740 Go Home (1/2)

Darren looked at her with a strange look in his eyes. What did she mean? Suddenly, everything around him spun and he found himself back where he started from. He was standing underneath the apartment complex once again. The only difference was that this time, she was standing with him.

”Look there,” she said and for some reason, Darren didn't want to move. His heart knew what she wanted him to see but he refused to see it. He didn't want to see it. No! Not again! ”Open your eyes... Stop running from it.” Darren slowly opened his eyes and looked over. As he had expected, he saw that lifeless body drenched in blood. The blood dripped down from her wounds as if it was blood rain. He felt someone clutching his hand and looked at that person. She was still standing beside him but she was also laying lifeless there.

Which one was real? Which one was his own illusion? Or all of it was just his illusion?

”Isn't it a part of you?” she questioned. ”This is one of those moments that made you who you are today. Then why do you always want to change this moment?”

”Because... Because I wanted to save you,” he said as something hot trickled down his face.

Her cold hands wiped his tears as she said, ”But you did save me.” He looked at her wide-eyed. ”The Chen Xiu in your memories is so beautiful that even the real could never compare. The love you had for her was so pure that it'd put people to shame.” She held his hands and added, ”Do you know why you're here?” He shook his head. He didn't know why he was suffering through the same pain and torture all over again. Why this place? Why? The looming shadows of this night would still haunt him and he'd get up in the middle of the night to hug his wife and would only calm down seeing her alive and breathing beside him.

He suddenly froze, 'His wife?' Who is his wife? Why did he think of her at this time? Why did just thinking about her made every pain he felt to vanish?

The 'Chen Xiu' beside him spoke again, ”This is your deepest darkest desire. It's that one part of your past, you're still subconsciously holding on to. It's that one regret that doesn't let your heart be at ease. Because you think if you have been able to save her that night, everything would have been better.”

Even if he wanted to, he couldn't deny those words. No matter how much he convinced himself that he had moved on, he was still living in the nightmare of this night. This nightmare where he watched her leaving this world. This nightmare became his prison. This nightmare that he couldn't even hate at one point because it was the only place he was able to see her again.

”Chen Xiu is nothing but a regret of your life,” her voice drifted into his ears. ”But what about her?” Darren blinked and looked up. Suddenly, he found himself in a park. There she was sitting on a swing with a kid of five or six years old in her lap.

He stood there smiling foolishly as he gazed at her lovingly... Yes, that's the one! That is his wife! How can he forget her? He'd rather forget himself than her.

”Mommy, what are we doing here?” he heard that milky voice of the little boy asking her.

She pinched his cheeks and said, ”We are sightseeing!”

”Sightseeing? What is that?” that adorable voice asked again.

She rubbed his head, ”Grow a little bit more, mommy will teach you the art of sightseeing.”