, but also the darkest and most depressing place… You were crying when you said it. I didn't understand then. How could I be depressed being the daughter of the emperor? I was always the exceptional one, the one of superior status. Shouldn't I be happy?
”But I finally understand now. What you said isn't even everything. The palace is also the most hypocritical and disgusting place! Everyone living in the palace is an idiot. No matter how smart, when they enter the palace, they will become dumb… We can't even control our own future. Our entire life is a lie and there's no truth… Mother, this is so deplorable!”
The empress looked at the flickering candlelight blankly. She sighed deeply. The reflection of the flame was dancing in her pupils. It was like a dancing dream, revived by her daughter's confession. She recalled the past she thought she had long forgotten…
There were once a confident boy, and a pure and beautiful girl. There was glowing and the growing warmth of the sun in spring and the aroma of flowers in autumn. There was also a moss grown path they would walk past, side by side. And, the hugs and cuddles…