Chapter 873 - Sinking (2/2)

”Huh?” Xiu looked at him inquisitively.

”You went to sleep three days ago,” told Darren. ”So whatever you remember, all of that happened three days ago.”

Xiu scratched the back of her head sheepishly, ”You must have been worried. I'm sorry.”

Darren rubbed her head gently, ”It's alright. More than me, everyone else was a lot more worried. In fact, both Uncle Zi and Uncle Ze were so worried that I felt like I was under-worrying.”

Xiu didn't react to his words at all. ”I need a break.”

”What do you mean?”

”I need a break so that I can give birth to my son in peace,” said Xiu. ”Every day something happens that I can't handle. How am I so weak? No matter how hard I try, how come I always end up failing miserably?”

Darren smiled at her, ”Sweets, you're not weak. You're handling everything in your own way. The fact that even after learning about such crazy truths, you are still okay is saying something.”

”Who said I'm okay?” retorted Xiu. ”I'm scared that I will lose whatever I have today. Because it doesn't belong to me.”

”But I belong to only you,” said Darren firmly. ”I'll always belong to only you. And you'll never lose me. I won't ever let that happen. I'll do my best to protect you, our son, and our family. I promise you that.”

”But I can't keep letting you protect me,” said Xiu. She touched the badge on his head as she said, ”You always get hurt because of me. And I don't like that.” She lowered her eyes and added, ”It's my punishment, I shouldn't let you suffer with me.”

”What punishment?” asked Darren with a frown.

”Isn't it, my punishment?” retorted Xiu. ”They say the one who gives up on his life, will have the worst end. Since I gave up on my life, life is playing all these jokes on me. I can't even stand before my father and call him mine. I can't even tell him that I'm his daughter. And if I really decide to tell him everything, do yoou think I have the courage to face him? How should I tell him that his daughter was a cowered who gave up on her own life? And what if he gets disappointed in me? No, he'll definitely be disappointed. Also, what about the pain he'll have to go through all over again? Am I really strong enough to watch him suffering again because of me?”

Darren hugged her tightly and kissed the top of her head, ”Shh... Stop thinking. If you don't want to face anything, we won't go through it. Even if it's your punishment, as your husband, I'm willing to suffer along with you. I just need you not to give up. Not ever again!”

Xiu offered him a broken smile as she said, ”Regan, even if I end up giving up on myself again, I can never give up on you. I'm not strong enough to leave you again.”

”Good,” said Darren. ”Now, stop thinking about all of this. We'll slowly solve everything. Whatever it is, we can slowly go through it. There is no need to rush. It's a complicated matter, we should take time. Let it all sink in slowly. The more your struggle, the more easily you'll get tired. And more helpless you'll feel.”

Xiu's eyes widened at his words as his words made her recall the dream that had been following her. Indeed, when she struggled, she always tire herself out. But this time, when she allowed herself to sink, everything seemed easier. How strange...

”It always gets better when you're talking,” said Xiu.

”Oh? And here I thought it always gets better when you're talking,” replied Darren. ”Isn't that why I love hearing your voice? No matter how much nonsense you talk, I'm always listening attentively.”

”I talk nonsense?” retorted Xiu as she looked up at him.

Darren chuckled softly, ”No. You absolutely don't.”

Today, however, even his smile didn't make her smile like it usually did. Today, she just felt tired after only talking this much.