670 Best Version Of Yourself (1/2)

After crying her heart out, she lost her voice even further. Since her heart had come to a decision, she felt relatively calm now. Chen Xiu had no intention of seeing a doctor for this. She didn't think she needed it now. She got up and cleaned herself up. Dressed up in clean clothes before she put on ointment on her wrists and ankles that had the bruises from the rope.

”Ah!”

Even when she screamed in pain, she still had to do it all on her own. And she did.

For the next couple of days, whatever she ate, she puked out. Her stomach couldn't hold it in. That further weakened her body. And every night, she would think up of a new way to die.

For instance...

Holding the kitchen knife in her hand, she continued to stare at it for a long time. As if some whispered in her ear, ”Just do it. There is nothing left for you here. This is the only way.”

In the end, she slammed the knife down and stepped back saying, ”No. What if the cut is not deep enough and I survived? It'd be too much of a trouble.”

It happened again, the next day...

She tied the rope and stood up on the stool. She even wore the rope around her neck when the same voice whispered again, ”There is no way you'll survive this. It's very simple. Just let the stool go and it'd done. Easy, isn't it?”

Taking a deep breath with her eyes closed, she came down saying, ”I have always been a fan of my swan-like neck. How can I leave such a hideous mark around it? No, no! It's not acceptable.”

Just like that, she let another day passed. Even though she had wholeheartedly decided to take her own life, she still couldn't bring herself to do so. Every day she looked for an excuse. And every time she found a ridiculous excuse to step back.

Just like that, a week passed. The bruises on her skin healed sooner than she had expected. And she thought it was fortunate because that day Han Bohai came back from An City after spending a long time with his cousin.

Obviously, the first person he sought after coming back to the Capital was Chen Xiu.

”What is the occasion?” he inquired as he looked at the table full of delicacies. Every dish on the table was his favorite.

Chen Xiu's smile towards him was softer than usual. It was brimming with warmth. Her heart finally answered why she had been hesitating for the past week. She wanted to meet this idiot just one last time.

”I missed you, Xiao Bobo.”

”Huh? What's wrong with you Sister Xiu? I was only gone for two weeks.”

”I know but I missed you a lot. I realized how deeply you're connected to my life.”

Han Bohai felt proud, ”Now you know my importance.”

”Am I especially handsome tonight? Why do you keep looking at me?” he joked.

”You had always been handsome.” Her answer wasn't out of the norm but it gave him an uneasy feeling.