Chapter 821 - An Old Lady (1/2)
Ah-Si thought about Darren's words and said, ”Can you also tell me how to forget it all? Is there an easy way to forget it? Because I can't seem to forget it.” He looked at Xiu and added, ”In the future, whenever I'll look at her, I'll remember it all over again. So, I don't think I'll be able to forget it.”
Xiu frowned at him, ”Are you telling me to disappear?”
”Why are you twisting my words?” retorted Ah-Si. ”I'm just saying I won't be able to forget it.”
”Then accept it,” suggested Xiu. ”The best way for you is to just accept it all. Let's see it this way... You don't know anything about Bai Xiu. You don't know what she was like. From the beginning, you have met me. And only me. Then you shouldn't find it difficult to accept it. You can just treat me as you've been doing so far.”
”You're right. It shouldn't change much for me since I've only met you,” said Ah-Si. ”But what about Nora?” Xiu covered her eyes with her own hand as he went on, ”She met both you and Bai Xiu. She doesn't know that someone else's soul is now living inside the body of her best friend.”
”And I don't wish for her to know either,” replied Xiu.
”You want to keep lying to her?” questioned Ah-Si.
Xiu exhaled, ”If this lie can save her from pain, then yes! I'm very willing to keep up this lie.” Ah-Si's brows furrowed up slightly, ”Telling her that her best friend is actually dead won't do her any good. Maybe my heart would feel better once I tell her everything honestly but have you thought about what it would do to her? Even without knowing either Chen Xiu or Bai Xiu, you're looking so conflicted and bothered. What about her?”
”Ah-Si, the fewer people know, the better,” said Darren. ”No one wants to deceive anyone here. Especially my Sweets. But when the truth seems inconceivable, it's better to let the lies go on.”
”Right!” agreed Xiu. ”Besides, you never know people. What if someone put me in a mental asylum? Although I do think I belong there, I don't want to go there.”
Darren knocked on her head lightly, ”Stop talking nonsense.”
”Oh...” responded Xiu and didn't speak again.
”I learned something from my brother,” said Ah-Si and hesitated for a long time. ”Chen Xiu... I mean you are not related to Aunt Suyin.”
Xiu hummed softly, ”I just learned that as well.”
Ah-Si brows raised up, ”Aren't you surprised? Or aren't you feeling bad after learning about this?”
”Why should I?” retorted Xiu.
”Because from what I heard, you chose to die after learning that you're Aunt Suyin's daughter.”
Xiu had a look of enlightenment as she told him, ”I'm over that now. Since knowing that I'm her daughter made me hate my existence, now knowing that I'm not her daughter has given me a new purpose in life.” She smiled at him, ”You really won't be able to understand my feelings.”
”At the moment, I'm even struggling to understand you and not just your feelings,” replied Ah-Si. ”Anyway, I also learned that Chen Hana wasn't your mother either.”
Xiu hummed again, ”Yeah. Got to know that as well.”
Ah-Si continued to keep an eye on her expressions as he went on, ”Then aren't you curious about yourself?” Xiu raised her brows inquisitively. ”Aren't you curious to know about Chen Xiu's identity? Her parents? Her family? Or who she really was? Where she came from? How she ended up with Chen Hana? And if Chen Xiu was really her name?”
”Are you trying to make me feel miserable by reminding me of that?” asked Xiu.
”Huh? What do you mean?”
”You're reminding me that Chen Xiu wasn't my real name. Just like Bai Xiu isn't my name as well. So, that makes me a no-name soul who lived two lifetimes on borrowed names. Isn't that miserable?”
Ah-Si was stunned by her words and hurriedly said, ”That wasn't my intention. I only pointed it out because I wanted to know whether you thought about who you really were. I had really no other intention.”
”Forget it,” Xiu stopped him from continuing. ”It really doesn't matter. It won't change anything. As I said to Regan earlier, whoever Chen Xiu was, she is dead.”
”But you're here,” Ah-Si blurted out.
”That changes nothing,” said Xiu firmly. ”Even if Chen Xiu had a family, they must know that she is dead. And if they have already accepted her death, what's the point in going back to hurt them? It'll only hurt them more. Besides, I'll have no way to prove my identity as Chen Xiu either.”
”What if I have a clue about Chen Xiu's family?” questioned Ah-Si.