498 All About I (2/2)

”You know most often people assume that I don't set my priorities straight but it's not true. Not completely.”

”Oh? How is that so?” he wondered.

”I have so much going on in my life that it's becoming difficult for me to keep my mind sane. Perhaps, my idea of solving one thing at a time isn't favored by many but that's my way to cope with this reality of mine.” Xiu didn't know why she told this truth to him. Even though she didn't explain her situation, her eyes were enough to express her struggle. Having to fight with her own bad memories and the one that belonged to a completely different person, wasn't something anyone could take lightly.

Until now, Xiu had used up all her means to distract herself to keep herself sane. But she really didn't know for how long she was gonna able to hold on now. With each letter, the overwhelming feelings of Destiny and her emotions were getting to her. Even if she tried to keep up the pretense of a strong and cold person, in reality, she was still that pure and kind-hearted Chen Xiu at heart. She wasn't immune to the emotions of Destiny. In fact, Destiny's reminder was making her feel guilty.

The deeper she understood Destiny, the deeper her own heart was being scared for having this second chance at life. Her biggest question was, why her? Destiny wanted to live while Chen Xiu wanted to die, then why this twist of fate?

”So, Xiao Zi, please tell me what connection do you share with Destiny Novell's father?”

Now, with that question, Xiu finally caught a flicker of emotion in his eyes. Her conjecture was actually straightforward. Even when she showed herself as ignorant, there was a lot that she couldn't overlook.

Xin Zimen pondered over her words while his eyes didn't waver as he stared straight into her eyes. Xiu didn't back off either. She was willing to look challengingly and urgingly back at his eyes. There were too many unanswered things in her life.

”You don't know who your father is?” he questioned after a moment of silence.

”If I did, I wouldn't be standing here. In fact, even if I do know who he is, I can't recollect that memory of mine. I believe you already know about my amnesia.”

He sighed out heavily, ”So, tell me... Which one do you want me to answer? Should I tell how I know your father or should I tell you who your father is?”

”Both,” she replied firmly.

”What are you gonna do with this knowledge? Because if you're planning to go look for him, I won't allow it. Until and unless you have recovered your memories to tell me why you suddenly lost your memories in the first place.”

Xiu frowned at his words slightly, ”Do you have some suspicions?” He nodded his head without hesitation. ”Are you worried about me?”

Xin Zimen chuckled ever so softly as he said, ”It might sound weird but I am worried.”

”Then don't worry. I don't plan on finding him just yet. I just feel like this is something I should know now.”

”Alright then... I'll tell you all about it.”