383 The Responsibility and Farce (1/2)
Jun Mo Xie had never had time for genuine emotions in his previous life since he had been a hit-man. So, he had never experienced romance. He would merely spend silver and gold to buy a good time if he wanted to satisfy his physiological needs.
And, that was because he couldn't afford to love…
He couldn't afford it despite being the King of Assassins.
One's heart is bound to fetter if one falls in love. And, having a family can be of grave disadvantage against any opponent since the enemy can easily make the said-family a target. Jun Mo Xie had been assassin. So, it was hard to tell how many families he had seen fall to tragedies by the hands of assassins…
He wasn't afraid that his family would harm him. Rather, he was afraid that he would cause harm to his family!
The pain of losing one's loved ones… whether oneself or close relatives… is extremely painful torment.
Therefore, he didn't dare to do it. He genuinely couldn't dare to do it.
He had run into many beautiful women ever since he had come to this world. Guan Qing Han, Dugu Xiao Yi, Princess Ling Meng, or even that Silver Blizzard City's Princess Han Yan Meng — each one of these women were one amongst many. And, it was very rare to find such peerless beauties. They may have been cold and aloof, lovable and cute, graceful, or even very intelligent… but, each one would be the considered the finest woman around…
Jun Mo Xie admired their beauty. In fact, he had a very favorable impression of them. But, he had always ensured that he never crossed the line with them. He was fully aware that Dugu Xiao Yi liked him to the bone. But, Jun Mo Xie still wavered, and found it difficult to decide…
It wasn't that he was 'wavering' when one comes to think of it… it was more like he was considering different aspects…
He had a special feeling for Guan Qing Han in his heart. But, Jun Mo Xie had never revealed it.
This was because Jun Mo Xie hadn't yet realized that he could start a family now… Perhaps he wasn't prepared for it in his heart.
However, he would never have thought that he would lose his mind due to some unfortunate circumstances and freak accidents… And, he would then forcefully snatch-away Guan Qing Han's virtue. And thus making her his first woman!
…
Jun Mo Xie wouldn't pay much attention to a woman who was very pretty… or even visually captivating. He may have enjoyed himself by means of flirtation, but he would forget her once he had turned his head away. But, he could never do the same to Guan Qing Han. Jun Mo Xie had opened his eyes, and had seen her besides him. He had then tried to assess the cause-and-effect of that incident. And, his heart had filled to the brim with an acute feeling of responsibility and tenderness once he had realized the matter…
[Responsibility! Responsibility towards a woman!]
Jun Mo Xie clearly understood that this feeling wasn't something he was going to reject… even if he couldn't understand it properly. In fact, this emotion felt particularly warm on the contrary.
He was unaware of Guan Qing Han's opinion on the subject. But, Jun Mo Xie had already decided that this woman would be 'his woman' from this day onwards! The first woman the Evil Monarch had accepted!
Jun Mo Xie gently caressed the soft and long hair that covered the pillow her head rested upon. And, he felt a touch of tranquility inside his heart. [I've finally found a companion in this world. And, it feels like I don't have to worry about getting separated from her…]
[This is a very wonderful feeling.]
[These fetters… these feeling of tenderness… aren't as awful as I thought they would be.] The corners of Jun Mo Xie's mouth drew back into a smile as he looked at Guan Qing Han's face. He then drooped down her face, and gently snuggled her forehead as he said softly, ”I'm sorry… and thank you.”
After that, he got up and decided to leave. He went out without saying anything. His body's innate quality was genuinely amazing. He had been in an extremely fatigued state a while ago. But, things had improved very significantly in a short while. He had recuperated to a considerable extent, and his aura had also been reinstated. His spirit sense had detected five or six people outside. And, he could tell that they were standing there with a foolish expression on their faces. Jun Mo Xie knew who they were… and why they were there…
[The sounds of activity in my tent mustn't have been faint. Moreover, it had lasted for a very long period of time…]
[Therefore, it would've been very strange if the Third Uncle and the others hadn't taken any measures.] Jun Mo Xie smiled bitterly. He had already guessed the dangers he would face once he'd leave his tent…
[After all, the fact that Third Uncle had freed Guan Qing Han from her matrimonial ties to the Jun Family hasn't been made known to the world. So, everyone must've thought that Guan Qing Han was still my sister-in-law. So, my actions tantamount to forcing myself on my sister-in-law…]
However, Jun Mo Xie didn't wish to escape from this situation. In fact, he wouldn't escape. If he had done the deed… then, he had done it! What was the worst that could happen? A real man would admit his fault. And, how could he not support his woman's happiness? How could he be called a 'man' if he didn't?
[I will face it. It may be a raging storm, but I will face it! In fact, only I can face it!]
Guan Qing Han's eyelids softly blinked at first. Then, they slowly opened as Jun Mo Xie walked out. Two lines of tears flowed from the corner of her eyes. However, her face had a faintly satisfied smile on it…
[Is this what having a 'family' feels like?]
[Is this what having a 'husband' feels like…?]
[This feeling… is amazing. And, it's something I don't wish to let go of.]
She had suffered a lot. And, she had lost face. But, she didn't have any regret in her heart. She hadn't been able to stop herself once she had guessed Jun Mo Xie's circumstances. It could be said that she had a choice in this matter at first. And, she could've left in the beginning if she had wanted to. Therefore, it could be said that she had voluntarily opted for this…
Then, Jun Mo Xie had been very gentle and considerate a moment ago since he thought that she hadn't woken up yet. And, that had made her feel happy… very happy. And, that's because he had done that whilst believing that she hadn't woken-up yet. This indicated that those gentle feelings had genuinely emerged from his heart. That was tenderness from a real man. And, this had raised huge waves of chaos in Guan Qing Han's heart.
This was a feeling of being taken care of by someone.
[This felt genuinely nice and warm… so warm… I think I'll cry…]
Tears streamed down Guan Qing Han's face as she smiled. Her face resembled a rosy flower that had been moistened with the early-morning dew. Her smiling face was like a beautiful blossom. It was a very touching moment. But then, she recalled her embarrassing identity, and suddenly became sad…
[What should I do? This is… a sin…]
Jun Mo Xie was covered in cold sweat as he walked out.
This cold sweat hadn't arisen from the physical exercise he had done with Guan Qing Han. Jun Mo Xie admittedly felt uncomfortable on a physical level, but he was more worried about Guan Qing Han's suffering. [I have a robust physique, and that wretched medicine had a huge effect on me. I had lost consciousness due to that drug, and those movements had continued for the entire day. How could Guan Qing Han endure all that?]
[I don't even know how berserk I had gone!]
He had later noticed that Guan Qing Han had nearly died. So, it was rather fortunate that he hadn't continued any longer. In fact, Guan Qing Han's fragrant and delicate body would've been vanquished if he had continued for even a quarter of a day more…
[That was a close call!]
[It was quite risky!]
[Dugu Xiao Yi's medicine was indeed fierce, but it fortunately wasn't too excessive. Moreover, Guan Qing Han's body isn't too feeble either. Her physique has always been good since she has been trained to fight since early childhood. So, her physique is much better than normal women. And, that's why she was able to endure that frantic torment. Otherwise, the situation could have taken a turn for the worst…]
However, Jun Mo Xie was completely unaware that the drug which the little girl had given him wasn't too excessive — it was far beyond the realms of excessive! Dugu Xiao Yi had feared that her rice won't be properly 'cooked'. Therefore, she had gone all-out when she had added the medicine to the wine, and she had thus emptied the entire packet.
Jun Mo Xie had a special innate physique, and Hong Jun Pagoda's aura had also nourished his corporeal body. These factors had neutralized a part of the medicine's effect. Otherwise, it was quite possible that he would've been engaged with Guan Qing Han still…
The Young Master Jun smiled bitterly as he went out. His body had recovered to some extent, but it still felt empty under his feet. In fact, he felt like he was walking on cotton-like mist. He could feel that his feet were still weak as he walked…
[Damn! This is so exhausting! I was feeling so good a moment ago…]
Jun Mo Xie hadn't realized that he had been working non-stop for the past ten hours. And, the fact that he was able to stand and walk after that intense high-rate and continuous exercise… was a huge miracle in-itself.
This may be hard to imagine for some. But, the said-individual may try doing push-ups for ten hours without a break. It could be guaranteed that the said-individual wouldn't even be able to get up after that…
Jun Wu Yi and the others appeared to be gloomy… and at a loss. Then, they looked at Jun Mo Xie as he staggered out owing to the weakness he felt in his legs. Consequently, they didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and their expressions became strange. The little girl was seated on the ground with a blank expression on her face. And, she started to tremble when she saw Jun Mo Xie. She then burst out crying with sorrow and regret…
Jun Mo Xie was startled at this. [You gave me that medicine, and started the fire. Then, you ran away. And now you're crying? You are the one to feel wronged here…?]
He was unaware that Dugu Xiao Yi felt as if she had 'come-off worse while trying to gain an advantage'. She had tried to do a skillful maneuver, but had been clumsy and had dropped the stone on her own foot instead. She was scared because of the reversal of fortunes. And thus, her heart was full of complex feelings she couldn't endure…
She had originally planned to 'cook rice', and monopolize him. Consequently, the rice had been cooked thoroughly. In fact, it was boiling. But, she didn't like it because it was scalding hot. Therefore, she didn't eat it, and was unable to take advantage of her plan… how could she not be depressed?
And then, she saw Jun Mo Xie emerge from the tent, and recalled that Guan Qing Han had been taking ”advantage of her plan” this entire time. This made her feel wronged and angry. In fact, she wanted to say something, but was unable to. She wanted to shout at first, but she started to cry instead…
Jun Mo Xie had barely moved out of the tent when he saw the Solitary Eagle give him a 'thumbs up'. And then, his three Dongfang uncles gave him a very strange stare that reeked of innuendos… which were very meaningful indeed…
However, Jun Wu Yi didn't know whether to laugh or cry as he saw his nephew come out. He looked at Jun Mo Xie through the dark circles that surrounded his eyes, and asked, ”You've come out? How are you? And, how is Qing Han?”
The Third Master Jun wasn't worried about his nephew in reality. The Young Master Jun looked weak and unstable. In fact, his face even seemed a bit lean. But, he was still safe. So, Jun Wu Yi was actually worried about his adopted daughter — Guan Qing Han. The Third Master Jun had figured that Qing Han would've wanted to help Jun Mo Xie since was suffering from that unbearable toxin, and may have decided to staunchly endure him. However, it would a horrifying scenario if she became depressed over losing her virtue, and decided to end her life because of it…