Chapter 934 - That Belongs To You (1/2)
*Flashback Continued*
Chen Hana thought that since Xiu was getting accustomed to society, her psychological condition will improve. Her childhood trauma, she'll be able to overcome. However, Xiu's psychological shadow wasn't that easy to remove.
If anything, it only deepened with time.
They say a good actor is one that can become one with the character they are about to play.
Xiu was known to be that kind of an actor. There was no wonder why she succeeded and why she was highly praised always. But it had its deadly drawbacks.
The characters Xiu played, started to haunt her life. Her psychological condition had never recovered from the very beginning. She had just found a distraction for herself and while acting, she had learned to act normal. But at the end of the day, she was still the same person who had nightmares and whose personal life was filled with gloom.
The first time Chen Hana noticed that something was seriously wrong was when Xiu was sixteen and suddenly insisted on becoming a golf player. At first, Chen Hana thought she was just momentarily interested in golf and didn't take it seriously. Later, when she attended the premiere of Xiu's film, her eyes widened in shock.
The character she played as was a golf prodigy and she was obsessed with golf.
Chen Hana's heart shook when she realized the implication of this fact. She couldn't help contacting a psychologist for her. And it was later confirmed that Xiu had started to take fictional characters too seriously and emotionally. She would lose herself in acting.
And she wasn't the first one to do so either. There were plenty of actors who once lost themselves in their roles to the point of committing suicide or going insane completely. It scared her so much that she tried to stop Xiu from acting.
But that was the only thing that brought Xiu happiness, she couldn't stop herself from loving what she did. Several times, Chen Hana blamed herself for her condition. She thought if she wasn't obsessed with making Xiu reach the top, Xiu could have been saved but it was too late now.
The entries on the diary had become scarce towards the end. But one thing was consistent, Chen Hana was constantly left disappointed when she couldn't help Xiu.
'Her psychologist said she is losing the sense of reality. Her memories are all messed up. It's like her mind is playing a joke on her. She can only recall bad memories of her life. As if nothing good ever happened around her.'
Reading that, Xiu's mind buzzed as her whole body trembled. Those words were not wrong. She agreed. It was only recently that she had started dreaming about the smallest details of her childhood. Before that, she always felt like her life was shrouded in darkness.
She was mentally ill and she had known that for a long time now. She just never realized it had been so bad. No wonder people were able to manipulate her so easily. She was already an easy target for anyone.